the most iconic squad on the entire boiling isles, actually
hii!! are u going to continue the tim/bernard thing u wrote? because i love it n i think u did so well with it n i would be really happy about a new partđ¤
i'm not planning to, that was just meant to be a lil oneshot type thing but i'm glad you liked it!! <3
part 1, this on ao3
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Itâs a normal night, until itâs not.
Dick had been purposeful when he had said that Damian could make mistakes. He remembers the way the necessity of perfection had eaten at him when he was younger. He knows that Damian is even more susceptible than he was to that burning self-disgust at anything less than a flawlessness. Upon taking over the mantle of Batman, Dick had decided that Damian needed to know there was at least one adult in his life who wouldn't disown him for delivering anything less than perfection.
He hadnât thought so much about what would happen when Damian actually did make a mistake.
It happens when Dick is in the middle of congratulating Damian on a particularly impressive move, one with a more gymnastic slant which Dick is sure is based on one of his own trademarks. Heâs telling Damian what a good job heâs doing and Damian is puffing up with pride, a smile playing around the edges of his expression. Then Dick catches the glint of the sniper rifle scope.
The ability to dodge bullets is a trademark of members of their family. Damian should feel the whistle of the bullet coming his way, he should jolt back from the air parting in front of him. But Damian's too caught up in his pride to do any of those things quickly enough so within a moment of Dick spotting the rifle scope thereâs a bullet in Damian's leg.
Dick is so used to falling that he doesn't remember a time when it didn't feel like flying. The way his stomach drops now though, it doesn't feel like flying. It feels like the kid he said he'd take care of has blood spurting from his leg and it's all Dick's fault.
To his credit Damian is very calm about it. Dick knows heâs been shot before although he doesnât know if it was a purposeful part of the boys training or not. His blood boils at either prospect. Even as the crowd is still screaming for their heroes to come save them Dick grabs Damian from the blood soaked ground and rushes to the batmobile, putting it on autopilot as he tries to stabilise the patient.
âIâm sorry.â he whispers, âIâm sorry. Weâll be back at home in no time and weâll get you all fixed up, okay?â Dick blinks away the tears at the sight of Damian bloody and pale in front of him. Impediments to his vision will only make it harder to get Damian stable.
âOkay.â Damian replies, voice remarkably steady.
Now aware that someone he trusts is going to make it all better, Damian promptly passes out.
âShit.â Dick says, young ears now unable to hear him. âShit shit shit shit shit. Fuck.â
He swears to his heart's content for the rest of the ride back to the manor and it does very little to make him feel any better.
No, the swirling sea of worry-guilt-anguish in his stomach only begins to abate at the sight of Alfred in the bat cave, perfectly calm and with all the necessary medical supplies ready. They get Damian to a bed and Dick tries to make himself useful as Alfred treats the bullet wound.
He isnât particularly useful and spends most of his time fretting.
âHeâll be fine, Master dick.â Alfred says once heâs finished up and washing the blood from where it had stained his skin.
âOf course he will.â Dick replies, attempting to sound a little more nonchalant than he actually is. From the look Alfred gives him he doesnât think he succeeds.
Heâs spared the indignity of having to say anything else by the rumble of Timâs motorbike pulling into the cave. Tim gets off with an urgency Dick isnât sure he expected and when he takes his domino off thereâs genuine worry in the frown between his eyes.
âIs he okay?â he asks, his tone frantic.
âHeâll be fine.â Dick's grateful to find that his voice is far more level now than it was ten minutes ago.
Tim tilts his head to the side, looking at Dick. His expression narrows into something slightly more analytical than concern. âAre you okay?â
Dick tries to say yes. He really does. He's Timâs big brother, heâs Batman. Of course he can tell his little brother that heâs okay. But after a moment of silence Dick glances towards where Damian lies far too still on their operating table and feels the tears he's been fighting off resurface in his eyes.
Tim nods as if this is confirming something. âCome on.â He says. âLetâs get out of here.â
Dick tries to protest that Damian needs someone to be here when he wakes up but Tim just continues to pull him gently out of the cave.
