Note To Myself: Never Underestimate Yoga - From A Humbling Experience

Okay so it’s been 3 weeks since I started and I think it’s time to add a “m3t@b day” to the routine First as a challenge, to prove myself that I’m in control and that I won’t f*€k everything up this time Second, because I don’t want to damage to much my m3t@bøl!sm and g@!n everything back just because of a wrong day And last but not least, as an experiment to see how it will affects my bød¥ (did I g@!n3d, løst or st@gn@t3d) But honestly I’m supposed to 3@t more than 2000 A DAY ?? and I really don’t know how I’ll try tho, it cannot be that hard

ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE 💅

Breakfast~ 1 ice Americano Lunch~ focaccia in cheese + chicken and egg’s salade +1 ice Americano Diner~ Ayam Goreng Rempah + Tofu and Tempe + ice Jeruk

Total:~ 1800 aaaaand… I feel sick lovely

The worst part is probably that I wanted to 3@t more today, for my m3@t@b day and I couldn’t.. At least I tried

ANYWAY

DAY 21

My nose (number one ALWAYS)

My freckles

My wrist

ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE ✨

I didn’t take pictures but ate around 2000 I think

M3@b@b dayyyyy!! Finally!

I feel sooo heavy tho😭

DAY 8

“I r3l@psed” Afraid AND ashamed

DAY 20

5 years ago It worked It became an obsession I couldn’t stop I started to r3cøvered, felt happy and starting to get better (in a good way) I r3l@psed ✌️

I usually don’t count the c@l that I burn but today is a special day because if I don’t do it the culpability will be even worse

I had a HUGE breakfast this morning because we went on hiking during the night (2am to 7am) for 5 entire hours and I felt really weak after

I burned more than 700 c@l during this hike and I’m currently using this number to calm myself down when I think about breakfast (I ate a lot of veggies, fruits and protein but still in an enormous quantity)

I’m not sure but I’m thinking about sk!pping at least one m3@l.. maybe both we’ll see

DAY 16

Idk but probably not one

Yeah not gonna talk about something I don’t fully understand:)

DAY 19

Yes a couple, and they all reacted differently

My family was worried a lot especially my parents, they tried to do their best

My best friend at the time scolded me (it was funny not in a harsh way)

One of my dear friend noticed and told me out of nowhere “you gonna 3@t right?”

Some of my other friends understood because they were struggling or struggled with something similar but kept an eye on me just to be sure I was okay

I have this friend that I love so much but don’t see that often, who told me that the fact that I was leaving for 4 months was worrying because maybe I could rel@pse… they couldn’t been more right AHAHAHAH do they see the future or something??

ON TODAY FØØD EPISODE 🫥

Breakfast~ 1 ice Americano Lunch~ mie godok Snack~ fried manioc + 2 ice Americano Dinner~ shirataki noodles with chicken broth + watermelon and melon in lowc@l lychee smoothie + 1 matcha ice cream

Total:~ 1200

I’ve been with friends all day so obviously we had lunch and snack but I’m getting really good at r3str!ct!ng without anyone noticing so I’m proud of this day 🐞