Hey! You Good!

Read a paper whose research was of the theoretical nature! It appears thermal physics is Very interesting and I must learn about the generalized uncertainty principle and instantons.

Choice feminism only appears to be an attempt at upholding the status quo under the patriarchy while preaching to women they’re empowering themselves. How does one truly argue these acts are empowering or feminist? Step back from the make-up example but think about the number of cultures and religions globally that have a rigid adherence to patriarchal gender roles— many women within these cultures happily do make choices that leave them vulnerable, abused, degraded, and ultimately seen as lesser beings than men. But they made that choice… what would you say about the nature of that choice? Empowering? Divorce and marrying later in life or perhaps even not marrying at all is a choice many women can make but what are the social repercussions of that? Can women make certain choices without being demeaned by those around them? Can they divorce or live a child-free life while being seen as a whole and fulfilled human?

Pet peeve:

someone makes a statement on how society socializes women to focus on their appearance and dress up in ways men never have to in order to look good/feel good/and feel valued but now comes another woman [choice feminist] saying: ‘But if you want to wear makeup it’s your choice! Remember it’s always okay to do what’s best for you!”

The mere idea that it is women alone who are expected to perform beauty rituals to simply be comfortable enough to exist in many places makes you uncomfortable. You jump to defend make-up despite no one condemning make-up in totality… look at our feminists!

There is no desire without fear.

My first love will always be physics

Need to be healthy need to take care of my body Need to tend to this vessel need to maintain it need to eat healthy no junk food I need to exercise

Sappho, If Not Winter: Fragments of Sappho (tr. by Anne Carson)

But Please Plato . . . I am worthy .

I enjoy mocking certain Dostoevsky readers due to how much of a loser they are. These readers can also be pretentious and arrogant about their self proclaimed intellectual identity but as I said: they’re losers. I like dostoevsky’s writing though. I’ve read Crime and Punishment and White Nights. I enjoyed Crime and Punishment more but I resonate very deeply with the narrator in White Nights and soon hope to have a copy of the work

So lonely So so lonely Nothing but lonely So alone