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Sometimes, I'm just chillin on the youtube and decide to watch one of Marks old videos.

One of the improve game ones or the cards against humanity or seven second challenge- baisically any of them w/ Ethan.

And let me tell ya the second that vid ends I need another vid immediatly

Cuz if I let myself think for a goddamn moment the fuckin Up song starts playing- dadada daaa dadada daa

I'm back :D

It wasn't that bad, actually met alot of fire people and the counsolers were awesome.

My mom snuck my sis her phone on the second day

APERENTLY we arent allowed to have our phones at this church camp which is bullshit cuz if theres an emergency I'm not waiting for the teacher lady to make her way over and make some calls.

I'm either bringing my phone or a fucking gun. At least a pocket knife or some shit.

I'm not even addicted to social media. Like, yes, I like watching youtube vids and yes I like scrolling tumblr and ao3.

But, I'm mainly PHONE addicted. I'm addicted to chatting w/ my friends on Discord and listening to music and stuff in samsung fucking notes. It's moments like these that I wish I asked for a walkman sooner.

I'm not trying to be "woke" about it or anything, I get that theyre trying to "reconnect us with the lord" and shit but in todays day and age and the fact we are literally on the brink of a fucking civil war I'd prefer to have my contact device in my back pocket.

Yall find you a friend who will politely call you out if you take things too far I love my homie soso much cuz i made the "im either bringing a phone or a gun to camp" remark from my previous post on discord and she was like "also dont joke about bringing a gun shooter jokes arent funny" and i fuckin keyboard smashing explaining that that was not at all what i was going for cuz i was like "oh i want some form of protection oh yes a gun gun equals protection" but it literally looks like a shooter joke and she was like "i figured, that didnt seem like the type of joke you would make i just had to be sure and also make sure you didnt say it infront of someone that didnt know you as well" like fhudj she was literally like "i was making sure you wouldnt make a mistake that you may get stuck in with someone who isnt the light of your world and also your best friend and i know you really well and believe that you wouldnt make a joke like that" my god i wasnt even anxious at all it was all "honest mistake"s "thank you"s "im sorry"s and "i love you"s

Me: I don't need a therapist. Thanks to my MaDD I know alot about my actions and reactions that would normally take years of therapy to figure out so seeking a proffesional to conferm that would be a silly waste of money.

Also me, thinking I'm selfish for thinking: I don't deserve anything I'm a worthless waste of skin I wish everyone would forget about me I'm such a bad person I should leave my friends and not burden them I should just run away so no one would

APERENTLY we arent allowed to have our phones at this church camp which is bullshit cuz if theres an emergency I'm not waiting for the teacher lady to make her way over and make some calls.

I'm either bringing my phone or a fucking gun. At least a pocket knife or some shit.

I'm not even addicted to social media. Like, yes, I like watching youtube vids and yes I like scrolling tumblr and ao3.

But, I'm mainly PHONE addicted. I'm addicted to chatting w/ my friends on Discord and listening to music and stuff in samsung fucking notes. It's moments like these that I wish I asked for a walkman sooner.

I'm not trying to be "woke" about it or anything, I get that theyre trying to "reconnect us with the lord" and shit but in todays day and age and the fact we are literally on the brink of a fucking civil war I'd prefer to have my contact device in my back pocket.

Chapters: 1/? Fandom: Sanders Sides (Web Series), Markiplier TV (Web Series) Rating: Not Rated Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Characters: Bingiplier (Markiplier TV), Googleplier Green (Markiplier TV), Googleplier Yellow (Markiplier TV), Darkiplier (Markiplier TV), Wilford Warfstache | William J. Barnum | The Colonel, King of the Squirrels (Markiplier TV), Bim Trimmer, Heapass (A Heist With Markiplier), Unus (Unus Annus), Dark Creativity | Remus "The Duke" Sanders, Creativity | Roman "Princey" Sanders, Logic | Logan Sanders, Anxiety | Virgil Sanders, Deceit | Janus Sanders' Snake, Morality | Patton Sanders Additional Tags: Attempt at Humor Summary:

Some incorrect quotes, but from my life :D

I woke up randomly last night, wrote this, and went back to sleep.

"my child is fine"

your child is looking up the birthdate of fictional characters so they can accurately place their own self inserts into the proper timeline.

You child preforms receptive moments like a stressed ape at the zoo for hrs a day

Your child listens to music so loud on their headphones that they no longer see what's in front of them but a whole other universe

me, I am that child

I like meeting other maladaptive daydreamers cuz it's so intresting to hear how it works for different people and it really brings awareness to the fact that there are other every-day people that are MaDD-ers and I'm not just some one-in-a-million. That being said it's also not a club sticker, unlike what my mom some people believe.

