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Messy lighting experiment from a few days ago featuring my two favourite not-quite-human boys. I’m very much in love with Shin Megami Tensei IV: Apocalypse.

Akusaimonth: Berserk Mode Day 31: Free Day

»You know, Isa. I think I really love you. Like really really.« »You're an idiot.« »Haha. No really, I mean it. I love you, Isa.« »I love you too, Lea. … really really.«

I wanted to upload this for AkuSaiDay, but the odds where against me. It seems it just shouldn't be. xD

No really. *sigh*

I was thinking a lot about what I would do for that day. You know yesterday/today is a special day for me as well, because it's my third anniversary as a fan of AkuSai :) (it was the night from the 7th to the 8th of August, yep I remember it exactly. And yes, the date is a coincidence. xD) I was thinking of making a special for that day, showing you my embarrassing first sketches and a few other drawings and while I was searching my old drawings I stumbled across a sketch that showed them both lying in bed somehow like that. I found it nice and well, that's the story how I came to this motif.

I hope you all had a great AkuSaiDay! :)

AKUSAIMONTH: BERSERK Day 12: SET C - “Gradient”

Your behavior towards me changed. You changed.

It was important to keep a close eye on the wielder of the keyblade. Up to this very day, I cannot claim to know the full truth behind Xemnas’ – behind Xehanort’s plan. The essential part this boy played in it was obvious nonetheless. It was only logical to let you watch him.

As always though, you didn’t quite act as I was expecting. You never did, and still I could have never forseen the outcome this would cause. By the time I realized, it was already too late.

I was already losing you to him.

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I only have one in-progress picture unfortunately. I think it's funny that it looks like it's out of focus, but no, that's what the drawing actually looked like at that point!

Base colours, done with pastels only.

@AkuSaiMonth 2023 Prompt: Stars ID in alt. Bingo card under the cut! (1/5)

The birth of stars …

This is based on that one first anniversary James Webb picture and inspired by this artwork by @prinnay! And I just realized she also made an (absolutely amazing) drawing based on that same James Webb picture...! Check it out!

My bingo card for this year:

I have 4 out of 5 drawings planned out ... let's see how many i can get out in the two weeks left

AKUSAIMONTH // 2017 Day 2: First or Last

“Heh. I knew you’d like the idea! Just like back then, when you kissed me the first time!”

“Lea, stop. This is getting embarrassing.”

“Awwww, don’t be embarrassed for being a sweetheart~”

“Right. You set up all the candles in your house out on the street to look like stars in the night sky, remember? I’m still not sure if that was sweet or plain stupid.”

“You were so down after we couldn’t see the meteor shower, so I thought I’d cheer you up. Worked better than I had expected, hehe. Also, I’m pretty sure you liked it, judging by your reaction.”

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@AkuSaiMonth 2022 Prompt: Whispers / Dreams ID in alt. Bingo card under the cut (3/5).

POV: You step out of the sauna to cool off, all relaxed and cozy BUT THEN you catch these two glancing at you and whispering to each other!!! D: Rude!!! >:(

… Damn, I could really use a spa day. x’D

AKUSAIMONTH: BERSERK Day 7: SET C - “Explosion”

I saw him coming.
 Never before had I seen anything like what he held in his hands, but I didn’t need to to know it was dangerous, that he was dangerous. 
I shouted out to you, reached for you in order to push you out of his way, but you grabbed me instead and held on to me. I don’t even know if that’s what you were planning to do, but you acted as a shield to me, the last thing I would have ever wished for.

I won’t ever be able to forget the pain I saw in your eyes as you disappeared without another word.

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If you were wondering what I was doing this last week: I sold my soul to Satan once again in order to get those two cosplays done. And on the weekend I went to a con with my (twelve year old. Yes, TWELVE. Look at her, she's HUGE.) sister :D (the second youngest ... I've got four younger siblings @A@)

One day, I will finally manage to start earlier ... >___< (I mean ... my Astrid Cos was done in two days ... well, maybe three if I'd be very strict.) Then I wouldn't be stressed for days. Then I would have time for breaks and a healthy portion of sleep, and I wouldn't forget half of the costume at home <_<"

This was actually a gift for my sister. The cosplays and visiting the con, I mean. She had to win a "bet" first, namely: She had to do without sweets or sweet drinks or very fat food for the whole summer vacation (that lasts for two months here.) And well, she won. :) I don't care for any "beauty standards", but she was really getting into a weight-, and therefore a healthproblem and she definitely needed a push into a different direction. Wheter it helped or not ... well, we'll see.

Either way I am really proud of her, because she proved a whole lot of willpower in those two months, and that is definitely important just as well :)

Akusaimonth: Berserk Mode Day 13: Broken

All I want is to hold you. Nothing more – and nothing less. I know that when I do, I can pretend it to be us. Not just empty shells. I can pretend things to be fine, even if it is just for a moment. I can almost pretend to feel, because – I do somehow. I do remember how warm it felt to touch you, to be with you. That’s enough for me. But all you ever do, is telling me that I can’t. Telling me that it’s not true. That you can’t feel me, even when I am near to you, that it feels like a lie at best. That you don’t want me to touch you, because it makes you realize how false all of this is. How false we are. We don’t have hearts. We can’t feel. Then why does it hurt that much?

This was actually the first fill I drew for Akusaimonth. Yep, that’s the day I entered. I decided afterwards that I will do them in the right order and let that sketch be. Which was a good thing too, because it actually looked terrible. xDDD Phew, good to see that I got better at drawing those two in the last two weeks.

AKUSAIMONTH: BERSERK Day 6: SET C - “Shapes (Silhouettes)”

“We've tried for years! If there was a way, we would have found it by now!” “We've got to try it anyway!” “Why can’t you just let it go? We won’t get in, accept it already!” “No, you don't understand! Things have changed! I saw those shadows!! I know, you don't believe me, but-” “I do believe you. That's exactly what gets me worried! If those creatures really did come from the castle, then who knows what's still luring inside there!” “Right, nobody knows. Because noone's been there, noone's seen it!” “That's not what I-” “But it's just what I mean!” “Lea.” “No, I'm going. With or without you.”

I don't know whether or not he went to the castle that day. He never told me. If he did, he failed, just as we had countless times before. The next time though I did follow him, and he didn't even need to ask. For the next time was when his warnings and my nightmares finally came true. When the world as we knew it, seemed to end.

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