I Love You. I Know These Words Won’t Reach You, But Let Me Say Them Here Again And Again.

How did you live through all that shit just to be brought down by this? It makes no fucking sense.

I still need you.

I just want to hear your voice again

Yell at me

Please yell at me

Because then at least you'd be breathing

Please come back

Please

I miss you

I should have raked the pine needles with you. I should have gone to dinner with you.

I should have been there when it happened

I should have been there.

I know he's gone.

I love with the ramifications of that every day.

But I often catch myself referring to him like he's still here.

It's not out of delusion.

It's just hard to turn almost three decades of "is" to "was"

And each one twists the knife.

I brought you a coffee with one cream. Just how you like it. From McDonald's, not Starbucks because I know you hate Starbucks and McDonald's is your favorite.

If there is an afterlife, I hope that leaving it here for you means you can enjoy it.

I miss you

Happy birthday.

I don't want to be in this year. I want to go back. He's not in this year I want to go back please

I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you

Aeschylus’ The Oresteia: Agamemnon (tr. Richmond Lattimore)

"And let me dream of you tonight for I miss you more than usual today"

— Edward Lee