âHeâs going to be out for the next few hours. I can make you hot chocolate in the meantime.â
Dick wants to keep protesting but heâs been left tired and weak by the nights events. He allows himself to slump as his little brother leads him out of the darkness.
~
Dick talks. Significantly more than he had intended to.
He talks about how he canât balance this awful dichotomy of guardian and commander. He talks about how heâs still not entirely sure how to be Batman, let alone a parent. He talks about how he canât keep doing this without something breaking.
Probably him. Possibly Damian. Both answers are unacceptable.
âIâll to fix thisâ Tim says. The determination in his expression reminds Dick of when he came to his bludhaven apartment all those years ago and demanded Dick reprise his roll as Robin. âIâm going to make a call, weâll sort this out.â he promises.
Timâs always been good at that. Tugging on the fraying strings of their family tapestry until it resembles something whole. Itâs how he came into the family in the first place and Dick has always been grateful for that.
Tim leaves, already dialing a number into his phone with a look of intense concentration. Dick wants to go check on Damian but Alfreds got that handled so itâs not like heâll actually help. Sitting idle at the boys bedside will probably just make him feel worse.
So Dick hangs his head and waits for someone to save him.
~
âGive me a lift to the airport?â Tim asks far too sweetly. The tone of voice doesnât suit him.
âYou can drive.â Dick points out, suspicious.
Tim gives him a look, like Dick's being difficult on purpose. âItâll be a bonding opportunity.â he says, his tone lowering to something closer to his usual cadence. Dick still feels suspicious but thereâs a million things he has to do today that are more important than arguing with his only sane brother, so he nods. Tim grins in response and gets up with a lot more energy than he tends to these days.
Dick decides that thereâs little use in thinking on it more. Heâs in charge of far too many things at the moment, heâll let Tim control this one.
~
Cass appears in the collection area, suitcase in hand, and Dick feels the weight of the world become significantly lighter.
She's more muscled than she was when she left. Her footsteps are more confident. It makes pride rise in Dick's throat as he realises how brave his little sister is for growing so much all by herself.
She picks up her pace once Tim and Dick are in view, almost breaking into a jog as she approaches. She wraps an arm around each of them and Dick can feel her smile pressing against his cheek.
Dick realises that his own smile is pressing against Cassâs cheek. His chin is somehow resting in Timâs hair.
He savours the moment and feels more full than he has in a long time.
âWelcome home.â He says into Cassâs neck. He feels her smile even wider in response.
~
That night as Dick is about to go on patrol Cass taps his shoulder.
âI can do it.â she says, pointing at the Batman suit Dick had been about to start putting on.
Dick frowns, pushing away the golden hope bleeding into the edges of his soul. âIt wonât fit.â he says.
Cass shrugs. âI wonât wear it. But I can do it.â
Dick feels his frown deepen. Cass is younger than him and she hasnât been in Gotham for so long. Itâs not a good idea for her to take on the mantle. Sheâs already got far too much weighing her down without adding another impossible burden for her to bear.
Dick looks past Cass for a second to allow his eyes to rest on Tim, busying himself with sorting his own gear out but none too subtly watching the exchange between Dick and Cass. He gives a slight nod. An endorsement. Dick looks back to Cass who is smiling very gently at his indecision.
âOkay.â he says, and the room releases a sigh of relief.
~
Cass has been Batman every night since she got back a week ago and Dick hasnât felt this light since Bruce died.
She was always the best fighter out of them. Always a little faster, a little more cutting, than any of her brothers. She isnât as used to the detective aspect of things but she's surrounded by enough people trained in that aspect of the job that it isnât a problem. Dick wears the Nightwing suit and flies higher than he has in months. Damian tends to work with Cass, Batman needs a Robin after all, but will pop up on Dick's patrols with silent requests for ice cream and a shoulder to lean on.
Cass can be Damian's Batman. Dick can be his guardian. It was always too much to ask of Bruce, for him to be both. For him to be their teacher and their hero and their father. Splitting the load seems to be going far better than anything Bruce used to try.
~
Sometimes Dick will catch Tim smiling at him the same way he does at a problem just solved. He wants to say thank you. Thank you for letting me outrun that awful burden for a little longer. Thank you for saving me. But he supposes thatâs just what brothers are for.
