Things I Have Said While Watching Aot

as a shy person who has a really deep fear of being judged and absolutely terrified at the aspect of possibly embarrassing myself, practical exams are hell

Do you ever think you'll stop drawing fanart? No offense it just seems like the kind of thing you're supposed to grow out of. I'm just curious what your plans/goals are since it isn't exactly an art form that people take seriously.

Ah, fanart. Also known as the art that girls make.

Sad, immature girls no one takes seriously. Girls who are taught that it’s shameful to be excited or passionate about anything, that it’s pathetic to gush about what attracts them, that it’s wrong to be a geek, that they should feel embarrassed about having a crush, that they’re not allowed to gaze or stare or wish or desire. Girls who need to grow out of it.

That’s the art you mean, right?

Because in my experience, when grown men make it, nobody calls it fanart. They just call it art. And everyone takes it very seriously.

"your writing is so beautiful" "you're so talented" "your stories are amazing" "i love your poems, theyre so lovely and so well-written" okay but tell me what can i do to make it better. pick apart everything i have written and tell me which parts you don't like. ask me why this line is so weak compared to the paragraph above. say that you don't know what this means and that i should be more coherent. tell me that i should change this word, add this one because it sounds better, use a different phrase, cut out that line, change the structure, delete that paragraph. judge my writing with open eyes. please.

i need to know how the black dragons was formed

like how did shinichiro suddenly go "wait, i need to make my life more interesting" then thought that a gang was what he required

like did he see a movie about a gang and decided he wants it as well?? did he grow up in an environment where he heard or saw or experienced any gang-related things? did he ever tell anyone and no one thought "hey, thats a crazy idea. stop"???

and how did he come up with the name? did he stay up all night, writing down random words he thought were cool, watched several action movies, or just picked up on some english words by coincidence??? or did it come naturally to him as if it was meant to be?

and how the hell did he recruit people into a gang that just consisted of one man? like no offense to wakui but i genuinely find it hard to believe that wakasa and benkei looked at his weeping ass and thought "hmmm, yk what, i like you, i'll join your gang"??? ofc, wakasa and benkei joining meant their members did as well and thus their numbers grew, but did no one oppose? i mean i wouldnt wanna be under the command of a weak ass person. also, before wakasa and benkei, black dragons was just shin.

did he go around proclaiming he was the leader of the black dragons? people mustve thougt he was insane. and what about takeomi? as far as i can remember him and shin were childhood friends, so did takeomi never stop to consider what shinichiro was doing? was takeomi genuinely on board with whatever shin did? i mean, like, he wasnt ever like "hey man, you need to calm down, youve got a brother to take care of."??

i am genuinely curious because black dragons is a prominent gang but i feel like we know so little about it, which is the same case as its leader. i hope we get some information soon.

if mitsuya is into rock, then draken is into rap

so .... i tried to draw some tokrev characters on a small white balloon

and....

yall should try it sometime

idk if i should be worried about this but i can't seem to relax properly as in there is a dull pain in my chest, right above my heart - might even be my heart tbh but it's not like a searing pain. it's like if someone is gently pushing my chest.

my heart also feels like it's beating very fast but when I press my hand against my chest it feels normal. at least that's what I'm getting

ive never had anything like this

this has been going on for a while ever since I started to eat lunch. I came back from exams which is offline here. I felt nothing on the way. now I've washed the dishes (it felt weird even tho I used to do it all the time) and am on my bed now, going to fall asleep and hopefully wake up more refreshed. I admit school has been stressful cuz of the practical exams I had and now I have exams till second week of march.

idk if it's cuz of the stress I've accumulated but I just wanted to write it down. for evidence ig

listen as much as i love osamu

me being the picky eater that i am, i feel like he'd get so annoyed

osamu: bruh you haven't even tried this yet, how tf do u know it tastes bad??!!

me: i just know!!!

FUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKK I GOT SPOILED

you ever think something like this happened in aot

person A: *dies by slipping on a banana peel*

person B: damn, didnt even get eaten by a titan. weakass.