I Can’t Wait To See What You Create, The Backgrounds I’ve Seen From You So Far I  think Are Really

I haven’t done this in a few years but I finally have a sort of price list together, I’m just doing bust-shots for now, but If you are looking for anything else, please ask, I don’t mind discussing it. c:

(this is just where you get the digital files, no physical copy.)

I will draw: people, armor, robo/mechs, anthro, creatures. Payment required before I start, through paypal, (I send invoice first) any questions, just ask.

I won’t draw: ask for now.

I desperately need money, I can’t afford food (I have celiac disease), barely bills and rent as well as financial abuse from our roommate(my dad), I cannot work, I also cannot get ssi and such so stuck in an awkward place. My husband and I are forced to move in a month and a half but have no money saved and am going to lose most of my things and my cats, my husband is so stressed because of my dad and my lack of work that he is threatening to break the lease because we have no food or money for food, he doesn’t get paid until next thursday, I am unable to leave the house by myself without having severe breakdowns and he always gets off too late to do anything else himself. (I am literally stuck in this situation with no other options I’M capable of doing. But I have always planned on selling my art, I just need to do what I can right now) I’ll make a better price list eventually that is more than jist bustshots, I just want to be able to do as much as I can in a timely matter for both sides while testing the waters after all these years If that makes sense.

Thank you so much if you read this.

(Posting so much later then intended)

Some random up closeness from the last Lapis picture I made. :D

YOU know, I've never actually fit in anywhere. Not in any fandom, online in general, in real life, anywhere.. I can never make friends or even make others happy.

More wips until...?

Up close shots of the picture I posted before. c: I can't link HQ versions because links don't let my post show up in any tags.

I NEED help(commissions) so, so badly, please scroll to the bottom for the gist of things if you don't wanna hear a slight back story of why I need help. I am terrible at networking, severely afraid of people, I break down at everything and can't work any sort of job. My dad is a horribly evil person, he breaks agreements and tries to misinterpretes everything to everyone. My husband and I are struggling so badly. We have so much debt and bills.(yay for in the past, family/roomates who steal info and ruin financial accounts) I cant work, I cant get on SSI, others think im lazy because of it, literally all I can do is create art. He is a literal dictator with how he is, he tricked us into giving him more money then we should for things, we called him out on the lies from proof, but again others agreed with him because he knows how to paint everyone else as the "bad guy". Now he told our landlord he isn't gonna pay the originally agreed upon rent, we had a solid agreement of my husband paying half for me and him and half the rent to my dad, instead he is now claiming he is paying my portion, which we even confronted before moving in and it was all okay (wish people would agree to write contracts) My dad is on a fixed income, SSI, my husband works as much as he can as it is, we can barely afford food or anything as it is, we cant get foodstamps or medicaid because he makes too much and even when we almost were able to it would require me looking for a job which i cannot do at all, i can hardly leave my home. We pay bills every week, we are trying to reduce debt so we can find a place to live on our own, every other place we cant move because our credit scores are so bad (mine is literally 9999, due to never working and gaining bills from others using my name and info for accounts while a kid/teen) I also have celiac disease and cant eat most food there is, especially cheaply without making me feel nauseous, i literally starve myself like it is normal, eating a few spoonfuls of peanut butter a day, or water...(healthy food and food emulating "normal" food is very pricy, example: a loaf of bread is nine dollars.) Maybe a meal when I cook for dinner once in awhile. My dad also cheated us on utilities, and out of 200 I'm supposed to get every month as a home health care person for him, he told the landlord we aren't splitting rent anymore and my husband has to pay double for me I guess. We have nowhere to go, nothing we can do. We stand up to him, we get this happening to us. We are strapped more than it is. ----- I desperately, DESPERATELY, need to start taking commissions, I am so scared, I haven't in so long, my skills are a lot better than they were when I used to, but the art world sees art prices differently now of days, as well as I have many styles and qualities to choose from. What I used to price my art when I was younger, people would tell me I underprice myself, now of days I fear i'd be overpricing from others opinions on the matter, and that is with my current works. I want to post examples but it will just be random stuff I have on my phone. I am unsure of pricing, scared to do so but need to so badly, my life is a constant, living, hell..that gets worse and worse constantly...as in police threats for crying or standing up for myself, eyes spat in, chairs thrown at, etc.

I just threw this card because it was in my way while I was painting, without looking where and this happened.....

83 She is Milla from Tales of Xillia and the sup guy is one of her summons.

I wish I had an art style(s) that people were more interested in.

I have been forgetting to upload this but here it is finally. This took a few months but it is complete c: Creating a lot of bubbled gems is physically painful and mentally exhausting I found out. I added some close ups as well. I needed to draw her, and my first time drawing Blue Pearl as well. (I love blue/pink/purple color schemes so much.)