This Was Super Fun To Work On Didnt Stress Me Out Haha, Backgrounds Are The Most Relaxing Things To Work

I finally did it, I finally made him to my liking not a creative pose at all but whatever.

Introducing mister Steve Burnside~ <3 

This may be very long, I'm sorry, It's something I hope gets read.

Random thoughts~ I hate seeing so much negativity everywhere. I'm not going to be specific about anything but I hope I can explain the best I can. First I'd like to say it is impossible for ME to shorten this. My thought process can't fathom how to compress thoughts. It seems people everywhere have a huge lack of empathy, unable to think of how someone elses life may be, as well as how certain things effect them in their life, their reactions. The thing that REALLY bothers me is I see all these people heavily badmouthing, insulting, making jokes at people they used to claim to admire. In reality I've NEVER seen anyone leave a friendship or something similar for a few bad events, I've seen everyone do things much, much worse. (Without even knowing half the story who are immediate friends at times.) The thing as well though is things are circumstantial, theres no way to know whats going on by just observing, its gossip, its horrible. I know certain people from totally different point of views than others, and just from that it honestly disgusts me to see what people say. I might slightly be going in circles here but I see it as the worst type of hypocrisy when this situation kinda arises: -people do a possibly negative thing in response to others being rude, possibly annoying, etc.- Or -people react badly to something or in an unacceptable way- And in response I see people reacting in the same way but sometimes worse than the people they are reacting to. That in itself isn't a big deal but what IS, is when i see people months after something STILL talking badly and insulting anything related in a joking fashion. Thats just spreading negativity and just stirring up things people shouldn't be involved with in the first place. People aren't your personal tv show even when it involves people doing that for a living. It also bothers me seeing people trying to invalidate mental illness and certain disorders. Why? Because I have to live with the same thing through out my life. I CAN'T control how I react to people, I DON'T realize when I'm mean, the feeling passes over me but its like the "one ear out the other" thing, or when you have a gut feeling but ignore it. And its scary when the exact fears kinda come to the surface. Let me just say, this is the only way I can describe anything right now. "You can't explain to a person who has been blind all their life what SEEING actually looks like, just as you can't imagine a new color." What that means is just because you experience life one way doesnt mean someone else feels the same things as you, some have to deal with things that are unimaginable even though some may see it as petty and dumb. No ones in "the right" or "the wrong" things like this happen and it sucks. The thing is, things like these are things that need to be WORKED THROUGH, at that no one should be condemned by things like this either, at that by ones not even involved, even if its just a friend of a friend. I say this because I deal with things like this all my life, as I'm sure plently of others have as well. I have severe anxiety, tourette's, depression, and bpd. (Tourettes in itself is a bundle of disorders and junk.) _________ (I may be getting too personal within my own life here but I feel its the only way I can get my message through.) These right here are the exact reasons why I dont talk to people online or in real life. As certain individuals do, i react harshly, I dont realize it, combined with that the anxiety is a catalyst to being unable to control tics from my tourettes. The problem within that is my second set of tics that come out involve actual outwardly physical things such as: hitting others, Things, Squeezing things, breaking things in half without realizing it, etc. I've been arrested for things I can't physically control, Ive been called evil, a bitch, crazy, a demon, monster, It really hurts. (The charges were able to be dropped luckily, didn't stop all the trauma it caused.) I can guarantee you no one can even imagine what it feels like. Just because two people have the same/similar illness, life, experiences,etc. Doesn't mean they are supposed to be an exact copy on how they react. __________ I try to only post art on here, I am honestly afraid to directly communicate with anyone, I have a hard time even replying to others. I am posting this here because I feel maybe it would be okay to say something for once. (I haven't posted in forever though due to computer problems, and skill honing with art in general. Not satisfied). _______ I'd also like to say it extremelly pisses me off that just because people only see things from their view and word of mouth that they automatically label someone as a monster, spineless, a flat out bad person, etc. Yet just because you see that you try to push the fact theyre a bad person who should be disliked. But what you dont know is those same people/person could have seriously saved a person/peoples lives behind the scenes, that the/those same individual(s) you claim to be monsters could have been the best thing to occur in someone elses life, many even. Why does a few things make someone a bad person? And why do people mock others when they respond with "no ones perfect." Because its true. I've noticed from other sites and things not involving certain topics here that there is a mob mentality to things. I have been trying to become more social by taking part in discussions. The thing ive noticed is on the "normal" parts of, let us say Facebook for instance, most people rule on the opinion part no matter how messed up the opinion is, while people who try to come in with actual discussion or kinder opinions get attacked, everyone says how wrong and dumb they are if you make one slip up. On the other hand... Being on Facebook with a psychology group, those same posts, same topics are seen at rationally without heavy opinions, problem solving without creating conflict. That is what needs to be done here and in life in general. Of coarse I could still say this is all just my opinion, just one I feel needs to be said. I'm pretty sure I cant cover every single little detail here, there will always be a "loophole" people will abuse in someones words or actions. Thank you if anyone read this, though vague I hope it makes sense.

