U Know What Makes Me Lowkey Sad? When Someone Says ‘i Know It Seems Silly’ Before Talking About

So funny story! When we were first learning about systems and DID and everything, we learned that denial is a massive symptom that's baked into the foundation of how systems function, so right off the bat we put in a lot of work to accept that we are a system, and build an internal structure of reassurance specifically for our existence as a system.

However! Our brain still found all kinds of ways to trip us up with denial! And it's been a constant frustrating battle. For several years we thought that we were an "average" sized system of about seven to ten headmates, and only recently have we been able to drop enough denial barriers to find that there's actually close to a hundred of us in here. Even after that, it took months to actually see the fictives from our biggest comfort medias (percy jackson and the heroes of olympus, avatar the last air bender, and others) because for some reason our brain thought that large system was bad so "nu-uh" and fictives from "childish" comfort sources were also somehow bad so "what fictives?" and it's been so much chaos T-T

Just the other day someone was going through and updating our system server and poked into channels they didn't recognize and then got smacked in the face with vibes that are obviously in our system somewhere, the person has full on had conversations at some point, and we just completely forgot they existed several times

So basically, yes, a lot, denial comes in all kinds of nasty packages and it's such a pain in the butt and you're not alone <3

Question for systems:

How often do you go into denial or convince yourself that you faked everything/your headmates have disappeared?

Reflections of serenity

Archaeologists digging on a Pyramid in Egypt have found a mummy covered in chocolate and nuts. Experts believe it to be Pharaoh Roche.

DID YOU HEAR ABOUT THE NEANDERTHAL CHILD WITH DOWN'S SYNDROME? Because they're all I've been thinking about when I'm sad for the past few days. Their existence makes me less sad.

going here would fix me actually

what is your eye color. what is your favorite color. what is the color that appears most frequently in your wardrobe. what color is your favorite blanket. what color is your water bottle.

"If I was faking being a system, then I would make it make more sense" - @the-sea-glass-system

"Percy... this isn't how I wanted to do this. And gods know all the attention would appall you.

But - that day with you in Syngorn, when you stood next to me and allowed me to be part of something you hold dearest... I was so proud.

You stood up for me and I - I lied to you. I lied to myself. I hate that I was too afraid to admit it. You're fascinating and obstinate and - and the cleverest man I know.

You have to find your way back to us Percy. Because the truth is -"

I love you darling. My heart - it's yours.

Vex'ahlia