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IT IS THE THIRD DAY PF SCHOOL, I ALREADY HAVE SO MUCH HOMEWORK!!!!!

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Life’s a dance, you learn as you go, sometimes you lead, sometimes you follow

-John Micheal Montgomery

I miss bestie :(

Someone save me. I don’t like physics!!!!

Here is a code to how I responded to a post:

Scroll: did not enjoy post

Like: I liked the post or giggled to myself and want to OP to know that I appreciate them

Reblog: relate to the post or a tag game

I just saw someone wearing a boot on a dirt bike?!?!?!

I may have accidentally told my dad I’m in a qpr, I don’t think he understood though.

I was just trying to subtly come out as aro ace, I don’t think he understood that either 🥲

Where in the fuck do I find people who like big mouth, aren’t creepy, and don’t ship fucking CALEB AND MATHEW!!!

My favourite podcast changed the picture that shows on Spotify and I’m going to go FUCKING. Insane!!!!

Edit: I still can’t listen to it

I’ve realised, through watching the earlier season of tua again, I do not like tua s4. I just like that it’s more content. I do like some parts of it though.

I love germaphobe klause

Love goofy Luther

I love everything about Viktor

I love Jean and gene

But it’s a bad ending.

Any other aromantic people love reading romantic fan fiction but if a novel has romance it better also have something else going for it?

Like I live for fan fiction. I’ll read anything that involves my favourite characters but I will never read a romance novel. It needs to just be a side dish.

Like fantasy with a side of romance

Or dystopian with a small romance

Going back to school sucks.

Everyone is much further ahead than me.

All my school friends can drive and I’m even a couple months older than them but I can’t drive. I don’t want to drive because it isn’t something I want to focuse on.

I could probably get my liscence but I don’t have a car in comfy driving. I don’t enjoy driving. But my mother and dad are always on my ass. I can’t even take my test. My dad’s truck isn’t reliable to take a test in and my mom’s car has a huge crack in the windshield.

Why would I spend money and get my parents to spend money so I can get my drivers when I have NO WHERE TO FUCKING GO.

And then there’s the whole problem with me not being able to function.

My mom wants me to get another job because I only get 12 hours on my pay stub but I can hardly handle that.

I can’t function at the same level as my peers and no one understands that

I told my therapist that I feels like my support needs are getting more and more. She basically told me that im just doing to much so they show up more.

That is not what’s happening. Last year I could handle going to work after school and doing therapy and hanging out with people.

Over a three month period now I can’t go to work without shutting down and I’m not going to school because of summer. Therapy takes everything out of me and I can only hang out with my one friend for more than 30 minutes at a time.

I’m doing less and I need more help. It makes no sense

And now I have a week to go back to school and everyone else in my grade is able to function normally and balance school and personal life and have a bunch of friends and drive and make time for themselves and work. And they can do that all with no help.

But when I tell my mom and dad that I don’t want to get my liscence because I zone out a lot when I’m alone, or when I throw a fit because something isn’t the way I like it, my parents say that I’m over reacting or I’m being lazy

My uncle :the second result is quora

Grandma: who is quora

Tw: rant

I love people who try to comfort me when I’m dysphoric but saying shit like you’ll be on t soon or at least you are almost able to get top surgery is not very helpful. Or when people say that once I’m on t it will be better.

I have gender dysphoria, lots of the stuff I’m dysphoric about won’t be fixed when I go on t. Being on t won’t change my interest, being on t won’t change that I’m hyper verbal. Being on t won’t change the size of my hands or my feet

Being on t won’t change that all my friends are either gay or women.

Does any of this stuff make sense to make me dysphoric, no, but it does and saying that going on t will solve the problem is wrong.

I think I should just delete TikTok.

I go on tumblr and I smile and laugh because the shit on her is genuinely funny and entertaining and relatable

When I’m on TikTok I just scroll. It is rotting my brain

20 notes and delete it so I can actually enjoy being on the internet

My fucking mom just said that me needing the right notebooks for school is the same as me using HER plastic bags.

I need the right notebooks so I actually take notes and don’t shut down and have a panic attack every time I go to school because, whether or not she wants to admit it, I am probably autistic and definitely neurodivergent.

She doesn’t want me to use her bags because she bought them.

I hate having gender dysphoria.

I am a chatty person, I love talking. I am basically hyper verbal. But as soon as I get dysphoric I can’t talk. I hate the way my voice sounds so much. I don’t know how to fix that before going on t and I can’t stand it.

Sleeping in my own bed, never

Sleeping on my grandmas couch or in her spare bed, YESSSSSS

Commander is so fun but fuck it takes so long sometimes.

Like we can finish a game in 20 minutes if it goes well

Or… it can take 2 hours and we still aren’t done

Like wtf

IF I SEE ONE MORE PERSON ON TIKTOK SAY THAT “WE BOTH REACB FOR THE GUN” IS A GEN-Z SONG OR THAT THE JAZZ CHOREO IS FROM TIKTOK IM GOING TO DELETE THE INTERNET!!!!

WHY CANT I GET MORE FISH!?!?!?!

I thought reading a lot as a kid was supposed to make you better at spelling. Why is it that I can’t spell for shit.

We went to a show at the fringe and it was a miscasts show and it was so good but now I want to rewatch Chicago and Sweeney Todd

I SAW THE BEST SHOW AT THE THEATRE FESTIVAL IM AT. IT WAS THE FIRST SHOW WE SAW AND IT WAS SO GOOD

TW: Violent Imagery

I am telling you now. If one person says anything along the lines of “ your passing good today” or “you look good for a trans man” I will gouge out my left eye ball and deliver it to them personally to their doorstep.

Same goes for if anyone says I dress feminine for a trans guy

So, I know I don’t feel sexual attraction or romantic attraction. But I get this weird feeling sometimes. I thought it was gender envy because I only felt it towards guys but then I felt it toward Dixie who want a guy the other day.

It’s like I feel like I want to complement the person but I don’t because I don’t want them to think I want to fuck them.

It’s definitely not aesthetic attraction because I know what that feels like.

But like, can I think someone is attractive “romantically” but not have romantic feelings.

My allo friends always talks about thinking people are pretty or cute or good looking but then when I ask they say they aren’t into them in any way.

So is this just like extrem aesthetic attraction or is it something else?

Latest list of why I can’t sleep

- too overwhelmed about getting a present from bestie

-weighted blanket is too heavy and not heavy enough at the same time

-Decided I didn’t want to take my sleeping meds because I want to wake up early tomorrow

-my fish are upstairs

- I’m hungry

-I’m thirsty

- I realized I’ll have to eat and drink tomorrow and it’s icky

When I asked my dad to feed my fish because it was a moving day for their feeding and he didn’t so now they will be even more off schedule then they already were 🙄

The fish definitely don’t care, BUT I DO

Bestie made me a qpr bat. Don’t talk to me I’m too busy not crying out of happiness (I cried as soon as I was alone because it’s just so nice)

Not me having Christmas songs stuck in my head in august…