My Thoughts

Here’s what I’ve been doing to lose weight. Since January I’ve been restricting my calorie intake from 1200-lower. Currently at 700 cals, I change my calorie intake at the start of a new week. Monday I will be at 600 calories.

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I’ve been drinking a shot (about four tablespoons) of apple cider vinegar every morning after breakfast andddd... IT HAS HELPED TREMENDOUSLY! It’s been helping a lot with bloating and water weight, I dropped about 0.5 lbs on my stomach.

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Currently easing my way into the Master Cleanse 🍋 here’s a summary of it, (pictures below) if you’re not familiar with it. I’m on day one of the “pre-master cleanse”. I’ve done it before for 5 days but I’m going to do it for 10 days this time.

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me, reading depressing stuff and on the verge of tears: haha mood

my life

Yeah 😏 @j-kylee

remember when you used to be real secretive about reading smutty fanfiction and making sure you were the only one in the room and now you read that shit at the dinner table like it’s nothing

It’s little delirious

He’s sad :(

why.

My Brain During The PSATs

Me: A fire alarm would be nice

Me: Smite me

Me: We'rE ALL IN THIS TOGETHER

Me: Oh shit waddup!

Me: I wonder how many people in this room find me hot

Me: Lmao none

Me: Oh man I want a burger

Me: Oh shit DAB

Me: Would I get in trouble?

Me: *small dab*

Me: Fuck life's amazing

Me: Fuck I'm taking a test

Me: Fuck I hit my elbow

Me: Kill me please

Me: I can dig Elvis

Me: I caN DIG MY OWN GRAVE

Me: Ignore my tears fellow dumbasses

Me: LET'S GET DOWN THE BUSINESS

Me: TO PASS

Me: THIS TEST

Me: What's this? What's this?!

Me: There's numbers everywhere

Me: What's this?

Me: No seriously...what is this?

jokes aside, i only wish to bring awareness to the possibilities cannabis has for healing the mind, body, and soul. while its commonly used recreationally, we need to educate ourselves on its health benefits regardless of its legality. theres a lot of negative stigma around the plant that has harmed its reputation as a natural herb used for thousands of years. 

i speak from personal experience when i say that i would not be who i am now without it, along with the massive spiritual expansion ive been able to connect to because of it. while i do not condone breaking the law, i do implore you to open your mind to the possibilities.

disclaimer: while this nontraditional path of medicine has helped me more than any traditional path ever has, i cant say that it is a path for everyone. follow whatever path best leads you to your healthiest you! 

I block out the voice that tells me not to eat when I’m in certain social situations

Cause the little part of me that can still enjoy things wants me to get better

But when I’m alone, all I’m left with is this heavy, painful feeling of regret

I didn’t even need to eat, I don’t deserve it, not when I feel sad and especially not when I feel happy

Two minutes of lost control and I managed to go 1000cal over my limit. That’s who I really am. A failure. Even at self harm all I am is a failure

My insides itch and I want to rip every bit of meat off these ugly bones.