It Fucking Hurts So Bad Why Do I Have To Suffer With This Shit You Did To Me Why The Fuck Do I Always

You make me fucking hate myself you aren’t a real friend

Shit doesn’t get better I’m so sick of everyone telling me that my life is genuinely horrible I need to die oh my fucking god I’m so angry at myself I just want to fucking die

I’m a failure and an embarrassment

I can’t keep being alive I can’t keep doing this over and over again I just fucking can’t

I’m such a fucking loser and I’m fucked up beyond the point of recovery I’ll never get better I’m cursed to be this way forever I hate staying up I hate being alive I need to kill myself I need to fucking kill myself im such a worthless fucking retard oh my god I need to get fucking killed so bad oh my god I fucking hate my boyfriend and my life and my “friends” I hate everything I want to die why the fuck can I not fucking die

Everyone who considers themself a friend of mine is lying to themselves and staying to not take the guilt of me blowing my head off

I am forced to be awake every agonizing second to feel the worst mental pain in existence. I can’t kill myself because there’s such a big chance I will fail. Yet I can’t keep waking up like this anymore. This is limbo. This is my personal Hell. I can’t escape at all. I can’t fucking escape. I can’t leave. I have to be here and I can’t fucking do it anymore yet I am forced to because the alternatives are no better. I’m so fucked. I am so fucked

Why can’t I reverse time why did I turn out this way

I am so unimportant and it hurts. My life is nothing but a sick joke. I’m stuck inside of purgatory. Surely hell can’t be worse than this. I don’t think it can get worse than this. I can’t take it. I have to die. I can’t keep living like this anymore

What is wrong with me why do I engulf everything and make it miserable why am I just the worst Fuckifn person on the planet