“Make A Radical Change In Your Lifestyle And Begin To Boldly Do Things Which You May Previously Never

“I hope you are doing well, this is the only thing that keep me sane. The thought of you happy is everything to me. I know things don’t worked the way we wanted. But I love you so much, no matter how much time pass, I’ll always be here waiting for you. Being yours no matter what, you are my first true love and also the last one.”

— I promise I’ll always be here when you need a hand to hold and someone to talk. You aren’t just someone I love, you are my best friend, my favorite person, my life, my everything. (via coral)

Person: hey, how are you?

Me: I’m okay, wbu?

Me internally: I’m not really okay. In fact I’m the farthest thing from okay. But I don’t want to say that I’m not okay bc then it’s going to be awkward. You’re going to question me and ask me what’s wrong and I’m not going to be able to tell you bc I don’t know what’s wrong. I feel this internal pain 24/7 and I can’t seem to find the source of it no matter what I do. When I’m not feeling numb I’m feeling like a nervous wreck and sometimes I rather kill my self on the spot then think about going out into public, being around people, or even being alone. And I can’t tell you I don’t know what’s wrong because that just sounds so stupid and like I can’t guess and say what’s wrong bc then if I do we end up having a pointless conversation of you trying to comfort me. Then not only do I have to hide my anxiety and depression while talking to you, but now I have to hide my anger that I have for no reason. So yes, I think it’s best if we just say we’re okay and hope for the best.

so you’re telling me, this is the big bad breed that I keep hearing about?

written word

I’ve became addicted to this sadness, and this is hard to confess,

I revisit memories so I can keep myself stressed,

I know this isn’t healthy, as I was told In my test, 

But the pain is worth it, as it’s all of you I have left.

“it’s necessary for me sometimes just to be alone and quiet and doing nothing.”

— Charles Bukowski, The Night Torn Mad With Footsteps (via wordsnquotes)

Those things you hate about yourself....

You loved them in your favorite characters.

Your crazy hair:

Your stand out scar:

Your unique laugh:

Your freckles:

Your shyness:

The way you get excited about the little things:

Maybe you’re a little crazy:

Maybe you wish you could change yourself:

But if you did change… There would never be any good stories. 

Let your unique traits shine through. 

Because every thing you call a “flaw”, I call an important character trait. 

“Sometimes, I feel the past and the future pressing so hard on either side that there’s no room for the present at all.”

— Evelyn Waugh, Brideshead Revisited