You Patched Yourself Up

Na hum khud se khush hain,

Na iss duniyaa ki rivazon se;

Fir v ussi ko leke age kyun badh rahe hain hum?

malum hai ki kuchh galat ho raha hai;

Jo samaj Humne banaya tha,

Usse humara hi dum ghut raha hai;

Fir bhi badlab se itna darte kyun hain hum?

Before you

I was terrified of this world

looking at those Shadows

Spreading on this earth

You tilted my head upward

showed me the stars

And I stopped shuddering in the dark

You told me

any of them could be mine

The thought made me smile

I wandered around at nights

Looking for that tiny light

That would feel just right

Just mine

And I finally found it

Not up above, in the skies

But around me

Among the fireflies.

How does it feel

To be alone in a mourning

Amongst the crowd of people

Singing and dancing

How does it feel

To be not be able to scream

While your heart is being sliced

In thousand little bits

How does it feel

To be burning in a sea

And concealing the scars

Behind a polite smile

How does it feel

To finally realise

How insignificant

Your life truly is

How does it feel

Wanting to be erased

From everyone's mind

While craving the attention

At the same fucking time

I thought we have left that in the past

But clearly I was wrong;

I thought you were done breaking my heart

But clearly I was wrong;

I thought you are starting to understand

But again, I was wrong.

My love,

Come and get me

When I loose myself to my mind

Be my anchor

When the lines of sanity blurs

Listen to the silence

As you're the only one who knows the language

Never let me sink into the void

Just let me take a breath...

I wish life had a pause button;

I wish I could hide behind a curtain,

Till I'm ready to face the world;

I wish I could take a break,

To gather my strength

And then resume the race;

I'm not saying I'll stop altogether;

Just let me take a breath

Let me take a breath, please...

It's all a lie

They tell you that the world is round,

That what you give, also comes around.

Then, why was I given deceit,

When I offered my trust?

Why, after all the secrets I shared,

You left me defenceless and bared.

So, tell me universe,

Was it all a lie?

They say time heals all wounds,

But mine gets sore with every ticking sound.

For once in my life,

I lowered the fences guarding my heart.

You smiled at me,

I thought, I already got the world.

But then you slashed me open,

Just to see what colour I bleed,

Did you ever stop to wonder,

how I would feel?

They say it's better to have loved and lost,

Than never to have loved at all.

And forgive me universe for I don't believe you,

As it changed my notion of life leaving it askew.

Before I used to see the beauty of starry sky,

Now all I see is the swarming darkness.

As it left me stuck in a time,

the world long since forgot.

As it left me Stranded on a road,

people no longer venture.

So, forgive me universe for saying this,

but love is nothing but an illusion,

like the beauty of the ocean,

as it lures the guileless heart,

only to steal it's breath.