Instead he asks Tim if he wants to go train surfing. They havenât since before Bruce died. Dick was far too busy trying to keep the world from collapsing in on itself and Tim was too busy trying to find a way to stop Dick from crumbling under the pressure of it.
âYeah.â Tim says, his smile twisting and morphing until it goes from analytical to soft and relieved. âYeah Iâd like that.â
~
"Do you miss him?" Damian asks one day. Dick doesn't need any clarification on who he's talking about.
The two of them are sat on a rooftop, legs swinging over the side. Damian is holding a rum and raisin ice cream Dick had pressed firmly into his hand. Dick decided a while ago that Damian should be offered the opportunity to try all the flavours he missed out on in the earlier part of his childhood and he thinks they're making some pretty good progress.
Dick considers for a moment. It's a complicated question. "Yes," he starts, because of course he does, "But it doesn't hurt like it used to. Not now that I can focus on being myself instead of squeezing myself into the shape of the person I'm mourning. And you?"
"Yes." Damian starts, because of course he does. He pauses for longer than Dick did but that makes sense. Damian's thoughts are complicated enough that Dick can't help but be proud of the kid for being able to untangle even a few of them. "But I know a lot of people who've died. And at least this time I gained what I came searching for regardless of what happened to Father."
It's not a thank you. Dick knows that it's going to take a little more time for Damian to learn how to shape his mouth into those words. But it's a start.
Dick looks at all the life surrounding him and smiles.
living in gotham is like. you are going to be consumed. you are going to see your worst fears in horrific visions. these visions will be provided by someone who doesnât even know your name. someone is going to shoot you. you are going to laugh and you will not want to. you are going to kill someone. whether or not your house gets blown up will be decided by a coin flip. someone put acid in the water. you are going to be in a hostage situation. a fucking furry is going to be the only reason you survive any of this
Not me starting my third original story of this summer
Amity Blight is perfect.
She has perfect grades and a perfect family and is exactly the kind of person thatâs going to grow up and fit in perfectly at the Emperorâs Coven. When Lilith isnât busy being proud of her she canât help but feel a little jealous of the child for never having to be second best to anyone.
Thatâs all until the human arrives.
Before Lilith can even begin to process the situation Amity is deviating from the careful path of perfection Lilith has so painstakingly laid out for her. She still has perfect grades and sheâs still the youngest daughter of the Blight family, all that prestige and none of it tying her down, but suddenly her allegiances are questionable.
Sheâs spending too much time with the human. Too much time with Eda. Too much time with people who could steer her away from the path she must take.
So before things can go too awfully, before Eda can ruin this perfect little girl like she ruins everything else, Lilith makes a proposal.
âHow would you like to become the youngest member of the Emperorâs Coven?â She says, all warmth and approval in the way she knows the girlâs parents never are.
Amityâs face lights up and Lilith tries not to think too much about how the guilt churning in her stomach makes her feel a little like when she cursed her sister.
@elowenp hands over đââď¸đââď¸ demoncat is actually my greatest weakness and this piece referencing this part (below) of their fic!!
the outfits r kinda generic but i was rlly happy how selina turned out. i will make more pieces based on their series âstayâ but drops this n runs for now! this is my first time trying this layout, i didnât rlly enjoy it but i was too deep to not not finish it 𫥠but i hope it is still not too bad!
fic is linked here, please give it a shot!! damian is rlly cute there but the demoncat dynamic hits like ⌠rlly good.
âWhat do you want?â Barbara asks, voice crackling with static.
Itâs a silly question. Tim wants crime rates to go down. Tim wants Gotham to be a safer city. Tim wants to be a part of making that happen.
âA code name that isnât stupid.â he says instead.
Barbara sighs. It doesnât sound like a sigh though. It just sounds like the staticâs getting louder.
