I’ll W3!ght Myself Tomorrow And I’m Scared (even If I Løst 1 Cm Around My W.. Anyway)

I know that m3t@bday is important to trick my bødy for him to think I’m not restricting but DAMN I DONT FEEL GOOD RIGHT NOW

And it would have been a typical wieiad couple months ago just to maintain?? HOW ?

It feels like I binged even though there’s no way.. help! even for today, I fully know that I always over count but it just feels to much aaaaaah

DAY 22

The typical “Are sure you gonna 3@t more”

Aaaaaand one that I found terrible “ If I push you, you’ll roll ”……. This one hurts pretty bad The funny part is that I wasn’t even f@t, I wasn’t sk!nny either, just normal lmao

TF YOU MEAN I’M COLD AT 25 C° ?? HOW AM I GONNA SURVIVE WHEN I COME BACK ?? -- It’s more around 20C° or less at home lol 💀--

DAY 12

Same as what I’m wearing now, I like my style and I don’t particularly hate my body, I just want to feel in control

ON TODAY FØØD EPISODE 🐰

Breakfast~ 1 ice Americano + 1 fruity protein bowl Lunch~ 1 spicy sausage + 2 ice Americano + 1 unflavoured kombucha Snack~ 1 ice Americano + 1 apple Dinner~ 1 soto ayam and tofu + Greek yogurt with kimchi and 1 egg + Greek yogurt with tofu and grape

Total:~ 1100-1200

Lots of protein there lmao

TIPS—bødy dysmørph!@ edition

— TAKE YOUR M3@SUR3MENTS!!! Seriously you can’t trust your reflection and your w3!ght is not totally accurate Combining it with your m3@sur3ments can really help you to not stress to much because of the deformation in the mirror The numbers tells you the truth! No it’s not possible that you’re looking totally different from an hour or a minute ago, IT IS IN YOUR FCKING HEAD !

— MASSAGE YOUR FACE Idc if it’s gua sha or anything else but I know that for me it’s help to feel the shape of my face under my fingers + you’re taking care of your skin so it’s a win-win (remember to hydrate it before doing anything!!)

— TRY ON CLOTHES THAT YOU KNOW FITS YOU Pretty simple but works a lot when you’re panicking, your clothes won’t change s!ze overnight you can trust them At least more than your reflection

— AVOID THE MIRROR FOR A TIME You can go back to it whenever you want, just take a break from it and do something else like working or watching something it doesn’t matter JUST don’t trap yourself by staying before the object

Have a good day everyone 🧚

It’s easier to hide it when you do weightlifting lmao People will just assume that you got l3@ner by working out to see your muscles and it’s more conventionally acceptable than having an 3d.. I got the perfect excuse now hehe

ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE 💫

… well yeah

Anyway the usual

Bowl: 3 pieces of fried tofu: ~200 Kimchi (about 2 tablespoons): ~20 Bean sprouts (about 1/3 cup): ~10 Sambal (1 tablespoon): ~20 White rice (about 100g cooked): ~150 → Bowl total: ~400

Plate: 3 pieces of fried tempeh: ~230 Papaya (~100g): ~50 Cucumber (~60g): ~10 → Plate total: ~290 kcal

2 Green tea: 0 1 ice Americano: ~10

Total of the day: ~700

I know it’s normal to get bløated and a little bit bigger during your period which leads to a temporary w3!ght gain… BUT WDYM I FEEL LIKE A HIPPO HEYDWHEJDNKAN??🦛

And I have to step on a sc4le in 2 FCKING DAYS !!! Imagine.. just imagine.. if the cøll@rbønes I’m seeing RIGHT NOW are just an illusion due to my důmb, deficient, m3nt4lly ill emotional sponge that serves me as a brain??

I think I going crazy, this is irrational thinking but I can help freaking out aaaaaaah

Love when bødy dysmørph!@ is in vacation

Please stay where you are and don’t come back☺️, the longer the better <33 …. That’s what she said