I Consume American Media Or Media In English Pretty Much All The Time (tiktok Has A Lot More Different

God

I feel so goddamn lonely

And lost

And tired

I guess it's good that I'm not in a relationship bc it would be shitty for the other person

But i wish i had a really close friend

Idk, somehow relationships always seem like putting a lot on the other person and i just don't want to burden them

Good god i feel like this permanent feeling of this huge burden will kill me

Even though nothing really hard is happening anymore

And I really miss my ex even though i don't feel like i could make myself rely on him bc of feeling guilty for burdening

My mind is a mess

Right now I realized yet again that I don't really know whom could I write about being nervous or anything. I don't really communicate with people from my university group. And noone else can understand what is going on. I don't want to make people worried or also nervous about things I am worried about.

I am very tired.

I don't feel like I have friends.

I have people I talk to, we hang out. But I don't LIKE them. I don't like them the way I want to. Am I dumb? Am i doing stupid shit? Is this how it's supposed to be? Is this the extent to which other people like their friends?

Is what I want even possible?

I feel really unhappy.

So I saw people talk about grey star jacket that Ed's wearing on the picture with Jackie.

And when I watched analysis of the trailer I noticed that Buttons is wearing the same jacket (and i didn't see anyone talking about it). So it might be a uniform or they were wearing the same thing at different points of time.

Also we saw Stede wearing a red cravat. And some people assumed it was Ed's cloth (maybe I'm wrong and I just thought that for a moment).

But I noticed that during the fight scene the guy who was punched by Stede is wearing a similar cravat.

I see myself having a family eventually. Not now though. I can't spend a lot of time with people, it's tiring. I am so peaceful right now during quarantine.

This makes me wonder if I will ever feel sourceful (if you can say it like these) to have someone for a long time in my life. Especially children. Will I ever feel like I won't be completely out of energy after just some time?

Have you ever just felt that not only don't you have noone to talk with but also nothing to talk about? No. You have things you could talk about but you don't anything to say.

God

Please

Listen to my fucking prayer

I do not know what to do at all

Please help me

Send me a friend or give me internal resources

Make political situation better

Or financial

Please

Give me a friend

Or a sound mind

Help me

I am so lost

I have no direction or concept

My desires are feeble

They come and pass

Please

Give me a friend

An awesome friend

And connect me back with my little sun, I miss him

Please God

I am a mess

I am so tired

Can someone explain how this app fucking works?

I am SICK AND TIRED OF SEEING POSTS ABOUT STRANGER THINGS

What can I do to stop it? I can't skip them

Why the fuck did tumblr decide that i want to see anything about this show

God have mercy on my poor mind

I feel bad

I feel bad

I feel bad

I feel bad

I feel bad