What A Waste Of Two Years, Goodnight.

11 april 2025

another exhausting day of physics - i really do need to start chem asw but physics is just so much better but i promise to do chemistry tmr 😭

what i have left - overall:

thermo ktg and shm - questions

12th physics revision + questions - 12hr lecture

11th biology - 12hr lecture

physical chemistry - 11.5hr lecture

inorganic chemistry - 11.5hr lecture

and then pyq’s

okay so i’m hoping to finish the lecture parts by my cet (16,17)

also booked my viteee slot for 21st 9.30 am (mom asked me to book the morning slot so i can come back and study instead of waste my entire day- iconic)

but yeah more or less it.

hoping to finish the remaining of 11th phy by tmr morning and starting of with chem or biology

hope y’all had a nice day

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fantasising post neet activities but in reality i’m going to rot for three months straight.

travel was so much more tiring than that exam, almost fainted on my way back too

and puked after getting home- what is this heat ?????

wtaf are WPE numericals

am i just stupid

book haul 1 - 24 may 2025

def don’t have bitsat day after tmr 🤚😭

but here :

1. gone series - michael grant (6 books)

2. septology - jon fosse

3. genome - matt ridley

4. iron in the soul - jean-paul sartre

5. the wych elm - tana french

6. a legacy of spies - john le carré

7. the husbands secret - liane moriarty

8. get even - martina cole

9. the take - martina cole

10. the girl who kicked the hornets nest - larson

11. one good turn - kate atkinson

12. the little friend - donna tartt

13. theodore boone - john grisham

14. the goldfinch - donna tartt

i also have a lot of unread books but they’re all classical and i just read something much less existentialist now so i’ll get to them later but i do have :

1. the trial - kafka

2. ecce homo - nietzsche

3. les miserables - victor hugo

4. bell jar - sylvia plath

5. notes from underground - dostoevsky

6. the outsider - camus

also thank you sm for the all the recommendations everyone gave!! i’ll try to look for the books online cuz today i mainly went to a book sale where they sell the books per kg (literally such a steal cuz wdym 15 books for 2k)

hearts of darkness (1991) dir. eleanor coppola, george hickenlooper, fax bahr

self evaluated my paper today.

2 years have been an absolute fucking waste.

27 april 2025

okay so i cleaned my desk cuz it’s been an absolute mess since a few weeks and putting things back genuinely makes me feel less anxious 🙏🏾 so yay

woke up to construction noises again and terrible cramps :( so yeah but anyways

i made last week revision plan where i’ll be doing pyq’s along with revising the syllabus- obviously not covering the entire syllabus for revision now but just the super super important parts of it so yay

i’ll be revising the entirety of physics today - 11+12- mainly formulas and the well known problems so yay, i’ll do the pyq’s once i finish revising

6 days for neet is surreal. goodluck to all of you <3

have a nice day my loves 🌸

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admit cards out, shits never felt more real.

FINALLY GOT A CANDEL LIGHTER 🤭🤭🤭 (im too scared to use normal matchboxes) MY AESTHETICS HAVE BEEN REACHED