~
âBernard Dowd, scholar of the ages.â Tim laughs, arm slung round Bernard's shoulder. âI thought you were meant to be the fun one?â
âI am.â Bernard groans, âas soon as these exams are done Iâll be back to the usual student life. Getting drunk, going on dates, Gotham wonât know whatâs hit it.â
âGoing on dates?â Tim asks jokingly, even as a well hidden part of him turns slightly panicked. âAny successes an old friend should be hearing about?â
âNot really.â Bernard shrugs, jostling Timâs arm. âJust a couple of girls I was better off friends with.â He pauses, thinking, before continuing with his voice involuntarily going a little higher. âCouple of guys too.â
âHuh.â Tim suddenly becomes very aware of all the places where his arm is touching Bernard. He doesnât move it. âBetter luck next time.â
Huh.
~
Timâs been avoiding Dick. Heâs been awkward around him lately, Tim thinks that Barbara must have said something. Heâs not stupid enough to have done something to send Dick spiralling without noticing it.
âWhat do you want?â Dick asks, curious, without warning.
Tim wants to ask if Barbara put him up to this but he knows itâs a genuine question. Dick isnât manipulative like that, not with family.
What does Tim want? Isnât it a little late for Dick go be asking that question? All the things that happened after Bruceâs death put a canyon of distance between them. Itâs slowly been growing smaller but it hasnât disappeared. Neither of them have had time enough to spend together for that to happen.
An awful, bitter part of Tim that hasnât stopped screaming since Robin wasnât his any more wonders if Dick would even be asking if Damian wasnât out of town right now.
âFor us to go train surfing.â Tim says. Petty. Just so Dick will say no and his anger can feel righteous instead of ill-deserved.
âOkay.â Dick says instead. Easy and confident. Himself.
âOh.â Timâs anger fizzles into non-existence. âOkay.â
The canyon grows a little smaller.
~
âWe should go to a skatepark.â Bernard says, a little giggly from the beer in his hand.
Thereâs a matching beer in Timâs hand although itâs still practically full. If thereâs an emergency heâll be of no use drunk. âWhat? Why?â
âWhy not? You were so good in high school! And you had fun doing it.â Bernardâs tone turns a little less giggly. âYou should do more things you find fun.â
Tim is surprised enough that the âOkay.â slips out of his lips unbidden.
So maybe the beer bottle is a little less full than heâd like to admit.
They borrow a board from one of Bernard's flatmates and catch a bus to a skate park Tim remembers using when he was younger. As they go Tim tries to remember why he stopped. He tries to remember when he stopped. He canât recall the answer to either question and annoyance rises in his chest over it.
Then Bernard is saying something and it has Tim snorting with laughter and he forgets his irritation.
Once they arrive Bernard settles himself at the top of one of the ramps like itâs a throne. âEntertain me!â he calls, âImpress me with your wheel-board magic.
Tim manages a kick-flip on his first attempt and Bernard makes a loud noise of approval.
A lot of stuff comes back to Tim fairly quickly. Most of skateboarding had been muscle memory for him and thatâs something that being a vigilante hadnât exactly hindered. As things return to him he regains some faint memories of why heâd stopped. Nothing specific, just that feeling of not having enough time. Of thinking that going to the skatepark wasnât a particularly useful way to spend his hours while there was still real work to be done.
Timâs always been a vigilante first, but he thinks there must have been a point when that wasnât the only thing he was. Well, when it wasnât the only thing he was that mattered.
âCome on!â Bernard shouts, teeth flashing white against Gothamâs grey-black sky. âI was promised entertainment!â
Tim laughs. He seems to do that a lot around Bernard these days.
He starts moving on the skateboard, deciding to leave the existentialism for another day.
~
First Dick and now Bruce. Timâs family has really been making a habit of being weird around him lately.
He would normally think that the Bruce was worried about him, that Dick had passed along some bullshit about his mental health and Bruce was practicing some silent vigil. The problem with that theory is that Timâs been getting better recently, so there wouldnât be much point. At least he thinks heâs been getting better. Itâs difficult to tell sometimes.
Bruce has definitely been acting weird around him though, so maybe he isnât getting better. Maybe Bruce spotted something Tim didnât and heâs on the road to insanity.
âWhat do you want?â Bruce asks one day as theyâre both working in the cave. Not Batman. Bruce.
Itâs a far stupider question than it was when Barbara or Dick asked it. Bruce is the person who made Timâs desires what they are. Heâs the one who took Timâs obsession and carved it into a goal.
