Someone Better Appreciate The Way My Curls Look Or I Will Fucking Loose It!!!

PSA: if something helps you to function, other people have zero right to make fun off you.

If bringing a teddy bear with you help you to cope, bring it with you

If you watch shows that are “meant for children” because they comfort you, then keep on watching them because other people don’t have a say

This PSA is brought to you by present Fae and meant for future Fae

Whenever people complain about relationships all I can think of is

“Can I recommend AROMANTICISM. Only 00.00$ for your life time! Asexuality sold separately.

My fucking mom just said that me needing the right notebooks for school is the same as me using HER plastic bags.

I need the right notebooks so I actually take notes and don’t shut down and have a panic attack every time I go to school because, whether or not she wants to admit it, I am probably autistic and definitely neurodivergent.

She doesn’t want me to use her bags because she bought them.

Was I doing laundry because I wanted to organize my underwear? Yes.

Did it make me do all the laundry I had dirty means I have clothes to wear? Also yes.

I actually hate how my aunts talk about autism not because I think they are wrong in any way but just because it makes me feel useless.

My aunt always talks about the “quirky” part of autism (I know that isn’t the right word but I can’t think of anything else)

Like once my aunt was saying her wanting her wedding day on one of a couple days she had in mind was because of autism but in reality she just likes numbers that sound good

Or they are talking about crochet and knitting and how executive dysfunction makes it hard but executive dysfunction means I can’t get out of bed in the morning and can’t eat food at all some days.

It’s so hard knowing that my mom doesn’t believe me and she sees me everyday and I actively don’t mask but she believes that my aunt has autism and only sees her at most once a week and my aunt shows a lot less “signs” then I do at home

I don’t know if this is a shitty thing to post so if it is please tell me

I am so tired of being jealous of my friends. I shouldn’t be. I’m happy they are getting the help that they need but what can’t it be me? Why won’t my mom believe me! Why won’t she book me an appointment to figure out my joints instead of just saying it my diet? Why won’t she book an appointment to figure out what’s going on with how tired I feel all the time but can’t ever sleep instead of just saying it depression? Why can’t she accommodate my needs? Why won’t she buy me the supports I need? Why won’t she buy me my comfort food? Why won’t she support my accommodations? Why won’t she care about me?

All my friends have loving parents. One of my friends mom takes them to all the appointments that they need to get the help they need. But my mom won’t even make an effort to call an online therapist so I don’t have to struggle with no support and my old therapist was not working for me. My friends mom will support how they need to live to have a good life and my mom won’t even let me eat the food I like and know I like without getting on my ass. My friends mom takes care of them and mine doesn’t and it feels horrible.

And that’s just the stuff with my physical health and neurodivergency. She also ignores my anxiety unless she uses it to justify something else. It hurts so bad to see your best friend have a wonderful mother who supports them and helps them get the supports they need and the best my mom will do is get me on testosterone then saying that if I have an attitude she’ll take me off it.

She does that with so many things. If I have an attitude or get mad or have normal human emotions she threatens to take away my restorative or take away my ability to see my friend.

She once booked an appointment with my doctor just for the doctor to say “yeah, that’s normal human emotions”. But when I tell her that I am struggling to be a human in a productive way because I think I have autism after hours and hours of reaserch she says that the waiting list is too long. It stead of making that call when I’m still a minor she is making me do it once I am an adult. I have to do it for myself with no support from my mom.

And I live my dad but he also doesn’t stand up for me. How am I supposed to get through this shit with parents who blame my constant pain on diet and won’t book appointments I need.

I’m so tired of being put in a bad mood when my best friend talks about their mental health and neurodivergency. It’s not FUCKING fair!

Of to Walmart. Must listen to my sounds. No breakdown today

I have stopped at a restaurant and got bubble tea and two donut things. Very good food

Clearly it’s an unpopular opinion but I actually love season 4. It is not as good as season three but I think it is a perfect ending to an amazing series.

I know the problem with five and Lila being together is weird but other than that being uncomfy I think the season was AMAZING.

I also think the problem with five and Lila is not him being in the body of a like 20-25 year old ( I don’t remember et the exact age) I think it’s weird because it is his brothers wife.

But also I do be living for the drama. And also, it’s not like 5 acts like a teen. He is like 63. It was ahitty that Lila used him but I don’t think the age gap is the problem. His body is a full grown adult at that point.

I made an incognito QPR bracelet that I can wear to work and in public without people asking questions.

@grey-loves-dragons