Person: Hey, How Are You?

Person: hey, how are you?

Me: I’m okay, wbu?

Me internally: I’m not really okay. In fact I’m the farthest thing from okay. But I don’t want to say that I’m not okay bc then it’s going to be awkward. You’re going to question me and ask me what’s wrong and I’m not going to be able to tell you bc I don’t know what’s wrong. I feel this internal pain 24/7 and I can’t seem to find the source of it no matter what I do. When I’m not feeling numb I’m feeling like a nervous wreck and sometimes I rather kill my self on the spot then think about going out into public, being around people, or even being alone. And I can’t tell you I don’t know what’s wrong because that just sounds so stupid and like I can’t guess and say what’s wrong bc then if I do we end up having a pointless conversation of you trying to comfort me. Then not only do I have to hide my anxiety and depression while talking to you, but now I have to hide my anger that I have for no reason. So yes, I think it’s best if we just say we’re okay and hope for the best.

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