Kagehina - My Celestial Being
Kagehina - My celestial being
I hope you enjoy this! First time writing on Tumblr! Welp I write requests too so don't be afraid to drop in one! I'd love to write! Also gonna post a prompt list in some time, you can choose the prompt and character. Thanks!
Kageyama has been fond of nature ever since he was a kid. For him, it was entrancing how the moon seemed to keep up with him when no one else would, how the sun is always peeking up the horizon, or how the stars twinkle and light up the darkest nights.
Out of all these, the stars held a place in his heart nothing could replace. Why? The reason being his very beloved soulmate, Hinata.
“Tell me, Boke” Kageyama said softly, staring at the azure sky and the tiny astral bodies glimmering “Do you think people turn into stars once they die?”
“Well for one, we literally decompose or turn into ashes” Hinata’s soft chuckle soon turned into a sad and thoughtful smile as he continued, “Kags, death is not as pretty and peaceful nor is it poetic like people portray it to be, it exists, and it’s pretty much the end? It’s like having to leave everything in a moment's notice. Because it is the end, it’s sad”
He tilts his head to stare into his favourite pair of blueberry eyes, “But you know what, It’s okay to look up at the starry sky and think of your loved ones who left this world. My mom used to say that the brightest star was my grandma looking down on me.”
A few moments of silence are shared while Kageyama ponders over Hinara’s words.
He finds comfort knowing that even if someone dies, you can always look up to the sky and find them there, looking down at you and always watching you no matter what. The very fact that death does not mean gone forever is warm and consoling.
“Hinata, we’ll always be under the same sky, right? Forever and ever?” Kageyama asks, sitting up slightly extending his pinky toward the older male, cracking a small smile when their fingers interlock.
“I promise!”
Promises are not meant to be commemorative or colossal. Just a few words that has you looking forward to something is enough to become a promise
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“Today was long…. Very long and tiring” Kageyama says stretching and walking to sit down next to Hinata in the cool grass, inhaling the scent of the pine trees surrounding the house, “But I’m glad you’re here with me”
“You know I’ll always be here with you no matter what” Hinata smiles, as he rests his head against a pine tree behind him.
The black-haired boy slightly grins as he stares at the twinkling night sky littered with stars. He reaches out his hands in an attempt to pinpoint the brightest one.
“What are you doing, Kags?” His lover asks curiously with a melancholic smile on his face.
“I… I am…. I am reaching out for you” Kageyama quietly whispers as tears he’d been holding back started flowing down his face, “Hinata, I want to be there with you, set to you, laugh and play volleyball, hold you and just…. Love you for eternity but … I will forget you one day…. Right?”
The older boy nods ever so slowly, a tranquil expression on his face as he began, “That is the beauty of life isn’t it? No matter what happens, no matter how low and hard you fall, life goes on and because life goes on, you eventually heal and move on as well. That’s just how it works”
“I… I don’t want to forget you… I don’t want to move on, there’s only one thing I want and that is you. I want you to come back.” Kageyama let’s out a soft and exasperated sigh, closing his fist around the brightest star he can see.
“Kags, it’s okay, You have to move and meet new and amazing people. You have to find a new perfect spiker for you. Someone capable and worthy of your perfect sets. You have to live on because you are alive. But hey, don’t worry, I’ll always be here looking over you and protecting you. For I am your brightest star aren’t I?”
For death does not mean gone. Despite you not being alive, you live on in people you’ve met in your lifetime, the words you’ve spoken and the countless memories you’ve created.
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Kageyama rushes into his house, throwing his jacket onto the couch upon entering with a gold medal dangling around his neck. He makes his way excitedly toward the balcony of the open plant sanctuary. His heart beats with thrill as he places his hands on the railings of the balcony. He tightens his grip as he stares at the night sky.
“Say… Hinata, are you proud of me?” He lifts her gold medal and places a gentle kiss on it, “We won the olympics today. Just like I had promised you, I’d become the best setter, and set perfectly for another…. And win...” He chuckles softly continuing, “Everyone went out to celebrate except for me, you’re still the first person I share my happiness and sadness with...”
“I am so very proud of you, Kags. So much so that no amount of words could describe it.” Hinata smiles back widely, a luminous glow surrounding him under the pale moonlight. “You’ve made me the happiest I’ve ever been and I am eternally grateful to know you feel the same way”
“Hey… Why are you crying? Today is a happy day isn’t it? Your dream came true!” The older boy states quietly, heart aching at the sight.
“What if… What if I never move on Hinata? What if I’m stuck right here forever, searching for you? What if I can never forget you?”
“HEY! You don’t have to forget me! It’s okay to remember me and love me, and cherish all our moments together” Hinata smiles gently, “but you are already doing amazing… You get up each day and live, you’re moving on slowly but surely, Kageyama you may not realise it right now but every little step is a big step toward healing.”
