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Self reflection

I saw a dead cat walking on acid today. It didn’t shock me or scare me, it actually surprised me more than anything. I was sad for a minute but I had to ask why was I sad? I saw death but it’s actually not something to be sad about or even to fear. It wasn’t a warning of what’s to come. The moment was a stand still. The cat had its eyes closed if anything a bit of it eyes were glaring but not even to actually shock me. Its ears were upright it was perfectly in tact. In fact I just assume a car hit it but tbh there was absolutely no evidence of that even taking place. But cats dont just die in the street do they? 

That’s why im able to step back a little more. It was very foggy. A cat that could’ve lost its way. A cat that was potentially stuck in its ignorance and own ways. But it was fog. Something died in the fog. Did I find what died in the confusion? Did something die when I become more aware? What died tho? But I guess another key takeaway is allowing space and time for the answer to just simply come to me. I got to excited with this information but now im going to pull it back into self and find comes next.

I would ask for opinions but in reality yours doesn’t even matter to me. It would shape my belief in something I dont have clarity in and why does your truth have to become mine? I’ll remain unanimous. Instead you who are reading take this information as you will. I guess we all uncover our own truths and hidden layers

last few months have been ROUGH on me if only anyone knew, but here we are. i’m doing my best.

Rule Of Opposites/ Circle of Life

Earth moves in cycles/spirals, this the very nature of the Universe reflecting the “Circle of Life” or as I say the “Spiral of Life”. All life flows/moves within this spiral. All life is in constant motion like waters flowing from a stream. All life is interrelated and inter-dependent like the many intricate threads of a single spider web.

Since humans are a part of nature and nature is known to move in cycles, we also move in cycles.

The circle/spiral, is a sacred symbol. The spiraling motion can take a specific direction through choice. (It’s funny because if you look at a spiral it’s often hard to tell which direction it *(The choices of others)* was drawn in. *(It’s all based on your perspective/perception which we’ll get into)* Circles of life surround us, exist within us, and compromise many relationships of our own existence.

The Circle/Spiral of Life is made of the Mind, Body, Spirit and the Natural Enviornment. We all have our own way of life that we’ve chosen and lived in. Our choice of how we focus our time and energies in each of these components(mind, body, spirit, NE) reflect our values and properties.

*Balance is another component in understanding the symbolism of the Circle/Spiral. *Flowing in sync with the natural flow of things themselves*

The Circle/Spiral has no real beginning or ending. So terms like ‘good’ or ‘bad’ are given relative value because one naturally implies the other. So this means the TRUTH lies somewhere between the two poles (good and bad) as opposed to being at one of the two poles. In other words look beyond the surface value to seek what is true.

But also be aware of the difference between the approaches of:

“This and That”

“This or That”

And the most extreme

“This VS That”

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“This or That” and “This VS That” can result in having discordant feelings, thoughts and/or actions.

*MY EXAMPLE*

It’s like being asked Beyonce VS Solange, sister VS sister. I think the easy answer is Beyonce; why? Beyonce has more status, more accomplishments recognized, and ultimately has a better vocal range.

But if I ask you Beyonce OR Solange it becomes a lot more opinionated rather than hardcore fact checking when you say versus. (Be aware how ‘ego’ can also create delusion. You can even replace the word ego with perception! But not all delusion is bad, it’s your world after all!)

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Its all about the thought process in these unconscious states of mind and how simple keywords can trigger a whole entire way of thinking you can’t control because you aren’t aware of all the levels your being affected on. Words and phrases are still more powerful than we give credit for. It may sound corny but Knowledge is power, you can’t be what you dont know you are! You can’t possess power you dont even know/believe you have!

In one simple way the Rule of Opposites is something that implies recognizing meaning and truth in everything you apply this rule to. The Circle/Spiral of Life is finding purpose and direction in ALL of life.

*EXERCISE*

Draw a circle. Start anywhere.

The point where your pen first touches the paper is the point of conflict.

As you draw your circle recognize this whole motion as seeking resolution, finding harmony.

When you complete that circle recognize you have now found the balance and restored harmony in this cycle to become whole.

*This circle is truly how how life works apply it with anything and you may understand everything and anything.*

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Opposites are extensions of themselves. Again like ‘good’ or ‘bad’ one implies the other.

We choose our own opposites aka we are the true source for the difficulty we face.

We have way more choices available to us than we ever realize. Sometimes we make choices that may not have been so beneficaial to us in short or potentially long term. But notice how our perspective changes as we look back and realize different and more beneficial choices were possible. The answer/key is to gain a greater range of perspective; aka WISDOM. Energies themselves are never the source of our problems, it’s our own self understanding of the energies and also how we use these energies that are often the source of our problems.