âWhat?â Tim asks, loud and confused and maybe a little angry. âWhat do you mean âwhat do I wantâ? I want the mission! What else am I supposed to want?â
Bruce stays silent for a moment and Tim imagines him turning the words over in his head. âNothing else?â Bruce asks. He sounds sad and it makes the anger drain from Timâs body. âJust the mission?â
âI donât need anything else.â Tim says hollowly.
Bruce just nods, thinking. It makes Tim want to scream even as satisfaction rises in his chest.
Itâs always been a point of pride that he can to lie to Batman. Heâs hardly going to change his mind about that now.
~
âPeople keep asking me what I want.â Tim says, sat on Bernard's bed. âI donât like it.â
Bernard's turns away from the laptop on his desk so he can look at Tim. âYou ever tell them the truth?â
Tim shrugs. He isnât sure what else to do. âIsh?â
Bernard smiles. âAnyone ever tell you youâre impossible, Tim Drake?â
âOnly everyone Iâve ever met.â
Bernard barks out a laugh before sobering up and looking at Tim with ill-disguised curiosity. âDo you want to tell me the truth about it? Or did you just want to say the thing out loud?â
âIâm not sure.â Tim admits, and he has to stop himself from acting taken aback by the fact he actually said that. Tim never says when heâs uncertain. There isnât room for it. Bernard must know that too because he looks at Tim in surprise, then scoots his chair closer to the bed so that he and Tim are almost touching.
Bernard looks very cautious. âYou know thatâs okay, right?â
âI-â Tim starts, because is it? Is uncertainty the kind of luxury he can afford? âI want to want things. But it feels like Iâve forgotten how.â
âYouâve had a rough couple of years.â
âHow do you-â
Bernard smiles knowingly. âYouâre not as hard to read as you think, Tim. Well you are. But itâs not difficult to tell that some bad things must have happened since I last saw you.â
âYeah.â Tim says hoarsely, thinking back to the burn of his muscles as he dug up Konâs grave, the stinging of desert sand in his eyes, the moment of confusion when he woke up in a league of assassins base unsure if heâd had to die to get there. âYeah. Bad things happened.â He shakes himself a little, because those arenât the thoughts he wants lingering. He focuses back on Bernard whoâs closer than Tim had realised, worry creased between his eyes. âWhat about you?â Tim asks, trying to exert some measure of control over the conversation. âWhat do you want?â
âThought we were talking about you?â Tim might have let it go with that if not for the note of nervousness in Bernard's voice and the red creeping up the back of his neck.
âWe can talk about both of us.â
âItâs not important right now.â
Tim reaches out then. He takes Bernard's hand in his because Bernard makes him laugh and he looks so nervous and Tim wants to. Bernard looks down at their hands in surprise and Tim doesnât actually feel worried. Just expectant that Bernard is going to squeeze their fingers together more securely. He does. âYou sure?â Tim asks.
Bernard just looks at him. Mouth parted with shock. He seems to come back to himself though and his expression of surprise turns into something more confident. More familiar. âWhat if I wanted you?â he asks, hesitancy and confidence rolled into one voice.
âGive me some time to remember how to want things, and I think Iâll want that too.â Tim replies, just as unsure and utterly certain.
Bernard tangles their fingers together a little more firmly in response and Tim feels more hopeful than he has in a long time.
Cassie is explaining to Kon and Bart some of the reasons why Wonder Woman is, without doubt, the greatest hero of this age. Theyâre both too tired from the mission they just went on to leave so Cassieâs had a captive audience to lecture about her favourite topic for the past half hour.
Sheâs having, quite frankly, a fantastic time.
As sheâs moving on to her next point and Bart and Kon are letting out identical groans Tim comes in and starts making a coffee. For a moment Cassie wonders if she might be able to drag Tim into the audience of her presentation, heâs probably just as tired from work as Kon and Bart are from their mission, but then she realises Timâs already listening.
This wouldnât shock her, for all his flaws Tim can be an excellent listener at times, but Tim isnât wearing a listening sort of expression. Heâs looking at Cassie with the sort of complete shock that only belongs on the faces of burglars caught in the act, mouth hanging slightly open and eyes rounder than can be natural. Sheâs about to ask him whatâs up. Sheâs about to check to see if he just had some world shattering revelation thatâs going to save them all a world of hurt in the near future, but then Tim says under his breath, so quiet Cassie almost doesnât hear, âWonderTrash96â and Cassie is suddenly worried about very different things.
