From-winded-to-wellness - A Winning Loser

Self care isn’t selfish.💛

Fall in love with yourself. Treat yourself like your best friend. You’re too precious not to do so.

shout out to everybody who’s unlearning the old habits that won’t serve them in their next chapter of life. letting go is difficult, counterintuitive, and disorienting. it’s also worth it.

17 May 2021

So, it’s been about 2 weeks since my last post. I haven’t really been consistent with working out or anything. I have finals to thank for that lol...However, the semester is now OVER, which means I now have all summer to start working towards my goals again. 

This morning, I was able to get out of bed and go to the gym, which I’m really happy about. I decided to try out that workout I’ve seen people rave about on tik tok. The 12-3-30. This is a treadmill workout in which you are walking at an incline of 12 at 3 miles per hour for 30 minutes. EXCEPT, I had to modify it to a 10-3-30 (lol). It was still difficult for me, though. I was able to do the whole thing, plus a 5 minute cool down, but, honestly? I think I might be modifying it a bit more in the future (e.g. reducing the incline more, reducing the time, etc). But, as of now, my plan is to try to do this at least 3 to 5 times a week and see what progress I make in a month or so (maybe even in 2 weeks, who knows?).

Other than all of that, I’m feeling okay. I’m still struggling with my body image, but I’m, at least, feeling a little better in comparison to when I last posted on here. That’s gotta count for something, right? :)

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So...I, temporarily, deactivated my Instagram account just now. I also wanted to, temporarily, deactivate my Facebook, but then I remembered I helped run a page for a club I was in last year. This page still, occasionally, gets liked to this day. I’m not 100% sure how deactivating would affect the visibility of this page, so I’m just going to leave my account alone and, instead, log out out and delete the app from my phone. 

I still feel pretty good about Insta though. Honestly, out of all my social media, this one causes me the most pain (lol). I found myself checking it more constantly. I would attribute this to the fact that the semester ended a couple of weeks ago, which has left me with more free time. I found myself comparing my life with other people’s lives a lot more than usual. This made me start feeling bad about myself and even made me forget about my own recent accomplishments. I also checked the page of someone I should not be checking on (I just know my friends are going to scold me when I tell them about this). This is, mostly, because it always ends with me getting my feelings hurt when I do. Long story short...did not go well. I saw something I wish I didn’t see that ended up crushing my self-esteem even more (learned my lesson).

Anyway, I think I really do need this break from social media (excluding tumblr of course). I’m going to use these next few months to really focus on myself. I’m going to make my physical, mental, and spiritual health top priorities this summer. 

Your boundary doesn‘t need an apology.