Conflict seems to be a part of the human experience but based on how you look at it conflict is an illusion. All things are energy, when energy takes on a specific nature it moves accordingly to its nature (moving at a degree, angle, direction, etc). So when finally met with an opposing force the energy is seeking resolution through/in harmony; OR simply put to find balance to become whole like the Circle/Spiral.

The next lesson in The Rule of Opposites is asking the right question rather than look for the right answer.

*EXAMPLE*

What is 1+1?

Looking for the right answer you may say 2.

But if i ask you:

Does 1+1 really equal 2?

We’ve entered a whole new realm and thought process AND level of understanding.

1+1 can equal 1. (1 person comes together with another 1 person and create a whole new energy/identity)

1+1 can equal 3 ( The color red plus the color blue now creates purple; that’s two separate energies that harmonize together and create a third energy. It’s like Goku and Veneta fusion to create Vegito, they both still have their minds and work together through harmony and balance to exist as Vegito but Vegito will never exist without the two.)

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Taking a deeper look at these words “asking the right question rather than look for the right answer” its important to realize asking the right questions instead of seeking the right answers allows you to understand the function rather than the effect. (Example: 1+1)

Basically, clarify your assumptions and find the true meaning of a given experience or situation.

A person could be so angry they invest a magnitude of energy in defending why someone made them made them angry. An alternate course of action would be to examine the energy of discord and understand the underlying meanings of these feelings. “How can my anger be useful to me?” “What does anger mean to me?” Find the true source of your anger and the overall patterns within. Questioning others choice is only natural but believe it or not its not about them, its about you.

When I get angry I often find the reason is because things are beyond my control and my ego is upset due to lack of control. It’s not really about what someone did to me. It’s about understanding myself. I can’t and refuse to control anyone else’s actions or choices. Idc if we’re married, idc if we’re in business. This whole life experience has given free will to all of us. I can make clear agreements and contracts with my partners in love or even business. Doesn’t mean anyone has to abide and follow these contracts and that’s the plain truth. Instead I seek to achieve harmony and balance within structures. Scales lose balance as things progress and make changes (just as nature) all in an attempt to complete a cycle, upgrade and become whole again. The cycle repeats. It’s really simply just a universal understanding and the more you understand the less you fight. You just have to know and be clear on where your going and what the goal is *aka asking the right question and not asking for the right answer the truth lies inbetween*

Perspective is everything but beyond perspective is truth.

Example: A warrior is a warrior yes, but a real warrior is a lover.

Next Lesson:

Question your assumptions; you’ll find the hidden meanings (or truths) and understand the value of choices you made.

This rule also enables us to clarify assumptions we’re acting on rather than focusing energy on justifying our actions and perceptions. When you ask a question focus on the question AND the opposite of it, (and any alternate question that focuses on what is truth) rather than what is ‘right or ‘wrong’ ‘good’ or ‘bad’.

*EXAMPLE*

“What did you say?” Implies “What did you not say?” “What did I do?” Implies “What did I not do?”

Both are equally important questions and part of the same truth. But they do not reveal underlying truth. You want to reveal the others personal choice that was made AND the personal values of that choice.

“How did you come to make that choice?” “What does it mean to you?” clarifies your own personal assumptions and see more than just the outcome AND even the cause of an action or decision.

We need to step beyond our Individual frame of reference to recognize deeper meanings and lessons that present themselves to us. Reacting to life circumstances without pausing for reflection limits our ability to perceive underlying truths through multiple perspectives. Recognizing the relationship among things is key to seeking a sense of harmony and balance, which occurs when you recognize and honor Universal Truths and underlying meanings.

The Circle of Life is driven by individual choice. Each choice requires us to seek our place within the Circle, a place that balances the opposite pull of spiritual (spirit) and physical (body), mental (mind), and natural environment. Life consists of a endless series of choices that present us with challenges to be met or ignored, consequences to be accepted or rejected.

Because we have the freedom to choose, we also possess the freedom to seek a unique personal balance in our lives--or to maintain them in a state of discordance.

Either way, we have the opportunity to learn and to understand. The primary lesson of the Rule of Opposites is the lesson of choice.

As this lesson still has more layers to be understand I will stop here and give you time to catch up. Thank you for your time as always. Endless love to you, whoever you are.

THE SADDEST DAY IN AUGUST

Sober

by The 199x.

SOBER OUT NOW!

Better Red 

Lisa Brice

sneak peek to a beat i just made

one of them days of overwhelming exhaustion. i promise i’m working everyday. it’s just hard to be 100% self sufficient i want help but not just any help. i want help from someone who is also self sufficient and i don’t have to constantly check in with to keep making things move forward. it’s not for me, it’s for us. my mind is just overloaded with shit i need to do and endless information. im damn near exploding 😂 but i’m so calm about it. i secretly can’t even think without my brain scrambling everywhere and then shutting down to temporary nothingness 😅