I Stay In Pain All Of The Time. I Was Beginning To Think That It Was In My Head Until I Find Out I Have
I stay in pain all of the time. I was beginning to think that it was in my head until I find out I have some semi serious issues going on, and if I don’t make some changes now, with in 4 years maybe 5 years I’ll be in a wheelchair and that is worse than I could imagine… even though I’ve got proof of this my on and off again husband acts like There’s nothing wrong with me. No matter how I talk to him or try and confide in him, he just acts like I’m faking, or that it’s not that serious. I don’t get it. I mean I would understand if I thought he was worried or concerned at all, but he goes on about life getting to be a little more of an asshole daily. It’s like after he’s been an asshole for a couple days. After he slept on the couch periodically through the week. Then he wakes up one morning and wants to go shopping and do something together. Which I don’t normally I would love. But, it’s really hard to act like everything is OK when it’s been like this. I’m not a light switch. I tried to talk to him I’m trying to explain things how I feel be open. But it’s like he doesn’t even hear me. So I wouldn’t want to go be around him when he makes me feel stupid for asking questions or for not understanding something when all of it comes from the issues that I’m having it’s not my fault I would never make him feel stupid about anything I don’t get people. Especially not him. I Feel like if he wants to stick this out with me and work through this with me. And things would be totally different. I refuse to continue to cause conflict between us for something that I have no control over, this is all too much! But what do I expect when I ever need him the most he’s never been there.
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“I’m one of those people that you have to keep your eye on or I’ll wander off into the woods and forget to come back.”
— Jack White
Still not one word. I feel like I just got befriended, betrayed, forgotten... this isn’t like me, I’m used to how people are, why do I always think so positive about people who her so evil, fake, and as always I’m without someone that I thought I earned trust from. I understood his issues and what I didn’t know I would figure out. But, ya know, obviously he wasn’t special, I am always good to people even when others say they don’t deserve my time, I’m always looking at every side of a situation. That’s the Gemini.... I’m not changing for anyone, but it’s so hard to try and build with someone to begin with much less continuously having to or wanting to try again to let someone new in to your circle as some call it, but I do keep my friends that are real and give them everything that a friend should! Im so emabarassed that I let him so close, I guess time will heal that...
This year has been so stressful, draining, and long! My best friend has completely wrote me out of his life. After everything we’ve been through, I’m lost. I feel so hurt, and abandoned. I tried working things out with my ex, even tho I knew it was a bad idea I still went with it, like every other time, seems like we callin back into the same routines. Idk, I’m 6 feet from the edge, somethings has to give, I’m so tired of being good to others just to have them make me feel like I don’t mean shit...
I wish that I could do this
“If you can’t figure out where you stand with someone, it might be time to stop standing and start walking.”
— Unknown
Had to repost this
“Don’t take my advice. Or anyone’s advice. Trust yourself. For good or for bad, happy or unhappy, it’s your life, and what you do with it has always been entirely up to you.”
— Nicholas Sparks, The Best of Me (via meineluft)
Wow nice to know that there are other like me....
It’s over and I know this. Letting you go is gonna be one of the hardest things I’ve done in a while, but life goes on, people come and people go. I’ll smile and go on, letting you have a small piece of me. Blessed to have met you. I do want the best for you.
Facts
Damn
