By The Time You Find This, I Will Be Dead. I Am Leaving This App Open On My Unlocked Phone Near My Body.

ANXIETY DISORDERS ARE NOT THE SAME AS JUST FEELING ANXIOUS/NERVOUS

Anxiety can cause horrible physical symptoms that make everyday life very difficult

It can make you feel utterly terrified, as though your life is in danger, for no apparent reason

It can give you panic attacks at any time, for any reason, or no reason at all

It makes you feel vulnerable and unsafe almost all the time

It is utterly, completely tormenting to live with

Triggers can be everywhere, anything and caused by anyone at any time

It is not a matter of shyness, cute blushing or butterflies in the stomach

It is a hideous, evil disease that I would not wish on anyone

It can be literal mental and physical torture to live with when it gets bad

PLEASE, PLEASE STOP TRIVIALISING ANXIETY (or any mental illness)

How to cope with being alone at home and paranoid

These are methods that help -> me <- not immediately go into full “terrible things are about to happen” panic mode

Im lowkey making this post to distract myself from being alone at home and paranoid but anyway

Call someone, even if its just making a doctors appointment or stuff like that. Consider a mental health line even when you’re not having a meltdown the whole experience is very distracting

If its during the day, open some windows and listen to life going on outside of your isolation chamber

Listen to some fun podcasts, mbmbam is my life and distracts me from incoming feelings of dread

Since you probably already thought of the worst possible outcome, try to think of the best possible outcome and come to the conclusion that probably neither is going to happen and that this day is going to be like any other day because nothing EVER happens

Dont watch that scary video

Dont do it

I swear to god

If you’re going to be alone the entire day and night, make a strict routine for that day so you’re going to be too distracted for fear

Sit in the sun, take a hot bath, put an icecube on your forhead, seek out sensory stimuli, but dont hurt yourself

Look for a pet, pet that pet

If you got stuff like “okay but did I REALLY lock the door?” over and over again ,visualise the memory of you locking the door in your mind and check in your mind reality instead of your meat reality

Make a post about your coping mechanisms because maybe they could help someone who knows

i can’t stop

Are you angry at me...? Is that why....? I’m sorry... I always pus h my luck dont i i am just so very stupid and im so stupid im sorry im soryr im sorry im sorryplease dont yell at me im sorry i promise... iw ont im sorry i always mess everything up

when you’re dissociating and someone asks if you are okay so you just

I realized that the only way someone would ever actually love me and want to be with me is if they didn’t even exist and were a figment of my imagination. The realization sort of hit me really hard and I don't think I’ve ever felt so painfully hurt, unwanted, and so utterly alone.  Because not even my own mother seems to love and want me. It kind of changes everything now. I might as well be dead. I’ll end up living a life in my head anyway. What kind of existence even is that? Not one I want..

Low Cal Fast Food Pt. 1 ; McDonald’s

Okay, so everyone seems to like these quick master posts about low cal fast food here we go with an in depth analysis: [DISCLAIMER: Only American calories for now, unfortunately. I need to research for other countries]

Qualifiers: For food, if it’s below 300 calories, I consider that to be relatively low. For drinks, anything lower than 200.

Breakfast Options:

- Fruit n’ Yogurt Parfait ; 150 calories, vegetarian (my personal go-to, and yes, that count includes the granola that comes with it)

- Fruit and Maple Oatmeal, no cream ; 290 calories, vegan (meant for a heartier breakfast where you actually need energy for school or something)

- Egg McMuffin, no cheese, no butter (say low quality dairy gives you the shits idk) ; 220 calories

- Egg White Delight McMuffin, no cheese, no butter ; 180 calories

**If you want to not be extra and order the Egg McMuffins with no cheese, but with the butter, the Egg McMuffin is 240 calories and the Egg White Delight McMuffin is 210

Burgers:

- Hamburger ; 250 calories

- Cheeseburger ; 300 calories

- Hamburger, no patty, extra veggies ; 170 calories, vegan

Chicken & Sandwiches

- Chicken McNugget 4 pack ; 180 calories (1 pack of ketchup is 20 cal btw)

- Chicken McNugget 6 pack ; 270 calories 

- Filet o’ Fish Sandwich, no tartar sauce, no cheese ; 270 calories, pescatarian

Salads:

- Bacon Ranch Grilled Chicken Salad, no cheese ; 260 calories (DOES NOT INCLUDE RANCH DRESSING, KEEP THAT IN MIND)

- Southwest Grilled Chicken Salad, no cheese ; 290 calories (this one comes with a glaze, but I don’t know if it’s the same as dressing?? someone hit me up with the right answer to this)

- Southwest Grilled Chicken Salad, no chicken ; 220 calories, vegetarian (also comes w glaze, still not sure what’s happening with that. idk)

- Side Salad ; 15 calories + dressing of your choice, vegan

Snacks & Sides:

- Kid’s Fry ; 110 calories (not vegetarian/vegan in the U.S.)

- Small Fry ; 230 calories (still not vegetarian/vegan in the U.S.)

- Apple Slices ; 15 calories, vegan

- Yoplait Go-Gurt, Strawberry Flavored ; 50 calories, vegetarian

Desserts & Shakes:

I know it’s not low calorie, but the lowest calorie milkshake at McDonald’s is a small vanilla milkshake at 490 calories, just for your information.

- Vanilla Cone ; 200 calories, vegetarian

- Kiddie Cone ; 45 calories, vegetarian

- Strawberry Sundae, no peanuts ; 270 calories, vegetarian

- Baked Apple Pie ; 230 calories, vegan

- Strawberries and Cream Pie ; 300 calories, vegetarian

- Chocolate Chip Cookie ; 170 calories, vegetarian

- Oatmeal Raisin Cookie ; 140 calories, vegetarian

Drinks

- McCafe French Vanilla Iced Coffee ; Small: 120 calories, Medium: 150 calories, vegetarian

- McCafe Caramel Iced Coffee ; Small: 140 calories, vegetarian

- Fanta Orange ; Extra Small: 120 calories, Small: 170 calories, vegan

- Coke ; Extra Small: 110 calories, Small: 150 calories, vegan

- Diet Coke ; 0 calories at any size, vegan

- Sprite ; Extra Small: 110 calories, Small: 150 calories, vegan

- Iced Tea ; 0 calories at any size, vegan

- Dr. Pepper ; Extra Small: 120 calories, Small: 170 calories, vegan

- Diet Dr. Pepper ; 0 calories at any size, vegan

- McCafe Strawberry Banana Smoothie ; Small: 190 calories, vegetarian

- McCafe Mango Pineapple Smoothie ; Small: 200 calories, vegetarian

- Sweet Tea ; Extra Small: 60, Small: 90, Medium: 110, Large: 160, vegan

- Powerade Mountain Berry Blast ; Extra Small: 70, Small: 90, Medium: 120, Large: 170, vegan

- McCafe Coffee ; 0 calories at any size, vegan

- McCafe Latte ; Small: 170 calories, vegetarian

- McCafe Iced Coffee ; 130 calories, vegetarian (only comes in 1 size)

- Fat Free Chocolate Milk Jug ; 130 calories, vegetarian

- 1% Low Fat Milk Jug ; 100 calories, vegetarian

- Minute Maid Apple Juice Box ; 80 calories, vegan

- Dasani Bottled Water ; 0 calories, vegan

@shitididntthinkthisthrough

ALSO; if you have a fast food place you want to see low calorie options from, please message me, I’ll be happy to make a list for you!!

Every time I fuck something up I just want to die lol.