Laaajlaaa - Unbetitelt

Do you ever have those moments when you just stand somewhere and bawl your eyes out in the most horrifying way for like a minute and then suck it all up and pretend everything is good for the next hour?

i never knew you were such a snake…

that you had poison in your bite.

there was still so much that was at stake

yet you thought saying that was right?

A letter I’ll never send…

I love you. You are my best friend and I’ve never loved anyone like I love you. And each day I continue to fall more in love with you, the more I realize how you’re slowly pulling away. But it’s because you don’t love me the way I love you. Because I am not her. You don’t love me the way you loved her. You gave her the random “I love you” texts and the endless phone calls because you missed her voice. You posted her on Instagram and surprised her with flowers when you knew she was having a bad day. You weren’t hesitant to show your love and hold her when she needed it. I want that. You tell me you just never want to fall that hard for someone again because it was unhealthy, but I know it’s because I’m not her. I want the endless phone calls and random “I love you” texts. I want to be surprised with flowers and be held when I’m having a bad day. I want more than anything to be her. Because you are my him. You are the one I will never forget, you are the one that everyone else will be compared to. In my eyes, you are my everything. But in your eyes, I’m just temporary.

“That girl will never shut up. She’ll always have so much to say and when she says it she’ll probably stutter more than she should. She’ll get teased a lot for it too. That girl’s laugh will never quiet down. It’s loud and fills the whole room. She always hated that. Her anxiety will creep up in her body and will eat her inside out. Her depression will make her crawl under covers and make her a child again. She’s not trusted with sugar cause it’s then that that child in her comes out postivley. That girl is passionate and once you get her started on something she loves she won’t stop. That girl is a pain in the ass. But that girl loves so hard. She’s stupid and naive and idiotic but she loves with every fiber in her being. She lets it consume her and suddenly its like she’ll see the best in every flaw you have. She’ll stare at you and it’ll take everything in her not to kiss you. Cause to her you’re a fucking masterpiece. That girl loves so hard that a fire burns deep within her. The only bad thing is is that that fire burns so hard itll overcome her if you dont feel that way. It’ll overcome her until the beautiful stupid, naive, idiotic girl is nothing but ashes and embers on the floor. So i beg of you, please give that girl a chance.”

— unrequited love pt. 1

“I am a cold love I kiss the way you like it but I never close my eyes when you put your hands around my waist I’ll tell you how much I need you when you’re too tired to remember how warm the words feel when they hit you I’ll wrap my arms around you at night but you’ll wake up alone in the morning call me cold hearted but I can’t wake up next to you and memorize your smile or the way your hand feels against my cheek when it’s only you, me, and the sunrise You’re fleeting and you know it Don’t fool yourself into believing we’re more than one snapshot in a set of millions I’m always going to leave you in the morning one day you’ll thank me for it”

— Commitment Issues (pt 3)

2am thoughts

The first person you think in the Morning, or last person you think of at night,

Is either the cause of your happiness or your pain

Sometimes both

“You know someone is important to your soul when you’re willing to break a thousand times over just to have them in your life,”

19:00 - The pain is sometimes addictive (moondustanddreams)

She's the type of person who doesn't speak about her problems, secretly cries and pretends like her life isn't falling apart. She is me.

I really miss having you around. Waking up was bliss and falling asleep was heaven. Either way, you were there.

What do I do?