me, while being abused: it's okay, I'm used to this already, and I'm tough, I can take it.
me, years later when the trauma symptoms hit: I WAS SO WRONG
"we went out just your dad and i, and your brother because he just came from work" ok??? Wake me up then ???
some days ago i was playing poker with my family, and speaking french (because they know that helps me with practice).
Then my dad comes to play.
my dad and my little brother started arguing about something of the cards and-
LB: he does that all the time, doesn´t he?
Me: C´est la verite
LB: thE whAT¿?
Dad: *staring at me*
Me: ThE tRutH
Dad: *laughs*
i know it´s ridiculous, but y´all don´t know how insecure my dad makes me about the languages i speak, i still insult everybody in french while we play poker ´cause that´s what i do better 💖
Im actually scared of what my mind does to me. Catastrophic thinking, telling me people i love hate me. I feel like I'm gonna go crazy somehow soon enough to see things come true.
Who would've thought ?!?!? Exercising actually helps with my anxiety !!! As it has always done. I missed exercising so much
Now time to study once again
Me: omG I LOST 3 POUNDS ;_;
My brain: great, next, die
My ed: hOLD A FUCKING SECOND, WHEN, WERE, HOW, WHO, WHAT¿ but you still fat gurl.
Me: -counting how much calories I ate last week and trying to anilize how I lost 3 pounds in a week after bingin' 2 times-
Eepy
fast forward, now on: antipsychotics and antidepressants. hi, i use this account as a personal diary, please don't take me seriously, nor try this at home. A D U L T !! super lesbian and in recovery. sincerely yours, Anne.
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