Digital-dissociation-blog - Digital Dissociation

I hate when I get told this. Especially by my own mother, who knows I’m sick. And has the same thing because fuck genetics sometimes right? So..Its like...I have a chronic disorder??? My own existence is an exhausting painful battle???? You should know this as well as anyone??? Smdh

Conversations with abled people I'm sick of

Me, chronically ill: Gosh, I’m so exhausted.

Abled person: YOU’RE tired????? *I* worked all day!

Your daughters do not exist to give you grandchildren

I fucked around and my bpd ass caught feelings and now I think I have a new FP. Welp.

anyone else ever daydream for 6 hours straight and then after ur just like nah let’s scrap that and do it all again but slightly to the left

What even am I to him? I’m tired of the questioning. Im just going to give up I guess. He’ll never love me the same way. Im just going to settle for my ex and forget any feelings I have for him. Im tired of being lonely and confused and unloved, my daydreams have become hell knowing it will never be real. Im done.

Love doesnt exist.

7/2/19

10:20pm

6lbs down in a week so far, pretty excited about that.

370c for dinner, the only meal I eat.

Half a bowl smoked,

In such a weird fucking mindset today, I don't understand. I don't understand this feeling in my chest. What are you trying to tell me?

Slept 5 hours today, but not very good.

My mother is talking to and potentially dating a man I'm not very fond of, I hate it.

What is this fucking feeling engulfing me?