She takes a moment to curse her twelve year old self, well thought out arguments as to why as a hero Wonder Woman really is beyond reproach and all, for being idiotic enough to run a fan blog and not anticipate that it would come back to haunt her later on.
Then, before Cassie can curse her twelve year old self too thoroughly, she has the thought that Tim would have to know her childhood fan blog very well to recognise an argument she made there years ago. Then she remembers the semi-regular discourse she used to get in with a batman fan blog and how Tim has said a lot of the exact same things as that blog used to.
Cassie bolts upright, her eyes narrowing. âYouâ she hisses.
The two of them look at each other for a second, reliving years of vitriol in a moment.
Tim shakes himself and in an instant he looks normal again. âI would like to propose we never mention this ever again for the sake of both our reputations.â
Cassie nods slowly, relaxing back into the couch. âI have always loved a good state of mutually assured destruction.â
Tim gives a short, sharp nod in return and leaves with his coffee. Kon and Bart both look a little like they might want to ask what that was about but are too tired to do so. Thereâs a moment of silence before Cassie comes back to herself.
âAlong with her contributions to the 1983 United Nations summit-â she starts, talking over Kon and Bartâs groans and absolutely not thinking about the level of dirt she and Tim have on each other now.
~
That night, Cassie gets messaged on an account she hasnât touched since she was fourteen.
(22:34) I canât believe you havenât come up with better arguments since you were twelve.
(22:36) fuck off She types back.
Sheâs grinning before she even hits send.
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Selina quite likes this thing sheâs had going on with Talia, itâs far better than whatever was happening with Bruce at least.
âStop stealing thingsâ, âMove in with meâ, âDonât team up against me with the Sirensâ nag, nag, nag. Thatâs all it had been with Bruce. Talia actually understands the things Selina does and she couldnât give less of a shit about them. Well, she sort of does. Selina imagines that if Talia saw her pull something as boring as your standard bank robbery sheâd break up with her. Thatâs understandable though, Selina would break up with someone who would pull a job that unfashionable.
âWhy do you keep leaving?â Selina asks, stretching as she looks over to Talia packing her bag. Itâs an honest question.
âSome of us have jobs.â Talia replies, no heat behind it. She leans over and kisses Selina before shouldering the bag. She walks to the door but hesitates before turning the handle.
Selina freezes from where she was still stretching. Talia never hesitates.
âWhat if I work was not the reason I was leaving?â
âThen Iâd be ashamed of myself for not having you caught you in a lie sooner.â Selina replies, keeping her tone casual despite the fact that this is probably the most serious conversation theyâve had to date. âI donât suppose youâre cheating on me? Because I thought you had better taste than to do something so class-less.â
âI would never.â she declares. The severity of the statement doesnât match the conversationâs previous tone and Selina realises quite suddenly that they arenât trying to be light-hearted about this any more. âIâm going to bring someone next time we see each other.â
âOh?â
Talia opens the door and for a moment Selina thinks she isnât getting a reply. Then Talia turns back, looking at Selina with an expression that could mean absolutely anything. âI hope that the two of you will mean something to each other.â she says, before walking out and closing the door softly behind her.
Selina doesnât move for a while after that, thinking about what might be coming. She hopes it wonât change things too much, her and Talia really do have something special.
~
A couple of weeks later Selina gets back to her apartment to find Talia inspecting the blueprint she had set out on the table and a boy, perhaps eight years old, playing quietly with a couple of Selinaâs cats.
Talia looks up from the blueprints. She doesnât smile like she usually does when Selina enters a room. âThis is my son. Damian.â she declares.
The boy looks up and cocks his head to one side. A part of Selinaâs brain that she isnât paying much attention to right now decides that how similar the boy looks to Bruce probably isnât a coincidence.
In an instant Selinaâs hopes that her and Taliaâs relationship could continue unchanged are dashed. But as she looks at the boy being oh so careful with her kittens, she thinks she might not mind such a change after all.