Currently Have A 3.5, Pushing For A 3.7 Gpa.

You’re never too old to learn something new. Never stop studying. 

I want to become more comfortable speaking up for myself, having audacity, and just embrace the close mouth don't get fed mentality.

Three areas of my life that I need to speak up more, is school, friends, and to be honest just in general.

My fear of being perceived as a bitch is holding me back and making me not speak up and express my mind.

I also hate confrontation which is also why it's hard for me to speak up when something goes wrong.

I will say this, my dad is a very confrontational person. It's to the point that I don't even like going to places with him because I fear he is going to cause a scene. I know I just said that I wanted to have more audacity, but he takes it too far. He's literally a male Karen (still love him). I guess its about finding that balance and becoming assertive not aggressive because as another saying goes, you get further with honey than vinegar.

Winter arc..

2025 is almost here so these next 2 months are important to me. I am even more motivated than ever since a certain someone is in office. I broke my goals up into different sections and I want to reflect on them this week.

Health & Fitness: This has been my strongest area so far. I have a good workout split that I have been following and it has been showing amazing results. As for diet, I have been pretty discipline in that area as well. On Monday - Thursday I do not eat refined carbs, fried foods, and no sugar. On Fridays I allow myself to a small snack that I may have been craving throughout the week or just wanted, but I still eat healthy. Saturdays and Sundays are my cheat days. I try a lot of new restaurants on the Weekends and this college town is very small and limited with healthy options so I do not even bother. I have such a big passion for medicine and when I go to the hospital and see how much weight is affecting the patients it honestly scares me. I also binge watch "My 600 lb Life" so I have been pretty turn off from unhealthy food,

Academic: This is where I struggled. I realized I am never strong in both areas. If I doing well with my health and fitness, I slack in the academic department and vice versa. For some reason I could not get off my phone so the procrastination was high. Also I was not studying the way I usually do and it showed on my tests. This week I am definitely going to lockdown for real.

Personal: I do not talk politics on this blog because I want to keep it light and fun, but honestly with him being in office it showed me how selfish I need to be because everyone else is. The self preservation is going to be at an all time HIGH.

Anyways thats all.

Being at university has allowed me to spend more time with my extended family, and honestly, it's been the highlight of my year.

Seeing the loving environment my mom grew up in, I now understand what she means when she says she didn’t feel poor growing up.

My birthday was three weeks ago, but I couldn’t see my extended family that weekend. I went last week instead, and my aunts and cousins surprised me with a small get-together. It was so sweet. I felt so loved.

My time here has really changed my mindset. I’ve always believed that money was everything and that you could be happy alone. But now, I’m starting to realize that no amount of money compares to having a loving family or community to share life with.