“I Only Want Two Things In This World. I Want You And I Want Us.”

“You’re not invited back into my life. You can’t just keep coming and going. If you’re going to leave, then don’t come back. I’m done holding on to promises that you aren’t going to keep. But just remember, you decided to leave.”

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“That girl will never shut up. She’ll always have so much to say and when she says it she’ll probably stutter more than she should. She’ll get teased a lot for it too. That girl’s laugh will never quiet down. It’s loud and fills the whole room. She always hated that. Her anxiety will creep up in her body and will eat her inside out. Her depression will make her crawl under covers and make her a child again. She’s not trusted with sugar cause it’s then that that child in her comes out postivley. That girl is passionate and once you get her started on something she loves she won’t stop. That girl is a pain in the ass. But that girl loves so hard. She’s stupid and naive and idiotic but she loves with every fiber in her being. She lets it consume her and suddenly its like she’ll see the best in every flaw you have. She’ll stare at you and it’ll take everything in her not to kiss you. Cause to her you’re a fucking masterpiece. That girl loves so hard that a fire burns deep within her. The only bad thing is is that that fire burns so hard itll overcome her if you dont feel that way. It’ll overcome her until the beautiful stupid, naive, idiotic girl is nothing but ashes and embers on the floor. So i beg of you, please give that girl a chance.”

— unrequited love pt. 1

no matter what i do, I still ache. I still yearn for your touch, and every time i wake up I pray that it was all a bad dream - but im faced with the awful, painful, gut wrenching reality that: it isn’t a dream. it’s all real and you don’t love me anymore.

athena. your mind and your tongue  are the greatest weapons you’ll ever need

artemis.  you were born with silver in your veins so take aim and don’t hold back

persephone. living in hell doesn’t make you any less of an angel 

hera. marriage is meant to be  a lifelong relationship  and the most important marriage  will be with yourself 

demeter. take lessons from the harvest;  even the smallest of seeds can flourish  into beautiful trees 

aphrodite. your body is your armor  your shield  and your greatest weapon use it well

rhea. like the tides out to sea  you may crash  before you can  flow with ease

hesita. sometimes  you have to look beyond your four walls to find your way home

messages from the greek goddesses | part i (cc, 2018)

“How are you?”

“I’m starving and dying on the inside and I can barely look you in the eye because my anxiety is making me feel like you’re secretly judging me, also I’m probably gonna go home after this and cry myself to sleep because I hate myself so much, but yea I’m fine”

I really miss having you around. Waking up was bliss and falling asleep was heaven. Either way, you were there.

What do I do?

I know he’s not good for me but I can’t decide if walking away will hurt more than staying one more night.

-A.d.c

“I’ll never cry in front of you. I’ll never tell you how I feel. I’ll never wear my heart on my sleeve. I’m not an open book. My walls will always be up and guarded. I won’t tell you how I fight with myself about you, about how I shouldn’t want you, about how you’ll break my heart if I give mine to you. I won’t tell you how my heart constricts at the thought of you leaving me. I’ll never show you how scared I am of this… Of you… Of us. You’re real. You’re everything I want, and nothing is certain. Everything is blurred and we walk on this thin line between reality and fantasy. You’re a dream and a nightmare. I find peace in you when everything else is chaos. I don’t know what this is and that uncertainty scares me but maybe just maybe if I stay around, you will too.”

— 2:31 AM thoughts