My mom now thinks I'm trying to self-diagnos myself and say I have trauma because she saw my serch history- which is a bunch of rabbit hole searches about mental exoustion and extreme isolation for reasons- and I'm trying to tell her "I'm a writer" without her asking to see my writing cuz all of it's on ao3. Pray for me, atheists

Soooo

My mom is sending me and my sis to a church camp for next week- a whole six-and-a-half days- but.. half of my shirts are Supernatural shirts. And it's the middle of summer so I'm not alowd to where jackets.

We have to have both "play clothes" and clothes for service (whatever the fuck that is)

AND we need "shower shoes" like flip-flops.

YALL I DON'T OWN FLIP-FLOPS

So, time sensative question: whAT DO I DO-

Wait, some people can just let themselves cry? No guilt or anything?

"Yeahh, twenty-twenty-two wasn't my best year.."

"What do you mean?"

"Weeell-"

You can here my dad and grandmother in the background😭

Throwback to Johnson City TN where we went to a resteraunt and Brent Stafford was playing live music there. He was taking song requests and my little sis-ten at the time -asked him to play Die a Happy Man by Thomas Rett and he took note of her jedi shirt.

It was also really fun when someone asked for Wagon Wheel and he was just singing until everyone screamed "JOHNSON CITY. TENNESSEEE!"

Y'know what sucks.

Having your love language be physical contact and everyone's chill about it.

You hug constantly, hold hands with your friends, cuddle with them, wrap an arm around their shoulder.

And then making knew friends, and barely touching them.

You rest your elbow on their shoulder once, they fall asleep during class and the teacher calls on them so you gentley rub their arm to wake them up, you hugged them once. One time.

And then, they say "You've just been really... touchy."

If the words didn't cut you enough, their tone, the way they glaced around nervously, split you.

They think you're a pervert.

You distance yourself from them. And, by force of nature, make a knew friend.

Some time passes, and, you've realized you're now terrified of touching someone without them touching you first.

You don't go in for hugs and squeeze youself into a corner so you don't bump knees with them.

Because, what if they think you're a creep.

It's more frightening than death at this point.

All the while, it hurts. You want to be close to them and hug them and hold hands and cuddle. And y'know what's worse?

They're 'touchy'.

They hug you all the time, they playfully nudge you, they came up to you and rest their head on your shoulder in greating, they've even held both your hands when you told them a not-so-normal story.

And, now, you live three hours away from them.

Man, I have such a bad headache right now, but, I WILL keep scrolling now matter how loud the voices of the achey noodle trapped in my skull protests, I will let it scream and wail until it's nothing but pain, and in the end. I will be the true winner.

Out in these parts, the squrrils steal the crab apples and go up to a big branch were they lie down upside down hangin' by their toes to eat

So, my sister shoved a googly eye in my figit spinner and yALL-

It looks like a Garten of Banban character-

I'm gonna draw it😭

This is crayon

On a napkin

The prompt being 'an adventure you'd like to go on'

I'm gonna hang this on my wall (it looks better irl)

Was forced to read a book, did not expect to be called out

I'm defidently getting manipulated sometime in the future

I fixed my keyboard by removing I A R and U :D

⟒⋏⎅⟒r ⌰⟒⏁⏁⟒r⌇ ⌇⏁i⌰⌰ ⊑⟒r⟒ ⏁⊑⍜u☌⊑

I'd like to think, with all my knowlage on thirty ways to kill ⏃ man, that ⟟ would be the protaganist in ⏃ horror movie. But, I've come to the realization that I'd probably be one of the extras that dies to BARELY advance the plot

⟟ am starting ⏃ cult!

And in this cult, we worship the deity known as:

Uck.

Though Uck is very small, his power holds no bounds. He deserves to be loved unconditionally.

As supreme leader, ⟟ am the only one who hold and communicate with Uck.

So come and join the Ucklings!

Y'know, ⟟ used to tell myself "At this point I'm relying on the 'personality guys'" but like.. ⟟ ain't got an attractive personality either

WHY WONT THIS DAMN SITE LET ME UPLOAD IMAGES

So.. ⟟ think there's something wrong w/ my sister.

She smacked ⏃ beetle w/ her notebook

Followed it to the bathroom when it didn't die somehow

Spent five minutes talking to it and trying to get it away from the drain

Said "Fine, you deserve to die." And turned on the water

Changed her mind and tried helping it again

Gave up and walked away

I'm gonna die by choking on cotton candy or some shit