Do You Want Me To Love Myself More Than I Love Anyone Else?

There is no $700 dollar cap on assistance for those needing help in Maui. That is a lie. The head of FEMA never said that the residents of Maui shouldn’t be expecting any more financial assistance. That is also a lie.

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Please beware of people spreading disinformation about Maui relief. These kind of lies usually come from Republicans, but be aware that pro-Russian, anti-Ukrainian “leftists” (aka tankies) will often spread the same, easily disproven lies and talking points — because the goal of sowing distrust is a shared one.

Republicans and tankies have no qualms about using the people of Maui’s suffering to push their agendas.

Thinking about how when my oldest brother took Japanese classes his professor was like your pronunciation is really good 😊 but you need to watch movies that aren't about the Yakuza because you sound like a criminal

in order to not succumb to sex negative conservatism you have to accept that people will get off to things that are upsetting to you. and you cannot assume anything about what they have or have not experienced, what they do or do not believe, and how they act based solely on what gets them off. even if it's extremely confusing and disturbing to you. there are people who have only ever had heterosexual vanilla sex in missionary with the lights off, who actively contribute to more real world harm than your average fetish artist. kink is not a reliable source of information on someone's moral standing. it just feels good to think that way.

Introduction!!

Yaya!! Hello all y'all people (about half a person, most likely,) since I keep seeing introductions, I decided, you know, how about I finally step up and do one myself on this godforsaken website that I never even look at. Just for fun. You get it. :3c Name(s because I have slight identity issues): My name is Kaya! I have some names some others might know me by, such as Sunny and Lyra. Kaya is generally preferred as a safe name though, and other times I'll go by Aspen or Willow. Pronouns: Pronoun Page! The link is https://en.pronouns.page/@kimikorruption , if you don't want to click. (I hope you don't mind if I have some fun from time to time on my pronoun page!)

Age: I'm not nearly stupid enough to post that on the Internet. I wish I was. Still, no NSFW if you can avoid it. What the Fuck I am: Furry. Little bit of a brony. I haven't been diagnosed, but by God the amount of neurodivergent people who have told me I am likely ADHD and/or autistic should say something about me. Transfem, ace, demiromantic, bi. Atheist, but raised Catholic. Blah, blah, blah. DNI if: pedophilia, necrophilia, weird fetish stuff, furry hate, lgbt+ hate, you get it. The works. Though I'm not sure this section of the bio will achieve anything. ⌣⌣⌣⌣⌣⌣⌣⌣⌣⌣⌣⌣⌣⌣⌣⌣⌣⌣⌣⌣⌣⌣⌣⌣ Okay, time for some less essential stuff. I guess it's kinda comparable to flavour for a D&D character?

Favourite Colours: Purple! Gods, I love purple. Lighter pink is kinda nice too, I guess, followed by aquamarine as a third pick. Purple just expresses a silent, beautiful protective power that I really love and hope to embody (pipedream but I'M TRYING AISFHAIOSF), and pink/blue are just pretty in general! Single!?: Yes. Though I've only ever felt attraction and confessed to one person, and rejected others, five times? I think? The only thing that could have happened is what did, so no regrets, I guess. Doesn't stop me from being a bit of a romantic, though.

Books: There are so many good books, so it's really hard to choose, but I'd have to recommend Strange the Dreamer by Laini Taylor for the fantasy romance girlies and Demian by Hermann Hesse because descent into insanity. Mwah. Obsessed With: Vylet Pony's music, 70s music, D&D character building, trying not to fuck up art and failing miserably, writing (burnout is a bitch though.) alright, that's the end.. hope i didn't bore you. meow. happy trixie tuesday. insert post padding here.

will you eat hers meals?

this is how the cold war ended

Jan De Vliegher (Belgian, b. 1964), Pigeons 2, 2010. Oil on canvas, 60 x 90 cm.

I’m really scared that I’m becoming an unlikable person as I unmask. I’m more blunt, I talk more, I advocate for myself more and I’m perceived as argumentative when I’m just trying to offer my thoughts/ explain myself. I make sure not to actively be an asshole, so it’s really more just my tone and the social norms that shouldn’t really matter.

I see people give me looks of annoyance when I speak. The exasperation when I finally work up the courage to actually ask a question.

It’s really freeing to not have to think so hard about my every breath or word in social settings but I still really want people to like me. I guess I need to accept that not everyone will, that’s just how it is, but it makes things hard because then those people will treat you shitty.

And then I wonder… is it just my fault? Maybe I should go back to masking. Maybe it’s not worth it to ‘be myself’ or whatever if it will bring ridicule. Even though there’s that crushing, continuous weight that comes from having to conceal parts of myself, maybe I need to just deal with that so I can get along with others.

But I’m also not sure that I COULD go back now.

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