Someone Under Anon Thinks Leaving My Full Name In The Asks Makes Me Scared 😭? Idk The Motive Really

i have been shockingly (?) productive tdy and i fear the apocalypse is soon approaching.

buckle up, stay safe yallz

honn!! how are youuu? I hope u are holding up good! <33

haiii!! i’m managing 😭 i hope you’re doing good toooo <3 miss you loads

6 march 2025

hihiiii <3

very basic day, i gotta revise all 14 chapters of physics cuz tmr’s my final 🥲 but yay, i started at 12 and finished revising 4 chapters (questions + derivations and notes) so pretty happy about how much i got done, it’s gonna be a long night again (when is it not) but i really hope my exam goes well tmr (cbse physics paper reactions scared me)

there’s also a rumour that i could have my math board re exam cuz the paper got leaked (😭😭😭) i might actually cry if that happens cuz math is genuinely my weakest subject, tho it’s fun, i really can’t bring myself to study that subject again.

anyways -

todo list 🎀

i still need to learn ray optics cus i skipped it all year

revise :

magnetism and matter

electromagnetic induction

alternating current

electromagnetic waves

wave optics

atoms, nuclei

dual nature (might skip)

semi conductors

i think i’ll be done with revising by around mid night and then i’ll go through the numericals and formulas again

also i did plan to finish reading ncert by the time my exams end but i really doubt ill do that 😭 boards is already a load of work, trying to fit in 11th bio is a real task so maybe i’ll just finish 11th biology by the end of march. i’ll already be reading 12th bio for boards so only 11th would be manageable after exams.

anyways,

have a nice day loves <3

💌

nothing beats the happiness and dopamine hit you get by crossing tasks off that one long to do list 🤞🏼

28 march 2025

i kinda just crashed yesterday and didn’t do any of this so let’s get it done today

i made a whole study plan for until neet so i think ill just blindly follow that and grind super hard

last one month left :)))

also wont be posting alooooot anymore cuz we gotta lock in yall 😕

anyways goodluck with everything my loves 🌼

💌

27 march 2025

LONG TIME NO SEEEEE

okay i’m back from vacation (had the best time ever) and now it’s time to lock in 😼

i’m starting slow and doing zoology to pick up momentum so today’s goal is to finish the entirety of human physiology.

to do list :

breathing and exchange of gases

body fluids and circulation

excretory products and their elimination

locomotion and movement

neural control and coordination

chemical coordination and integration

okayyy i’m gonna get back to studying now

have an amazing day my loves 🌼

💌

11 april 2025

another exhausting day of physics - i really do need to start chem asw but physics is just so much better but i promise to do chemistry tmr 😭

what i have left - overall:

thermo ktg and shm - questions

12th physics revision + questions - 12hr lecture

11th biology - 12hr lecture

physical chemistry - 11.5hr lecture

inorganic chemistry - 11.5hr lecture

and then pyq’s

okay so i’m hoping to finish the lecture parts by my cet (16,17)

also booked my viteee slot for 21st 9.30 am (mom asked me to book the morning slot so i can come back and study instead of waste my entire day- iconic)

but yeah more or less it.

hoping to finish the remaining of 11th phy by tmr morning and starting of with chem or biology

hope y’all had a nice day

💌

just signed up for therapy 😍 how are yall doing

currently crashing out over physical chemistry cuz why is equilibrium making more sense than mole concept

couldn’t sleep until almost 5, woke up so exhausted too. i hate insomnia.

cleaning up.

i don’t know why i’m back. it’s difficult to put all this behind me, it’s too soon to move on from an exam that i dedicated two years of my life to, so quickly- i feel like it isn’t fair to me. i don’t know if ill post but ill stick around, until im ready to leave? i don’t know honestly but i was cleaning up today- two years of my life has been solely this exam. i felt guilty taking breaks, going to sleep before 3 am made me feel like a failure and i compensated for that for the next day. all the breakdowns and self worth questioning- i put up with everything- just for this one dream- to be a doctor, to make my parents proud but here we are, on the floor- two days after the exam, still sobbing. how does anyone get over this? is there any point in taking a drop? they did this for two years, they’ll do it again. i feel so lost and purposeless. i’ve only ever dreamed of my life with this. my imagination never exceeded what happens after the exam. i feel directionless. i don’t know what to do with my time anymore. but i also don’t feel guilty for taking a break. maybe that’s a good thing? i don’t know.

was life ever more than the exam?