I Want To Read But I Must Shower

Aer: do you think we are best friends in every universe

Me: of course

In a fear of being called “chronically online”:

I will accept anyone who isn’t being harmful to other beings.

You want me to use neopronouns, me too

You want me to use noun pronouns, sure, which ones

Your a furry, neat, can I see your fur suit?

You do anything that society deems “weird” or “unusual” or “cringe”, so what, being weird and cringe is SOOOOOO cool

Anyways…

I am (platonically) down bad for bestie.

I have done some thing. I have never done before.

Stopped watching YouTube, which I can’t watch in picture in picture to play a game with them and I’m not disappointed 

@grey-loves-dragons (love you bestie)

I just saw someone wearing a boot on a dirt bike?!?!?!

guys i worked so hard today and nobody read my mind and congratulated me and it’s so sad

The difference between the “right” person and the right person

My ex bought me roses (I only like blue roses) after I begged them for a year and a half and they were basically dead (the fact that they were dead isn’t the problem, I very clearly said I wanted flowers)

My QPP pressed me a leaf from aers moms plant that I love because they knew I liked it

The right relationship isn’t always the romantic one

I love complaining. Complaining is such a universal activity.

Early in the week, it’s Monday 🙄

Hungry, I haven’t eaten In AGES

Tired, I need a nap

The complaints just keep coming

I’ll complain about school, I’ll complain about classmates, I’ll complain about being trans, I’ll complain about being mentally ill.

I don’t actually want to fix anything I just LOVE to complain

I hate:

How often I need to go to therapy

How my mom treats my mental health

How my mom reacts to my choice to set boundaries

How my mom reacts to my plan in the future

The fact that my mom doesn’t like me having in person friends because she needs to drive me

The fact that even my best friends mom sees my moms flaws

The fact that I can’t do what I’m supposed to for my age but my mom refuses to get me diagnosed with ASD so I don’t have any conformation

The fact that the only person who treats me like I’m enough is my best friend

My English teacher

That one bitch in all my classes

All the stupid things my mom yells at me for

The fact that my mom said “I worry about you but I worry about how much you’re missing school for this” in response to me explain that my therapist wants me to go back next week

In conclusion: I am burnt out and can’t distinguish emotions except being angry and missing my best friend. Everything else feels muted and hopeless

When a change goes from making you anxious to just making you pissed at the person who caused it

Born to be an extrovert, forced to be anxious and overstimulated around people