Still nothing really ready to post but I’m tired of going months on end with no posting so I’ll probably just post works in progress and once I can get drawing supplies do that again as well. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Another sculpt of Lapis Lazuli :3 might end up making a lot of her. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I just want to say now that this in particular was inspired by the Fayth in Final Fantasy X. (I might make more, idk yet though, it was a side thing I was casually doing alongside figures) ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I haven’t painted this yet because I was thinking of maybe trying to make copies of this if anyone would be interested in buying. Some others have told me I should try making them into mirrors (I didnt put two and two together, it is the same size as a handle mirror too.) ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I still need to refine some things before painting or possibly molding, mainly just sanding, lots of sanding. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Also does anyone know how to prevent text clumping together on posts on mobile?

I can’t wait to see what you create, the backgrounds I’ve seen from you so far I  think are really awesome :D  Thank you so much, that means a lot~ c:

krystami replied to your post “soo-da replied to your photoset “Who’s a lazy bag o’ bones who…”

Backgrounds get so fun to make, super relaxing to do compared to other things sometimes~

All right! That’s it! The final straw! I am determined to get better at backgrounds now, thanks to you guys, I hope ur happy (I am happy, at least, I want to be as amazing as all of you, you guys are definitely my #1 inspiration).

Also,  I don’t know if I’ve ever said this but your art is wonderful, and your sculptures are so amazing, I love them, keep on doing to cool stuff! <3

more bad things happening 8D oh what a joy it is, my bank card is missing, I never lose it, just checked to see mail from it, see a negative balance...someone has my card....ALL BECAUSE OF THESE EVENTS....I hate it....why....

I was tagging “steven universe” and almost auto clicked “steve burnside”

Sleeep

I hate when I'm so tired but can't sleep, holding something (phone idk) and I have no grip, things fall out of hands and I start getting.drunk vision. Sadly these are the only times I can potentially get a few hours of sleep. So goodmorning, it is almost seven am where I'm at, gonna be up on prob. Anywhere to 2-4 hours.

In case anyone was wondering (I doubt) I was just in a mental hospital for a week, gonna go to jail soon too 8D for a slap, for an involuntary movement I've done, it is the same as going to jail for kicking someone while having a seizure....I hope I'm allowed to complain because I personally think my life is shit right now and keeps getting worse. 

Some sketch wips of headshots I'm making for a pricelist in the future~

How to help an artist:

Ditch the like button

No, seriously. If you don’t have money to help out an artist financially, the second best thing is to reblog all the things you like. While liking it does tell the artist that “hey I really like this!” It does jack shit because the only ones who will see that are me and you.

Why do you think there are so SO many posts made by people that are literally summed down to “please reblog my artwork I need the notes!”? Because no one reblogs artwork. Unless you’re a ridiculously popular blog with thousands of followers, you’ll only end up getting 1 or no reblogs.

SO HELP OUT ARTISTS AND PLEASE REBLOG OUR ART, BECAUSE WE REALLY NEED THE VIEWS ;V;)/