I'm In Mcdonald's And I'm Surviving Drinking Grape-strawberry Juice And Zero Coke, Here I Go, 170 Caloriesssssss

It's 2am, I'm doing exercise, crying, and looking to meanspo;;

I would take my heart out and give it to you if that proved that i am in love with you

When you start S/H at a young age and so now you have a habit of looking at people's arms, legs, or thighs to see if they did/do it too<<<<<<

I miss my dad (my grandpa) the man who calls himself my dad will never take his place

I just want to see you, please

remember that feeling you had as a kid when bad things were happening and nobody seemed to care and you just kept thinking “Someone should be outraged about this!!! Someone should know and be completely horrified and stunned and then take me away from all this!” but it never seemed to happen and you waited and waited until you lost the faith that you were worth saving

Me: -eat something-

My ed: That had like 10 calories

Me: So?

My ed: yoU aRe gOnnA bE FAT

Me:

Eepy

I'll see the psychiatrist on Saturday

I'll see the psychiatrist on Saturday

I'll see the psychiatrist on Saturday

He's not gonna believe me when I tell him how I feel like, he's just gonna ask about med school and how I possibly have ADD. Idk doci feel lost in class but I also feel lost in life, like, I didn't feel like myself, but who am I at the end of the they but my thoughts and worries, my past and future, the way I can't trust people, not even those who are supposed to be there for me. I'm broken and I know there's something wrong with me

At least is my last try.

Hey, I'm here again¿ I'ven been sososo dead here I was in exams I had at leas 28373937 anxiety attacks:/ Y'all know what that means, right? BINGING:0000 I gained that three pounds I thought I lost last month I feel sooooo fucking bad, and it's not a joke, I thought about purging agAIN AND I DON'T PURGE SINCE JANUARY, I'M GOING FUCKING CRAZY ABOUT MY FUCKING WEIGHT. I tried, I swear I tried. I didn't notice when food became numbers, and I remember how time ago I read some tumblr post about whY DON'T TO RESTRICT FOODS AND ALL THAT SHIT THAT ALL ANA POST TELLS YOU and I said "nah, I'm not gonna be thaaat bad, right?" I feel bad, but I can't stop I'm empty. That's all, but next week or maybe tomorrow, depends on my mood. I'm gonna try to ristrict again, just to be calm. I'm sorry