Got A Sugar Free Drink Instead Of The 300 Calorie One I Wanted #miserablebutlockedin

I’m actually losing my mind somebody sedate me

God I miss charcuterie boards

Debating if I should get sushi & miso soup before work or just stick to my regular toast hmm hmmmm

Ladies and gentlemen I am absoloutely thrilled to let y’all know I’ve made it back to my pre binge weight CAN I HEAR A ROUND OF APPLAUSE

I’m actually in disbelief of how much weight I’ve managed to put on in the past couple of days, I don’t think I’ve ever looked fatter in my life like even at my highest weight so I must have managed to gain at least 5-7kg since Monday night. I’m especially concerned because I’ve already purged and taken 20+ laxatives in the past couple hours and the bloating hasn’t gone down at all so it must be legitimate weight.

I’m hoping that my laxatives kick in soon and that I’m able to digest a large amount of the binge remnants in my sleep because if I look the same tomorrow I’m genuinely gonna cancel the dinner party plans and just rot in my room and fast.

STUPID BMI CALCULATOR KEEPS TELLING ME IM HEALTHY

Restricting while having a job is so hard I literally feel like I’m dying and on the verge of passing out and I still gotta go clean an entire department hot and dehydrated as hell in the span of 3 hours 💔💔

Alright guys fess up who cursed me cause tell me why I’ve gone from having a borderline addiction to walking and getting 20k+ steps a day to absolutely dreading it and barely passing 10k

I hate food and I hate myself, lord have mercy on me and let my binge run through me by morning so that I don’t gain

Had a little binge last night so I’m sadly out of the BMI 17 range and back up to 52.1kg, to be honest though it could be worse and I’m fairly confident in the fact that if I just restrict/exercise today and take a shit ton of laxatives I’ll be back into the 51kg range by tomorrow.