Oops, Akusaimonth Is Already Over And I Only Finished One Picture Out Of The Four Picture Set For The

So, anyone continuing AkuSaiMonth with me?

Akusaimonth: Berserk Mode Day 13: Broken

All I want is to hold you. Nothing more – and nothing less. I know that when I do, I can pretend it to be us. Not just empty shells. I can pretend things to be fine, even if it is just for a moment. I can almost pretend to feel, because – I do somehow. I do remember how warm it felt to touch you, to be with you. That’s enough for me. But all you ever do, is telling me that I can’t. Telling me that it’s not true. That you can’t feel me, even when I am near to you, that it feels like a lie at best. That you don’t want me to touch you, because it makes you realize how false all of this is. How false we are. We don’t have hearts. We can’t feel. Then why does it hurt that much?

This was actually the first fill I drew for Akusaimonth. Yep, that’s the day I entered. I decided afterwards that I will do them in the right order and let that sketch be. Which was a good thing too, because it actually looked terrible. xDDD Phew, good to see that I got better at drawing those two in the last two weeks.

Just a little heads up: I'm alive and I'll try to post a few more drawings before the new year!

First up is a little series of portraits, featuring my favourite characters of three of my hypes from this year: The Magnus Archives, NEO: The World Ends With You and The Great Ace Attorney.

If you follow my reblog blog @schluesselschwert you probably already know who they are. x'D

Hope you all had as good a year as you possibly could and I wish you happy holidays!

Akusaimonth: Berserk Mode Day 10: Repentance

Thank you, Lea.

Read from left to right.

I highly doubt that gaining a heart again will be a pleasant experience for Isa. Lea, be a darling and HELP HIM.

By the way, I am convinced that Lea will return Isa's heart, I mean really why else would you give this character a keyblade? He doesn't even count as one of the seven lights.

“Do you know what happens to those who lose their true purpose? Inevitably, they destroy themselves.”

Dedicated to @herzblutrose that wanted to see this ♥ (Also I apologize for disappearing like that x.x)

Okay, so. If becoming norted DOESN’T mean losing your free will, then what good would it do Xehanort to make Sora a vessel.

I am honestly so done with the Saix discourse around here.

Saix has Xehanort’s EYECOLOUR AND EARS for heaven’s sake. He is clearly at least influenced by Xehanort during his time in Org XIII. Not to mention he has a X carved into his forehead, X like keeping watch on people (see KH3D).

I always thought that Saix is losing more and more of himself to Xehanort, but that’s only my interpretation of course. He’s still at least partially himself, before his death in KH2, yes. He did terrible things, yes. I’m not saying those should be forgotten.

But please don’t forget, that he was also in a terrible situation and he was slowly losing his only support (= Lea). Situations have a huge impact on our decisions and behaviour, which has close to NOTHING to do with our personality. Feel free to google the fundamental attribution error on that one. Does this justify what he did? Not at all. Does this mean he shouldn’t be forgiven? Not. At. All. If he is willing to repent, then let him do it. EVERYONE DESERVES A SECOND CHANCE.

Then again, I’d like to take a look at the “terrible things” Isa/Saix did. The main problem I see is his behaviour towards Roxas and Xion, who would have needed support and whose situations were clearly made worse by him. Keep in mind that he deeply believes he doesn’t feel any emotions and nobody else around him does either. The definition of empathy (according to Dorsch, Lexikon der Psychologie [translated]) is the cognitive understanding and affective reciprocation of the assumed emotions of another being. Of course Saix doesn’t have any.

The “terrible things” I don’t understand, are those other people see in his interactions with Axel? Roxas and Xion hurt Axel’s mental state way more than Saix, not on purpose of course, but I strongly doubt Saix’ goal was to hurt Axel either. Saix and Axel are ARGUING. Axel doesn’t trust Saix and vice versa. Saix is angry, he’s sad, while he doesn’t acknowledge any of it. He tries to keep Axel close with their shared goal. With pressure, yes, which he didn’t have to, but they are still arguing, remember. There’s still a strong, unresolved conflict in between them. Don’t try to tell me, you’re always kind and caring in an argument, dear haters. Because BY SHARING HATE YOU ALREADY ARE CAUSING DAMAGE TO OTHER PEOPLE. I felt uneasy and irritated, I had sleepless hours thanks to those Saix hate posts. YOU caused me harm with your unnecessary discourse.

So what does this say about you? Shouldn’t you be forgiven?

Messy lighting experiment from a few days ago featuring my two favourite not-quite-human boys. I’m very much in love with Shin Megami Tensei IV: Apocalypse.

Riku Appreciation Week | Day 1: Favourite Appearance So, this felt like the perfect opportunity to finally, well, draw some Riku. I absolutely love hin im 3D. I could run around as him all the time! (ReCoded is very close though, DataRiku is my little darling, haha.)

FIRST BINGO! WUHUU!

Links to each of my entries for AkuSaiMonth 2015 in this post!

Akusaimonth: Berserk Mode Day 23: Flower

Radiant Garden. Our lives. Our past. Our dreams.

Everything is gone.