marywillowfae

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i never know what to say when someone is embarrassed about their age

never related to authors being like "childhood is such a blessed innocent time", catch me with that jane eyre shit like "such dread as children only can feel" and "I then sat with my doll on my knee til the fire got low, glancing round occasionally to make sure nothing worse than myself haunted the shadowy room"

"slut era" i say as i rot and decay in my bedroom and watch the years pass me by as i miss out on core experiences other people my age are having while i think about the past

every successful or even pleasant social interaction feels like a battle won to me. which is fucked up, but that's where we're at.

but i am glad i made a way to have a few more - and regular - opportunities to even have offline social interactions..!

#myhole

Calle la Puebla, Santa Clara de Avedillo, Zamora, Castile and León.

*sassy gay friend from a 90s sitcom voice* Well, Mr. Emperor, I wouldn't mind having a 'heavenly man-date' of my own

tumblr is in such a technical state that it literally has cursed posts for me sometimes - every now and then there'll be a post that does not want to be perceived and somehow makes the entire page scroll back up a few clicks. the only way to keep on scrolling is to scroll by that cursed post REALLY REALLY FAST so it slides out of view upwardly instead of not letting me pass 👍

Angela Greene: Platypus Room (1984)

girl who treats transition like a fandom: hehe i love my cute blahaj and my sockies abd my [INSERT COMMUNITY SIGNIFIER] hehe. lets get naked and have sex

girl who treats transition like a religion: a Body is a Vessel. And a Vessel is Shaped by the Reflections inside a Mirror. A Girl is a Mirror. lets get naked and have sex

girl who treats transition like an ideology: bodies and identities are simply canvases we choose to project our beliefs onto. i am asserting my right to self determination. lets get naked and have sex

girl who treats transition like an elite social club only she and her friends are invited to: snrrrk. cissies think they could ever have a fraction of what we have. its pathetic really. lets get naked and have sex

girl who treats transition like a karmic punishment: why did i have to be born in the wrong body oh my god i hate myself so much. im doomed. lets get naked and have sex but we have to keep the lights off or ill start crying

girl who treats transition like a sex thing: hey you guys wanna play ape escape 2? i fucking love that game

MUTILATE UNTIL IT’S YOURS

firmly in the 'horny about it ngl' camp 👀

Horny about it ngl

one of the more bleak things to acknowledge is that if you pirate literally all of your music and then set aside a spotify subscription's worth of money each month to spend on a single pay-what-you-want album, it would almost immediately amount to you supporting those musicians more than streaming does

yes! kill spotify & co! literally the worst thing that happened to music since the whole major label monopoly debacle

if you wanna invest a little more resources and brain juice, you can even set up your own spotify-like server to stream your stuff to your devices even if you're away from home - especially helpful if your music library gets too big to comfortably fit on your phone storage

i use an amalgamation of old pc parts, debian headless, the lsio swag docker image for connectivity, beets for tagging, and navidrome as the actual library/streaming service, feishin as my desktop music player (fantastic ui and very similar to spotify!) and symfonium for my android devices (which is the only thing not free and open source, apart from the hardware and my domain name, but it's a very good player, and it's only like 9€ one-time after a generous trial) - it took weeks to set it all up since i started from a place of very little knowledge about how servers work etc, but the amount of effort i put into it makes me all the more proud of the finished thing, and i learned a LOT about how the internet works on a technical level! <3

here's a list of programs/sites/whatever that were helpful to me when i was moving away from using spotify & back to downloading music:

soulseek - peer to peer downloading program, has most music you'd want. there's "rules" to it though and the UI is a little confusing, but you can figure it out. there's tutorials. i believe in you

cobalt.tools, ytiz.xyz, yt-dlp - mp3 downloaders, for the songs that you can't find on soulseek

musicbee - music player, extremely customiseable. reminds me of when i used itunes back in the day. has a lot of good features, including syncing music over to your phone

lastfm & listenbrainz - sites that keep track of your listening stats. i'd recommend this even if you still choose to use a music streaming service

syncedlyrics - cmd thing that gets you timed song lyrics, like the ones spotify has. there's no UI but it's easy enough to use. just grab the lyrics and timestamps it spits out and paste it into musicbee

music presence - program that shows what song you're listening to in your discord status, in case you use discord and enjoy the thought of other people seeing what you're listening to, which i do for some reason

i'm not going to lie to you and say that switching away from spotify/streaming services is an effortless task, it took me half a whole day of nonstop Work to get all my music downloaded and sorted out, but i will say that it was worth it!! and you should do it 👍 if you want to

watching a comedy but every time i get the impulse to laugh or smile, i instead shake my head disapprovingly

Some people are really out here like "I like horror, but not jump scares or violence and gore or topics that make me uncomfortable or scared in any way". Brother I hate to break it to you but I don't really think you like horror

Let's write a C++ program together. I'll start us off.

int main() {

i kiss you on the mouth and end my turn

love infodumping, love listening to it and love to participate in it but i'm being so serious rn - if you are a more extroverted person, you gotta learn to keep an eye on the proportionality of your and your conversation partner's talking vs listening time x_x

ITS APRIL 13 YOU KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS

FETCH ME NEIL

slightly more serious less flippant version of my post from yesterday: whether you ar doing so from a point of pro- or anti- nintendo or video games it is so silly to talk about whether 'video games are more expensive now' 'video games have always been this expensive' when what you're talking about is exclusively big-money titles that you're buying on release day at full price. that's not "video games". that's "video games made for current-gen hardware by activision/nintendo/EA/etc". its like saying "Movies nowadays all have Iron Man in them"

many of the best video games of all time are made by one weird trans girl and available for free Free on itch.io. many more are made by two autistic finnish guys and available on steam for like $10. the "video gamse used to be even more expensive adjusting for inflation" thing is only true about usamerican kids who were playing the new nintendos at the time, to me as a kid "video games" were like ~$8 from a guy with a cd burner or when i was slightly older like $20 for three from the second-hand ps2 games bin. like get some fuckin perspective on the medium god damn

to elaborate on that a bit more clearly, ive been really feeling the pressure of like. media as talking point lately. how increasingly it feels the push of many things is less, "read or watch or play this to experience it," but rather "read or watch or play this, to say that you experienced it." art as a disposable commodity for an increasingly wide-scope keeping up with the joneses. and that's all i can see in really griping about how expensive the switch 2 stuff is. like, there's such a wide bank of video games as an art form. if they never made another you could play game all of your life for free. so why is it so bad the new ones are expensive on launch? because their function is not to be understood as a work but as a checklist.

listening to this on repeat rn and-- FUCK how do you get so fucking good at this?! the crisp sound design, the dynamics & structure, the broken down cyberpunk city in the setting sun soundscapes, the shhhhhp that delays the drums to the 2nd beat every now and then like a whip.. you can really hear he must be a really good drummer too-- i'm honestly gushing a little ✨

via @swatercolor [insta]

for april fools we’re deleting this entire site sayonara you weeaboo shits

I know its a joke but "Poob has it for you" annoys me so much because Poob is region locked. Poob does NOT have it for you if you're outside of the US and Canada. I'm not using a VPN and virtual debit card just to sign up to Poob.

womp womp

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