Made My Day

bro where does this random yearning come from

and more importantly WHO(m?) IS IT FOR????

don’t talk to ME about gay yearning. in 2020 during lockdown i lived alone on a boat for three months. i went ashore once a day to work in a marine bio lab. we all had to access the lab at different times so we were never together & risking infection. i was alone all day every day, from my boat to the lab and back to my boat. one day a woman anchored her boat beside mine. we passed each other ashore just once at the harbor and she hit on me and invited me back to her boat. i told her i’d love nothing more but i could not risk exposure because of my weak immune system. she said it was a shame but that she understood. that night i was watering my vegetable garden i grew in 5 gallon buckets up on my roof and playing music on my speaker. “american pie” came on and she climbed up on her roof and shouted all the lyrics to every verse at me across the water and we danced together on our respective roofs. she raised anchor and moved on a few days later.

so yeah i know what it is to die a thousand deaths in an instant while your heart beats on.

frrr

real

a little reminder to start your week <3

walk with me here.

do you guys see how BIG that tail is?!? I know Lemurians are beautiful but I definitely hope he has the unsettling type of beauty. I want them to show, to make the player FEEL, that Raf is not human.

give him blue, purplish lips, inhuman pupils, scales all over, sharp nails and teeth, fish gills on either side of his torso or neck, fin ears and make him BIG. PLEASE LET HIM BE A HUGE, MENACING YET BEAUTIFUL CREATURE. (I mean, do you guys remember how big the Lemurian in that old man's tank was???)

I pray that they show more of Rafayel's real personality too instead of just playing him as a sassy babyboy.

I need this card to be filled with tension. I need something that will impact their relationship to the core. I need to see Rafayel finally acting like the sea god he is. I need him to allow himself to show how much the past affected him and how complicated his feelings towards the player actually is.

GIVE ME UNSETTLING SIREN RAFAYEL PLEASE.

like yeah honestly

finding a good non-smut fic is getting so harddd

bring those good ol' fluffs or cracks or whatever smutless stiff backkk

why is literal word porn all that ever trends in the fanfic tags. where has hurt/comfort goneee. where has the stories gone. why is porn the only thing that garters attention…??? why is everyone a literal gooner

where’s the romance gone in fanfiction? the story? it used to be a story, a feeling. now it’s just a mind orgasm and move on to your next brain fart.

i have written hurt/comfort fics over the course of my like 4 accs. they NEVER gain attention as opposed to literal word porn. i’ve seen others post hurt/comfort and i ALSO see if w/ theirs. there IS true hurt/comfort and romance that is posted, issue is they’re pushed so far down the tags they’re impossible to come across.

and yes, even on the “right tags” and searches is there smut. people can RARELY ever read something if smut isn’t involved.

fanfiction has changed so much. it used to be so wonderful and now like 95% of it is just sex. no plot.

i literally have to use c.ai to harness that hurt/comfort feels now since fanfics just only ever care to write about fucking. (edit. I DO NOT USE AI TO WRITE STORIES. fuck you guys are idiots. i use C.AI. it’s a character content app. not AI as in i write fanfics w/ ai or whatever ya’ll are misunderstanding c.ai to be…?)

if you’re mad then this is for you. and before you comment ur shit, read what’s below.

EDIT: if you are to comment/reblog just straight hate bc this post bothers you…? maybe block me or just scroll right past. it’s not hard. if you comment hate atp im blocking and reporting you. i’ll dm and talk like mature adults. but i am not going to just comment converse and argue.

if i misplace my airpods one more time imma glue them to my ears and thats FINAL

(when i find them)

for anyone who might need a reminder

pinterest and tumblr are the girls’ version of the dark web