Eroticdragonfly - EroticDragonfly

Still not one word. I feel like I just got befriended, betrayed, forgotten... this isn’t like me, I’m used to how people are, why do I always think so positive about people who her so evil, fake, and as always I’m without someone that I thought I earned trust from. I understood his issues and what I didn’t know I would figure out. But, ya know, obviously he wasn’t special, I am always good to people even when others say they don’t deserve my time, I’m always looking at every side of a situation. That’s the Gemini.... I’m not changing for anyone, but it’s so hard to try and build with someone to begin with much less continuously having to or wanting to try again to let someone new in to your circle as some call it, but I do keep my friends that are real and give them everything that a friend should! Im so emabarassed that I let him so close, I guess time will heal that...

How can your heart get broken, yet you’re so happy for the situation, because it’s the right way to be and because you know it will make the person happy in the long run.... I may be loosing the closest person I have in my life, but this person that I’m loosing is gaining so much more than I could ever be for them.... I guess that is what people mean by, bittersweet....

I don’t understand people, feels like I’m different from everyone else. People are so fake and treat people that have ran over them, hurt them, almost destroyed them, better than they do the one in a million friend that had their back through any and everything.... really... smh!

I wish that I could do this

“If you can’t figure out where you stand with someone, it might be time to stop standing and start walking.”

— Unknown

I’m trying

This year has been so stressful, draining, and long! My best friend has completely wrote me out of his life. After everything we’ve been through, I’m lost. I feel so hurt, and abandoned. I tried working things out with my ex, even tho I knew it was a bad idea I still went with it, like every other time, seems like we callin back into the same routines. Idk, I’m 6 feet from the edge, somethings has to give, I’m so tired of being good to others just to have them make me feel like I don’t mean shit...

Damn...

“Maybe you weren’t the one for me, but deep down I wanted you to be.”

— Khalid; Coaster (via perfeqt)

Facts, smh

Never thought about it like that