BISEXUAL JAKE PERALTA!

Jax you're a very spirtual person so I know your familiar with the concept of ying and yang, having a light side with a bit of darkness and a dark side with a bit of light. In one of your videos you mentioned how since you've aged your dark side has taken a bit more precedence over your light side and I'm wondering if you'd go more in depth that and explore it a bit more. I'm genuinely interested if thats okay.

…ya know what sure, I’ve mentioned it before but I think I can explain it a bit more in depth.

As I said before as I’ve become older I start to care less and less each year. I’m still an optimistic person but I’m more of a realist and I have A lot less tolerance for bullshit. 

So the best way to explain my Yin and Yang would be to give you this visual

The Light Positive Part of me wants to be like the ALL MIGHT IDEAL, 

I want to help people, I want to inspire people, I want to do good and I just WANT be a good person in general. I’m so happy I have a YouTube with 200k Subs that I can help better themselves and whenever I get a

“Thanks Jax I couldnt have done this without you, or YOU MOTIVATED ME” 

It genuinely makes my day that I was positive influence in someone’s life. 

Like All Might or Captain America etc I just want to be a Great positive influence

But on the other end is my side where I notice in certain almost most situations I LEGITIMATELY DO NOT GIVE A F*CK About Certain shit ala Frank Castle the Punisher

Or Hiei, etc

There are certain times when I see something or I’m Talking to someone about a subject where I see the outcome and they keep doing it and f*ckin themselves over and I’m just so indifferent to it or like “Well you brought it on yourself”.

This is my strict TOUGH LOVE SIDE as I’ve made many posts on before.

Now like I said I used to be primarily positive and happy like All Might Cap/Scenario but nowadays I’ve honestly lost a lot of empathy for people who do negative shit to themselves or take their own personal bad days out on other people. Like people who mitigate feelings of inadequacy when they see someone more successful. 

For example I saw this thing of these women going to get water for their village and one got snatched by a crocodile, that made me so f*ckin ANGRY and LIVID that the poor woman lost her life to support her family. 

But then I see idiots on the internet taunting wild animals and getting ripped up, or setting themselves on fire & becoming burn victims, or eating tide pods and getting sent to the hospital, or ripping their lips up to be like a celebrity and honestly I don’t give a single fuck about them when I see a lot of people give them empathy. All I see is someone who was TOO DAMN GROWN or shouldve had Common fuckin sense for acting that foolish and whatever consequence happens thats what they fuckin get. 

I’ve noticed this feeling a lot, especially in comments and real life if someone is a jackass I don’t care anymore. Before I’d be like 

“Well its important to care for your fellow human even when they f*ck up” but nowadays I just don’t and this was cemented recently when there was guy I knew for 5 years who was always a bit of scumbag died of a massive heart attack. I Knew this guy for years and when I heard it I wasnt like “HAHA fuck you” I was like “Well what else were you expecting” cause he ate f*cking Burger King everyday of the week and he wasnt that swell a person but I feel like I should have at least cared a little bit.  If you eat horrible food every day by your own choice and get sick and die thats on you! But I genuinely had no sympathy and that worried me for a bit.

Now let me say something when I was a kid I idolized Goku (Super Hero Dub Goku tbh) because he was so kind, so humble, treated everyone with respect but was one of the most powerful beings in the universe and if you threatened his friends and family he would eff you up. He showed to never equate kindness to weakness to me which was a big thing to me as a bullied kid and when I grew up I wanted to be just as kind, strong and caring as that Goku was so I honestly acted the part and was voted Nicest in HS. I was Super Positive and helpful but I admit as I was young I was naive in quite a few situations. 

But then I learned YEARS LATER He was never intended to be a good person, this character I was trying to emulate personality wise in my younger years turned out to be false 

This wasnt his character AT ALL

Now I’m Not being petty to say this affected me that bad, I will admit I was shook at first because literally the reason I wanted to be So POSITIVE and HELP people was cause of him cause when I was beaten up and bullied I was in a DARK DARK place mentally and that saved me from being overly depressed and to learn that was lie was a bit meh but I got over it quickly cause I’m an adult and its a fictional series lol

But I’d say probably 2 years ago I steadily started to notice myself get colder. 

HERES an example of a positive situation that helped with

Before if someone said “ I dont like you I think you’re an idiot, fuck off faggot, You’re wrong and everything about you is wrong, You Don’t know anything, I DESPISE everything you do. 

MY Old GENUINE Response would be something like

But nowadays If I hear it I’m just like

Which honestly is great. 

I started noticing my yin side which was seen more often was being overtaken by my yang side. 

But now I’d say I’m at this balance of Yea I still want to help people and be a genuinely good person but I’m not naive, or as caring as I used to be.

My friend @trueriothiei said that my balanced self is practically Saitama at this point as some things make me feel good but somethings I literally could care less about lol

Which explains why it was easy to just cut certain people out of my life and just have 15 REAL FRIENDS instead of a bunch of just random numbers that I don’t need to add anymore to lol

In the End its got its positives and its negatives and I do wish I was at times I could be a bit more like my old self, but hey I’m making it through day after, sorry for the long tangent I sorta wanted to rant a bit lol

Art by @wizardnem, SlySquad drabbles part 15, that you’ve all been waiting for! (and if you didn’t, you should have, because this is the last, and the best one) : THE SNAKE MASQUERADE

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The NEWTS had been passed, they had celebrated Draco’s birthday, and now the much expected Snake Masquerade was upon them. Pansy and Draco had been dancing around in the common room all afternoon while they were getting ready. Draco was very dashing in his formal wear, his hair slicked back. Theo didn’t say it, but he thought Lucius would have been very proud to see him like that. Or he would have raged up a storm about his choice of date.

For now, though, Draco was messing around with the Barklay the Slyhterin Skeleton. (No one knew how it had ended up in their common room, it had appeared somewhere around their fifth year and had never left. Someone had named it Barclay, and it had become their secret mascot.)

“That’s a fire hazard, Draco,” Daphne Greengrass commented, adjusting her date’s, Millicent Bulstrode, corsage.

Draco shrugged and waltz up to Theo. “I like your mask. It suits you,” he commented.

Theo smiled and together they headed out to the Great Hall.

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I’m an Aquarius but, I can barely make a simple meal and a few cheesecakes. 

When the signs bake/cook

Aries: nearly burns down the entire kitchen

Taurus: an actual master chef

Gemini: they try so hard to make it perfect but screw some important detail up and get so frustrated they quit

Cancer: tries super hard but just ends up ruining everything

Leo: can’t even cook an egg

Virgo: at least they don’t burn the house down

Libra: can either be very good or very bad, there is no in between

Scorpio: surprisingly very good???

Sagittarius: think they are amazing, but rly it’s just toast and microwave meals

Capricorn: best salad chef ever

Aquarius: can literally make whatever they want

Pisces: end up injuring themselves

Fun zodiac facts here!

Nico: I don't get the concept of a family, like they don't like you

Will: But they can't kill you neither

Nico: Because if they do kill you

Will, smiling: They are the first ones questioned

Jason, wearing his SOLANGELO hoodie: GOALS, LITERALLY, GOALS

we’re cleaning out our book collection and my dad REFUSES to throw out the like 2005 toronto public school poetry anthology that has my fucking, sasunaru fanart as the cover and i’m going to pass out