"Oh Boy,

What I say: “I’m fine” What I mean: “My life is fine. I’m not. I’m dead. You were the light in my eyes, the warmth that gave me hope. Now I’m without you, pretending I’m good and almost believing it, but your not here, so I’m not good. I’m not fine.”

My Hearts Thoughts

Do you ever,,, drink tea,, and the honey just like SHINES and you feel like you're drinking literal sunlight??? Like it's a little warm and a bit sweet and it almost tastes like you're a little cat laying by the window with the sunshine warming you gently ...

Does anyone know what I mean ..?

I love you, I think to myself as I look at your picture for the millionth time. You don't know it, do you? Did you ever really understand how much I meant every 'I love you'?? You always said you loved me more but how could you know that if you didn't understand how much I love you? I don't know, sometimes I hope you didn't get how much I love you, cuz then I could make that the reason you took me for granted. Yet, deep inside I wonder if you knew and understood, but just didn’t care...

-my hearts thoughts

You were my sunlight. I now live in a forever darkness. Yet, my love for you still burns as much as the sun. I'll always be yours, even if you're not mine.

- My Hearts Thoughts

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It’s been a while, but I still think of you. I remember the way you held me that last day. I slipped into your arms the way I always had & kissed you with the confidence you gave me, neither one of us knew it was our last kiss. You picked me up & held me tight, super tight against you, I felt as though I could never be separated from you. I still torture myself thinking about how we said goodbye, without knowing it was actually our goodbye. How foolish & wrong was I to think we could make it.

My Hearts Thoughts

Typewriter Series #810 by Aishwarya Nair

We got married last February btw, we're free from so many things now and we're doing our best with our current issues. But y'all, we're doing it! Just because things seem impossible now doesn't mean life won't find a silly way to give you the love you deserve. 💖

“I need you so much…

I just want to curl my fingers in the hem of your shirt and bury myself in you…

But that’s hers to do…

Not mine…

You’ll never be mine…

To need…

Especially not the way I need you.”

- My Heart’s Thoughts

“Dogs don’t know what they look like. Dogs don’t even know what size they are. No doubt it’s our fault, for breeding them into such weird shapes and sizes. My brother’s dachshund, standing tall at eight inches, would attack a Great Dane in the full conviction that she could tear it apart. When a little dog is assaulting its ankles the big dog often stands there looking confused — “Should I eat it? Will it eat me? I am bigger than it, aren’t I?” But then the Great Dane will come and try to sit in your lap and mash you flat, under the impression that it is a Peke-a-poo… Cats know exactly where they begin and end. When they walk slowly out the door that you are holding open for them, and pause, leaving their tail just an inch or two inside the door, they know it. They know you have to keep holding the door open. That is why their tail is there. It is a cat’s way of maintaining a relationship. Housecats know that they are small, and that it matters. When a cat meets a threatening dog and can’t make either a horizontal or a vertical escape, it’ll suddenly triple its size, inflating itself into a sort of weird fur blowfish, and it may work, because the dog gets confused again — “I thought that was a cat. Aren’t I bigger than cats? Will it eat me?” … A lot of us humans are like dogs: we really don’t know what size we are, how we’re shaped, what we look like. The most extreme example of this ignorance must be the people who design the seats on airplanes. At the other extreme, the people who have the most accurate, vivid sense of their own appearance may be dancers. What dancers look like is, after all, what they do.”

— Ursula Le Guin, in The Wave in the Mind (via fortooate)

“Oh darling, do u remember when it was just us, stranded in the middle of our love in an "empty” hallway? I got so stuck on asking why that my heart stopped for a second when I realised you were looking me deep in the eyes repeating, “I love you more”, I’ll never forget. Do u remember under the stairs, our lips collided into a bliss I never thought existed. You held me securely, your kisses have always been soft, honest yet never shy. I looked up at you with wondering eyes, “your everything to me” I said, I’ll never go back on those words. You put your forhead to mine and said, “your mine” I’ll never forget. Now I’m laying here in bed, in between our memories, missing you. Our story will always be my favorite, no matter how troubled it gets. I’ll always love you with a burning passion, a calming completeness, I promise, I’ll never forget.“

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