I... I Cant.. I Cant.. Anymore...

-Kurr

Music always moves me in such a way, nothing can compare. It makes me feel so alive, sending me to other worlds.

what bpd is like

Bpd be like…

A minor inconvenience? Initiate RAGE

A stranger smiles at you? Initiate LOVE

Your fp doesn’t respond three minutes after you message them? InitiateDESPAIR

Someone bugs you slightly? Initiate HATRED

Something is slightly more than you (more anything at all)? Initiate JEALOUSY

Something good happens? Initiate EUPHORIA

and it all changes within seconds…

dreamcast~*~*~*

welp. 

managed to make myself so irrationally angry I cant even breath. 

why on earth do I do this to myself? why? why??

my heart is pounding and racing out of my chest in firey anger and my eyes sting

I know I need to just relax and breathe but I swear its like blinding hot anger.

I shouldnt be so worked up over something from literally years ago that had nothing to do with me 

but.. fuck.. it makes me sick..

im just being a stupid irrationally angry crybaby and i hate it...

I somehow managed to i think dislocate my finger joint and I had to fix it myself and it fuckin ghurt. All I did was open a stupi dplasic thing and my finger was like lol fuck you too 

Letters to my parents, pt. 7