*When I First Started Reading Fan Fiction For The First Time* Me: Oh My God! They Kissed! What Am I Reading?!

No words can possibly express the sadness I'm feeling, knowing @qinni is no longer with us. It hurts so much to know one moment she's here and another she's gone, but I really hope wherever she is now, it's in a better place than this.

For those who knew her, she was a huge inspiration, and she was one of the bravest and most talented people to inspire so many others.

Please remember her. Her name was Qing Han, and she will keep on living through her beautiful artwork.

Rest easy.

Things I say to myself almost constantly:

They don’t think about you that much. You’re not important just grow up.

Stop thinking about them, you’re not good enough to be with them anyway.

You’re so useless.

No one is ever going to want you, you’re disgusting.

I wish you were dead.

I hate you.

Just die already if you’re so miserable. You’re so fucking stupid you can’t do that right anyway.

You don’t deserve anyone.

Nobody loves you but your dog and she only likes you because you feed her.

You deserve this. You deserve hate.

Things I would never say to almost anyone:

All of the above

So why do I deserve to be hated in my own mind?

All the time

🤪😅😂

My Spotify playlists are basically my soul

Also they are oddly specific

Edit: check the notes for the links:')

100 Reasons NOT To Kill Yourself

1. We would miss you. 2. It’s not worth the regret. Either by yourself if you failed or just simply left scars, or the regret everyone else feels by not doing enough to help you. 3. It does get better. Believe it or not it will eventually get better. Sometimes you have to go through the storm to get to the rainbow. 4. There’s so much you would miss out on doing. 5. There is always a reason to live. It might not be clear right now, but it is always there. 6. So many people care, and it would hurt them if you hurt yourself. 7. You ARE worth it. Don’t let anyone, especially yourself, tell you otherwise. 8. You are amazing. 9. A time will come, once you’ve battled the toughest times of your life and are in ease once again, where you will be so glad that you decided to keep on living. You will emerge stronger from this all, and won’t regret your choice to carry on with life. Because things always get better. 10. What about all the things you’ve always wanted to do? What about the things you’ve planned, but never got around to doing? You can’t do them when you’re dead. 11. I love you. Even if only one person loves you, that’s still a reason to stay alive. 12. You won’t be able to listen to music if you die. 13. Killing yourself is never worth it. You’ll hurt both yourself and all the people you care about. 14. There are so many people that would miss you, including me. 15. You’re preventing a future generation, YOUR KIDS, from even being born. 16. How do you think your family would feel? Would it improve their lives if you died? 17. You’re gorgeous, amazing, and to someone you are perfect. 18. Think about your favourite music artist, you’ll never hear their voice again… 19. You’ll never have the feeling of walking into a warm building on a cold day 20. Listening to incredibly loud music 21. Being alive is just really good. 22. Not being alive is really bad. 23. Finding your soulmate. 24. Red pandas 25. Going to diners at three in the morning. 26. Really soft pillows. 27. Eating pizza in New York City. 28. Proving people wrong with your success. 29. Watching the jerks that doubted you fail at life. 30. Seeing someone trip over a garbage can. 31. Being able to help other people. 32. Bonfires. 33. Sitting on rooftops. 34. Seeing every single country in the world. 35. Going on roadtrips. 36. You might win the lottery someday. 37. Listening to music on a record player. 38. Going to the top of the Eiffel Tower. 39. Taking really cool pictures. 40. Literally meeting thousands of new people. 41. Hearing crazy stories. 42. Telling crazy stories. 43. Eating ice cream on a hot day. 44. More Harry Potter books could come out, you never know. 45. Travelling to another planet someday. 46. Having an underwater house. 47. Randomly running into your hero on the street. 48. Having your own room at a fancy hotel. 49. Trampolines. 50. Think about your favourite movie, you’ll never watch it again. 51. Think about the feeling of laughing out loud in a public place because your best friend has just sent you an inside joke, 52. Your survival will make the world better, even if it’s for just one person or 20 or 100 or more. 53. People do care. 54. Treehouses 55. Hanging out with your soul mate in a treehouse 55. Snorting when you laugh and not caring who sees 56. I don’t even know you and I love you. 57. I don’t even know you and I care about you. 58. Because nobody is going to be like you ever, so embrace your uniqueness! 59. You won’t be here to experience the first cat world emperor. 60. WHAT ABOUT FOOD?! YOU’LL MISS CHOCOLATE AND ALL THE OTHER NOM THINGS! 61. Starbucks. 62. Hugs. 63. Stargazing. 64. You have a purpose, and it’s up to you to find out what it is. 65. You’ve changed somebody’s life. 66. Now you could change the world. 67. You will meet the person that’s perfect for you. 68. No matter how much or how little, you have your life ahead of you. 69. You have the chance to save somebody’s life. 70. If you end your life, you’re stopping yourself from achieving great things. 71. Making snow angels. 72. Making snowmen. 73. Snowball fights. 74. Life is what you make of it. 75. Everybody has a talent. 76. Laughing until you cry. 77. Having the ability to be sad means you have the ability to be happy. 78. The world would not be the same if you didn’t exist. 79. Its possible to turn frowns, upside down 80. Be yourself, don’t take anyone’s shit, and never let them take you alive. 81. Heroes are ordinary people who make themselves extraordinary. Be your own hero. 82. Being happy doesn’t mean that everything is perfect. It means that you’ve decided to look beyond the imperfections. 83. One day your smile will be real. 84. Having a really hot, relaxing bath after a stressful day. 85. Lying on grass and laughing at the clouds. 86. Getting completely smashed with your best friends. 87. Eating crazy food. 88. Staying up all night watching your favourite films with a loved one. 89. Sleeping in all day. 90. Creating something you’re proud of. 91. You can look back on yourself 70 years later and being proud you didn’t commit 92. Being able to meet your Internet friends. 93. Tea / Coffee / Hot Chocolate 94. Sherlock season three. 95. Cuddling under the stars. 96. Being stupid in public because you just can. 97. If you are reading this then you are alive! Is there any more reason to smile? 98. being able to hug that one person you havent seen in years 99. People care enough about you and your future to come up with 100 reasons for you not to do this. 100. But, the final and most important one is, just, being able to experience life. Because even if your life doesn’t seem so great right now, literally anything could happen

IF that isn’t enough:

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detox water recipes

i personally love drinking fruit infused water, so i decided to compile a list of some recipe ideas and their benefits!

blueberry and orange detox water

ingredients: 2 mandarin oranges, cut into wedges, handful of blueberries

benefits: oranges increase metabolism and tone skin, blueberries help curb appetite

lemon and mint detox water

ingredients: ½ lemon, a few sprigs of mint

benefits: helps increase metabolism and promotes weight loss

raspberry and mint water

ingredients: ¼ cup raspberries, 2 tbs fresh mint leaves

benefits: raspberries have cleansing properties and mint helps relieve stress

cucumber water

ingredients: ½ peeled and chopped cucumber

benefits: rehydrating properties

Reblog if you feel fat right now.

“The best way to get what you want is to be so miserable that you don’t want it anymore.”

—

Margo from The Magicians

This is the way I live my life. I no longer want to celebrate my birthday or christmas. I no longer dream about my future. I’ve simply stopped wanting because I cannot see the point of it anymore and you can be sad about what you don’t get if you didn’t really want it in the first place.