And Hinata is right
Healing is not linear, it’s not sudden. You don’t wake up feeling okay one day, that’s not how it works. It’s rough and patchy and requires a lot of work. You fall down again and again, you do well on some days while the others are absolutely trashy. You want to give up but you don’t, you keep living because you are alive, because it is something you must do.
And you don’t even realise that these ordinary tasks of everyday life are a step towards growth and healing.
Moving on doesn't mean forgetting the people you loved, it doesn’t mean letting go of what is no longer in your sight and control, it means life goes on and you live on.
Kageyama has been fond of nature since he was a kid because nature is warm, like a blanket of love, on cold rainy days.
And what more does anyone desire from life except for being loved and protected?
THE END
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I've been thinking about how, when you're little, you're surrounded by adults who adore you, who you're never going to remember.
I don't mean like your parents and stuff, but like — I work in after school care, and I'm forever meeting five and six year olds who seem like the most incredible people on earth. Kids who painstakingly explain the rules of handball, kids who ask me to help them colour in, kids who feel really deeply wounded by a classmate's behaviour, just an endless stream of them.
Or like my friends' kids who I've babysat once or twice. A kid who played with me in a creek, a kid whose mannerisms are etched in my mind. Cousins' babies who I held for a while. Even just stranger's babies in shops who stare at me the way babies do.
One of my best friends has an online friend who's recently had a baby, and he tells me - someone who doesn't know the friend's name even - about that baby having their first bath. Because that's the kind of love and excitement that little children inspire.
None of these children will remember me.
I literally don't have a greater point here, it's just blowing my mind to think about how much love is directed towards people who can't remember any of us. They can maybe, I guess, if everything goes well, remember the feeling of safety that ought to go with that love.
I. AM. STUMPED.
Seven Seconds in Heaven
Words: 5.8k Genre: Angst, Fluff, smidgen of Smut Summary: In the moment of your death, Heaven drops the hammer of punishment; making him travel back in time to relive memories that can never be changed. Seven memories. Seven minutes in each. Seven seconds before they are ripped away. Warning: Mentions of death and other sensitive things. Tread carefully.
Cr.
It’s another argument.
He is helpless. Frustrated. He’s caught in a blind rage that doesn’t allow him to understand why you said the things you said, why you did the things you did but then the words spew out of his lips without mercy. When the tears cloud your eyes and you rip your gaze away from him, before he can even utter ‘I’m sorry. I didn’t mean it’, you had already said in the calmest voice-
“We are not doing this here.”
Without looking once back, you ran ahead of him, picking up the pace as much your legs could muster while leaving Jin behind you, feeling helpless and frustrated. He watches as your form disappears meters ahead, amongst the crowds as the glow of the street lamps cast shadows on the pavement; they laugh mockingly at him and follow like tails as he begins to race.
“Y/N. Y/N! Y/N, wait!”
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Haha !! This killed me !!
MY. HEART. GOD. SOBBING
I drew a little something for the Hiveworks micro comic summer~
Prompts
Hi! You can choose any prompt number, with a character/ship/self-insert with a character and put it in my ask box! I’ll try my best to write a short drabble/fic for you! You can also specify the genre, like angst, fluff, etc
1. “That’s how the story goes.”
2. “None of this is your fault.”
3. “I know it hurts.”
4. “Are you serious?”
5. “You’re safe now.”
6. “No one’s going to hurt you.”
7. “I don’t understand.”
8. “This isn’t what I wanted.”
9. “My head hurts.”
10. “I’m right here, okay?”
11. “Wow, you look… amazing.”
12. “Are you okay?”
13. “Who did this?”
14. “I made a mistake.”
15. “When I’m with you, I’m home.”
16. “There’s nothing I can do anymore.”
17. “This is going to hurt.”
18. “That was kind of hot.”
19. “Please don’t let me be alone.”
20. “Don’t try to fix me. I’m not broken.”
21. “It’s never too late to get back up again.”
22. “What if one day I wake up and you don’t?”
23. “I immediately regret this decision.”
24. “I’m not okay.”
25. “I’m scared.”
26. “You’re the one thing keeping me sane right now.”
27. “Please stay with me.”
28. “Please help me.”
29. “It’s okay to cry.”
30. “Is that blood?”
31.“Can I kiss you?”
32. “You’re everything to me.”
33. “I’d like to see you try.”
34. “Are you testing me?”
35. “I just wanted to let you know that I think you’re beautiful.”
36. “I’m lost without you.”
37. “You have my word.”
38. “I’m just tired.”
39. “It just… hurts.”
40. “Do you promise?”
41. “I’m not drunk enough for this.”
42. “Why are you shaking?”
43. “I never meant to hurt you.”
44. “Is that my shirt?”
45. “Please don’t shut me out.”
46. “Go back to sleep.”
47. “I can take care of myself just fine.”
48. “This is new.”
49. “Take off your shirt.”
50. “Be you. No one else can.”
51. “I can’t breathe.”
52. “Are you going to talk to me?”
