I've Been Feeling Like Throwing Up The Last Few Days, Maybe I Should. Maybe It'll Be Successful This

not being able to kill myself is the worst feeling

why's my dog being a weirdo an licking the blood from my carpet

“So like you, I'll end my suffering

Cause you rape and you take it all away

Cause you rape and you take it all away

Fuck you”

mind is being vaguely religious again

“Made my bed

cleared my head

closed my eyes

let me rest

fuck the help!

fuck my friends!

fuck my life!

let me end!”

my range of emotions go from “it’s scary how much i feel” to “it’s scary how much i don’t feel”

i don't think you get just how much I need A back. i needy my lover back.. I need him to come back. i need to feel okay again. i need him.

failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure

genuinely want a skateboard and learn how to to do but like, I'm too fat and out of shape for that.

honestly just getting more and more afraid to ever get into another/new relationship because of this. I'm afraid, I'll be constantly afraid that they'll just suddenly leave one day too. I'll get overly too attached and clingy. on top of my already constantly splitting on people. I'm just fucking afraid now because of him.