I Hate This Feeling

in silence, thousands of unsaid words resound loudly.

i believe that the best way to respond to your haters is not to respond at all.

I truly encourage you to add things that simply bring you joy to your list of things to do that day.

it doesn't have to be big, it can be as simple as making your favourite drink or food for lunch or spending some time on a hobby or watching a show you enjoy.

adding things to look forward to and giving yourself time to experience those things is just as important as doing every other thing on that list.

you're allowed to plan to do things for no other reason than it makes you happy.

you know, the features of my body i admired the most were my eyes. every time i looked in the mirror, i adored the way it glistened with glee. but now that i only see sorrow and pain in them, i'm unable to fall in love with it again.

do not rush the healing process; take your time. just as a flower took a while to grow into a beautiful creature.

nights come devoid of the expanse of your silhouette: only the gnawing

winds

that reproach my bones what good is hope before remorse: when you hacked

your tresses before

my lips

could reach your

nape: with our perse detritus scattered i keep you as a divine shrapnel buried

deep in my pith

inferno: oblivious to your momentum swirling with a taste of non-existence

of

reticence

and you said:

there's no reason to obsess over fiery delights as the remoteness of memory

creeps like

bougainville

somewhere the sky is burning with your chrysanthemums and somewhere

it falls

through

my bones without you: without the taste of your tongue: the first light

won't ever make it here

before your urgencies consume

me and

everything that i will ever

touch

i've had a lot of realizations during these past few days. i used to have big dreams. but now, i'm eagerly looking for contentment as i believe it equates to peace of mind and a lighter heart.

lest we forget how fragile we are

21/11/06-6

i want to love them-- primarily, myself-- right, so i will make myself better.