53. “I’m sorry.”
54. “They’re gone.”
55. “Just smile. I really need you to smile right now.”
56. “Would you just hold still?”
57. “I miss the way things used to be.”
58. “Am I dead?”
59. “Look at me.”
60. “Can we just pretend like we’re normal for once?”
61. “I told you not to fall in love with me.”
62. “Please shut up. Just shut up.”
63. “Please tell me it’s going to be okay.”
64. “Yell, scream, cry, please, just say something, anything.”
65. “When you smile, I fall apart.”
66. “If I die, I’m never speaking to you again.”
67. “If you don’t want to talk about it then say so. Don’t lie and pretend to be fine when you clearly aren’t.”
68. “This isn’t what it looks like.”
69. “I just really miss talking to you.”
70. “I can’t do this on my own.”
71.“I’ve got you.”
72. “We’ll figure this out.”
73. “Please don’t say goodbye.”
74. “You’ve shown me what love can feel like.”
75. “You make me feel alive.”
76. “I wouldn’t change a thing about you.”
77. “There is nothing wrong with you.”
78. “I’m just looking out for you.”
79. “Be careful.”
80. “You owe me.”
81. “Come with me.”
82. “I trust you.”
83. “I didn’t want you to see this.”
84. “I’ve been praying for you.”
85. “Take my jacket. It’s cold outside.”
86. “I’ll walk you home.”
87. “Let me help.”
88. “Come here.”
89. “You’re holding back.”
90. “Remember when we were little?”
91.“We’re all a little stronger than we think we are.”
92. “Don’t sell yourself short.”
93. “This isn’t who I am.”
94. “I’m willing to wait for it.”
95. “Are you ready for this?”
96. “You can do this.”
97. “Your life was my life’s best part.”
98. “You were always gold to me.”
99. “Don’t look at me like that.”
100. “I’m fine with where I am now.”
101. “We all want to be somebody.”
102. “Promise me you’ll come back.”
103. “I don’t know anyone else who can make me feel this way.”
104. “I’ve never felt stronger than when you’re with me.”
105. “I believe in you.”
106. “Hold on, we’re coming.”
107. “I won’t let you fall.”
108. “Hey, it’s me, it’s just me.”
109. “Oh god… what did they do to you?”
110. “Can you stay awake for me?”
111. “Who gave you permission to fall asleep?”
112. “I’m going to make that sick bastard suffer for what he did to you.”
113. “Don’t look” / “Look at me”
114. “Here, you might need something to bite on…”
115. “I thought I’d never get to see you again.”
116. “I know you can’t talk, but I just want you to know that I’m not going anywhere.”
117. “I’m not leaving you here!”
118. “Hold my hand.”
119. “You’re so cold…” / “You’re burning up”
120. “I know it hurts, I’m sorry.”
121. “I’ve got you.”
122. “Please be okay.”
123. “I’m sorry I failed you, I should’ve been there.”
124. “Just keep the pressure on it.”
125 “Please don’t leave me, I can’t do this without you.”
126. “I find you rather…boring.”
127. “Can you please just hug me?”
128 “Please don’t, I’m holding food…”
129. “May I please read in peace?”
130. “What is the one thing I told you not to do?”
131. “That really looks good on you.”
132. “You have such a way with words.”
133. “That look on your face bothers me.”
134. “Will you just let me love you already?”
135. “I swear I will wipe that look off your face.”
136. “Come one step closer and you will regret it.”
137. “Do you really want to fight about this?”
138. “Not right now, I’m busy.”
139 “Oh, now you’ve done it.”
140. “I DO understand, just so you know.”
141. “Why are you in love with me?”
142 “Are you trying to seduce me?”
143. “Please don’t say that and just walk away.”
144. “Why did you just bite me?”
145. “Hey, I think you have a fever!”
146. “How can you possibly look good with snow in your hair?
147. “What the hell is a period?”
HAPPY 9TH ANNIVERSARY, BTS
hey dear <3 I'm fairly new to romance, so could I request ways to hint a crush? Thanks lots!
I hope this was the kind of thing you were looking for. If not, feel free to drop another ask.
How To Hint At A Crush
A finds ways to touch B, e.g touching their arm, fixing their hair, sitting close to them, lingering touches.
A noticed small things about B, e.g A thinks their dimples are cute, A likes the way they play with their hands, A notices that B scratches their nose when uncomfortable.
A noticeably relaxes around B, e.g speaks their mind more, physically relaxes their body, smiles / laughs more.
A takes any excuse to be around B, e.g going on small trips with B, offering B a hand with whatever task they’re doing, asks if B is coming when they hear about plans.
Everything reminds A of B, e.g they’re reminded of inside jokes, they see something and think ‘B would like that’, they often think / say ‘I can’t wait to tell B about this’.
Also see:
Reasons for characters to fall in love
Fluff prompts masterlist
Writing advice masterlist
Prompts masterlist
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