" You Should Be At The Club " I Should Be At Cabeswater Searching For Glendower

just finished the raven boys and gosh that was good. lost count of how many times my heart broke for the characters, especially adam. need the next book asap

dear algorithm, no spoilers please

FitzChivalry Farseer, they could never make me hate you.

Dear Book Industry: please start including QR codes to the audio version in the physical copies of your books. I paid $$ for this, I want to be able to enjoy the story in every way.

Sincerely, me who is currently sick with too much of a headache to read, there's no free audiobook of Assassin's Apprentice to be found online, I'm not paying 15 bucks AGAIN to listen on audible after I already paid that much for the physical copy of this book.

Please make it easier for story-hungry people like me to get ahead in their books even if they're unable to physically read sometimes.

I'm desperate and have looked EVERYWHERE for a free Assassin's Apprentice audiobook.

let me be wanted

and if i am not wanted

let me be needed

and if i am not needed

let me be used

until there is nothing left of me.

story of my life

"are you okay?" no I got way too attached to a fictional character and now they're dead

Every day I start kinning this man more

Thinking about how badly Andrew must’ve wanted to be known. For someone to actually notice things about him and be curious and piece all these observations together. Like. The truth game was just as much about wanting to know things about Neil as him wanting Neil to know him. And even without the truth game being evoked, when he knows what answers Neil must be digging for, he gives in more often than not. I think about how when Neil started noticing Andrew’s odd memory, especially when Neil believed him not to be paying attention and when Neil started finally asking questions, and how quickly Andrew answered them, how he must’ve been thinking, finally.

How much he wanted to be known and by someone he knew by now he could trust. Someone he knew could understand him and the implications of things he’s told. Someone he could tell his own secrets and things he’s been keeping to himself. Everything he let other people assume or misunderstand about him. This little nobody runaway is paying attention, piecing it together, understanding in a way that no one has ever been willing to do, not even his own twin. And when Aaron and Nicky asks him when this happened or other variations of the questions Neil’s already solved himself, and Andrew tells them they should’ve figured them out himself.

The way Neil was the first person to take him at his word, especially about something that wasn’t violence. To look further into him and the things he says and does and actually try to understand him. Not just write him off as a violent psychopath who does things for his own pleasure. The way Andrew wanted him to see more of him and understand him. And I just. My mind is tangles. But I want to go on about this forever.

Fictional man obsession of this month:

✨️Lestat de Lioncourt✨️

(1994 movie version, currently reading the vampire chronicles as well)

from my dnd session tonight:

"did we put too much pressure on the prodigy is it broken now?"

schools be like

sleep paralysis barkbark

can you imagine being Jean Moreau and waking up in the middle of the night from a horrific night terror only to sit up and be met with the everlasting stare of a cardboard golden retriever named fucking Barkbark Von Barkenstein

350 pages worth of soul destroying jean content and the fandom is instead choosing to focus on andrew's cheese drawer. love it