Just Finished The Raven Boys And Gosh That Was Good. Lost Count Of How Many Times My Heart Broke For

let me be wanted

and if i am not wanted

let me be needed

and if i am not needed

let me be used

until there is nothing left of me.

ew what is this new app icon I want the old one back

a question that hasn't let me go since finishing AFTG:

in a timeline where the perfect court worked out, would neil be a striker or a backliner?

while he was at the nest, riko made him play as a backliner but he performed rather poorly, and yet riko marked him #4 for his perfect court.

even though his special potential only showed when he played as a striker for the foxes.

but the perfect court was supposed to be riko (1) and kevin (2) for strikers, and jean called neil his partner that got away or something so we can assume that the planned backliners were jean (3) and neil (4)

did riko really gamble on neil's ability to adjust to being defense, or would he have been a striker sub??

Perfect summary of why I adore this book

Does anyone else just sit and think about the fact that Six of Crows is literally the perfect book?

Like, we have a morally grey character who's actually morally grey and has a real reason to push people away other than "once I killed someone in self defense, so I'm a terrible person and we can't be together." And every other character has a super fleshed out backstory as well, including real world problems that don't usually get talked about in fantasy books.

There's just as heavy an emphasis on platonic love as romantic love, instead of "I can fix him", it's "he can fix himself", there's a gay couple that's actually happy and not suffering every five pages, and all of the gay characters have personality traits outside of the fact that they're gay.

And speaking of the romance, it's so not rushed or sexualized. No one even kisses in the first book, but it's still so obvious how much they love each other. Each couple has such a different dynamic, and the way their pasts mirror each other? Perfection. (I also firmly believe that Kanej is the best couple in all of YA prove me wrong)

And then the diversity??? 3/7 of the lead characters are POCs, 4/7 are queer, 3 have disabilities, 2 have addictions, 2 have PTSD, 2 are religious, one was raised in a cult, and it's not one of those books that has diverse characters just for the sake of being diverse!

The plot is so unique, especially among fantasy books, and despite the fact that there's so many moving parts, there is not a single plot hole. And the CK auction scene will forever be one of the best end of series climaxes I have ever read.

So basically I don't get why other authors even try anymore cause I'm sorry but no matter how great their books are, it's not going to be Six of Crows.

Wait I’m a writer

am i the only one who imagined kavinsky to look just like iceman from top gun?? just looked at fanart after finishing tdt and apparently his hair isn't blond??

Fictional man obsession of this month:

✨️Lestat de Lioncourt✨️

(1994 movie version, currently reading the vampire chronicles as well)

it appears i've lost access to my old account @lonelychickennugget or something like that so uh this is my new account i guess

rip 2020 me

Imagine being poor Wymack for a moment.

You get Neil Josten in a total of eight fits. He refuses to get more clothes. Your team has to trick, drag or torment him into purchasing clothing. Your saving grace is Andrew Minyard who you’re pretty sure is just buying clothes for the boy to stare at him. You will not complain because at least he’s getting clothes.

Jean Moreau is dropped on your girlfriend’s doorstep by one of your many children that come from mob backgrounds. He too has a closet that you could fit in a child’s backpack. You refuse to deal with this one. This is a Trojan problem.

And a year prior you got Kevin Day. Who came with who knows how many outfits. Probably like two or less. He at least seems to enjoy shopping.

You are worried for these mob children and their lack of extra pants.