Had To Repost! I Tried So Hard To Go Forward With Him.... We Just Can’t Seem To Get It Together!

I feel you

“Too shy to say, but I hope you stay.”

— Billie Eilish / come out and play

“I’m one of those people that you have to keep your eye on or I’ll wander off into the woods and forget to come back.”

— Jack White

I’m trying

Damn

I love to turn you on

I wish that I could do this

“If you can’t figure out where you stand with someone, it might be time to stop standing and start walking.”

— Unknown

This is so true!

My father in law of 21 years actually did that to me a few weeks back…. Just acknowledgment was more than anything else that he could’ve said.

“Sometimes when I say “I’m okay”, I need someone to look me in the eyes, hug me tight and say “I know you are not”.”

— Unknown

I stay in pain all of the time. I was beginning to think that it was in my head until I find out I have some semi serious issues going on, and if I don’t make some changes now, with in 4 years maybe 5 years I’ll be in a wheelchair and that is worse than I could imagine… even though I’ve got proof of this my on and off again husband acts like There’s nothing wrong with me. No matter how I talk to him or try and confide in him, he just acts like I’m faking, or that it’s not that serious. I don’t get it. I mean I would understand if I thought he was worried or concerned at all, but he goes on about life getting to be a little more of an asshole daily. It’s like after he’s been an asshole for a couple days. After he slept on the couch periodically through the week. Then he wakes up one morning and wants to go shopping and do something together. Which I don’t normally I would love. But, it’s really hard to act like everything is OK when it’s been like this. I’m not a light switch. I tried to talk to him I’m trying to explain things how I feel be open. But it’s like he doesn’t even hear me. So I wouldn’t want to go be around him when he makes me feel stupid for asking questions or for not understanding something when all of it comes from the issues that I’m having it’s not my fault I would never make him feel stupid about anything I don’t get people. Especially not him. I Feel like if he wants to stick this out with me and work through this with me. And things would be totally different. I refuse to continue to cause conflict between us for something that I have no control over, this is all too much! But what do I expect when I ever need him the most he’s never been there.

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You’ll see that you will be able to adapt regardless

“If you care about somebody, you should want them to be happy. Even if you wind up being left out.”

— Stephen Chbosky, The Perks of being a Wallflower