How Come I Wanna Tear My Hair Out, My Organs Want To Get Out Of My Body, I'm Gonna Infect Everybody With

My mom just said that one of the things I ate had 250 calories

I'm crying I swear TuT

Also, my mom said to me that I need to stop eating, thank you nutricionist.

INTRUSIVE THOUGHTS GO AWAY GO AWAY INTRUSIVE THOUGHTS

uwu

tryna find new ed friends/followers- repost if…

you are 14+

you have an ed of any kind

you vape/smoke

you need to get back on track

you enjoy music (perhaps specifically rap, alternative punk, glam rock, etc)

you need a little help staying on track

you need a motivating friend

your cw is less than 160

willing to text outside of tumblr*

even better, if you are atleast three of these, pleeeeeease message me. i’d love to find new people and im typically really good at responding fast and helping others, especially if it’s out of tumblr*.

If I'm happy i don't wanna take my meds because "i feel normal again", if I'm sad I don't wanna take them because "what's the point". Then i get even crazier and think "I'm not ill, why should i!!!!"

Me: -Weigh myself- mOM I GAINED WEIGHT

My mom:

/ / / / / / / / / / / /

Yo: -pesandome- maMA SUBÍ DE PESO

Mi mamá:

Me: -do nothing after binging for 3 days-

My ed: sTARVE YOURSELF

My brain: Don't yoU DARE

Me: -starves-

My brain:

me, while being abused: it's okay, I'm used to this already, and I'm tough, I can take it.

me, years later when the trauma symptoms hit: I WAS SO WRONG

Im actually scared of what my mind does to me. Catastrophic thinking, telling me people i love hate me. I feel like I'm gonna go crazy somehow soon enough to see things come true.