My First Love Will Always Be Physics

The opposite of anxiety is not calmness, it is desire. Anxiety and desire are two, often conflicting, orientations to the unknown. Both are tilted toward the future. Desire implies a willingness, or a need, to engage this unknown, while anxiety suggests a fear of it. Desire takes one out of oneself, into the possibility of relationship, but it also takes one deeper into oneself. Anxiety turns one back on oneself, but only onto the self that is already known. There is nothing mysterious about the anxious state; it leaves one teetering in an untenable and all too familiar isolation. There is rarely desire without some associated anxiety: We seem to be wired to have apprehension about that which we cannot control, so in this way, the two are not really complete opposites. But desire gives one a reason to tolerate anxiety and a willingness to push through it.

Open to Desire

Mark Epstein

Neeed to derive centripetal force. and derive the Lorentz factor Again

My neuroscience and philosophy professor abused mt paper I got an 80 and his starting line was “There is much to be desired…” in regards to the to the introduction

Oh sweet grumpy man Please have mercy

Seeking to understand how drift velocity is quite low and slow while there’s an almost instantaneous feedback of circuit information once the connection is closed and the voltage is established. I see that drift speed is different from the speed at which the particles collide with one another within the wire too, that collision (or thermal?) speed is notably higher than drift velocity . But how is this almost instantaneous feedback of information possible ?

We need science literacy. Now.

I think of the 4th spatial and maybe I should begin writing sci-fi short stories

That sounds lovely and would reflect my eerie dreams

I am currently very afraid of being stupid and dumb. It’s the worst thing one can be. I’m afraid I’ll dumb down even more I can’t imagine living a life where I’m stupid and dumb and I continue to get more stupid and dumb. It’s my nightmare I need to exercise my brain

Pet peeve:

someone makes a statement on how society socializes women to focus on their appearance and dress up in ways men never have to in order to look good/feel good/and feel valued but now comes another woman [choice feminist] saying: ‘But if you want to wear makeup it’s your choice! Remember it’s always okay to do what’s best for you!”

The mere idea that it is women alone who are expected to perform beauty rituals to simply be comfortable enough to exist in many places makes you uncomfortable. You jump to defend make-up despite no one condemning make-up in totality… look at our feminists!

How I wish I had a feast of potatoes placed forth in front of me .